Love, or Pride?

wah! i feel like i'm draining ink off ALL printers! hahaha i just printed some elang revision stuff.. wah.. lots and lots of revision exercises... also went to print all my stars readings wif pema today.. feel quite mugger now. hahha but its a good feeling.. at least i got my tutorial done.. haha! =) went to print the SS readings too.. but i DON'T understand! argh! hahaha

anyway.. i'm gonna be a bia-er this month.. hahahah whee! zip zip zoom!

tmr got meeting.. den got duty for evening on sunday.. =) oh.. n i must tell someone that i can't do duty on 26th dec.. haaa...

i tink i'm like left wif 3 weeks before exams lo! gosh! time realli realli flies in uni.. how does it happen man?????

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/29/2004 09:54:00 PM .

this is interesting.. we jus had our last elang lect.. boy am i gonna miss sitting in lecture.. but the wonder of all wonders is.... NO more getting up at 5.30AM!!!! woohooo *pops champagne* haha but seriously speaking.. i like elang.. really do.. i'm probably gonna major in elang.. i mean.. its jus so interesting lo.. dun understand how ppl can hate it.. haha!! =P but den again.. i dun exactly like SEA but some frens find it real insightful.. hahaha weird..!

anyway.. i've decided.. i'm jus gonna immerse myself in work le.. gonna be concentrating on ministry and skool from now on.. november is gonna be my stretch period where i'm gonna jus live on the fuel of faith.. i realise that i need to get my footing in Christ stable again.. i'm beginning to slip.. and i tink that's real bad.. = Lord.. help me.. help me once more to feel the reality of U in my life.. =)

ar well.. not going for swaps sub comm recruitment tea later.. first reason is, wanna go back and do work.. second is.. haaa.. feeling anti-social..!!! =)

there! i've said it..

i dunno why but its jus towards some ppl that i can't really talk to la.. and i'm kinda frenly.. (pls.. say i am...) and i dunno.. to some ppl in a particular class of mine.. i can't really click wif em.. and frankly i'm kinda ticked wif one particular person... i'm fine wif the other person.. ar well... =P

later gonna meet shufen for lunch.. haha cuz she was saying that she felt so bad she couldn't send me to skool once all these weeks of lecture we've been having.. haha cuz of coordination prob wif her dad la.. but aiyah.. it doesn't matter to me lo.. =) cuz its kinda fun to travel in the morning.. battling all the sleepy heads..trying not to get em to rest on u thru out the ride! hahaha! laaaalaaaa

i got NEW phone!!!!!!! wheeeee!

oh.. and i tink its time to change my blog template le.. haha but i'm kinda lazy to do that.. maybe i'll jus add some snazzzy pic to it.. heh...

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/29/2004 10:26:00 AM .

haaa.. okay.. i admit it.. i've been too lazy to update my blog.. hahaha =)

but i've had a wonderful birthday.. thanks to my sister who really went all the way to make this yr such a special yr for me.. =) and also to my quirky elang grp frens who totally cracked me up on my bday morning until i started luffing out loud and had to explain my insanity.. hahahah! and i realise that this yr's really been different.. somehow.. i feel so appreciative of those who remembered and i jus felt so blessed to know em.. so when i sent out msges to thank them it was really my way of saying thank u for being there all the time, for sticking it thru wif me, for loving me for who i am.. wow! is it age??? hahahah i've nv thot of it that way before.. hhaha or rather i tink i didn't.. hmm.. age....

*grinz*

i feel like i'm growing up.. seriously.. like my taste is slowly changing.. like i jus got this pair of shoes from joluene, tino and matt.. and i love em! haha jus that i haven't worn em yet.. heh.. but yeah.. it was den tt i realise tt my tastes have kinda evolved... hmmm ...

and i'm soooo excited! hahaha i'm gonna get a new phone! wow! this is so cool lo.. my first ever flip phone.. =) this is why i tink my taste is changing.. cuz i'm like a flip-phone person now.. haha its so professional.. or rather it gives that kinda professional feel to it. hahaha

to those that have been trying to sms me and contact me on 26th october 2004.. so sorry.. i'm using this really constipated phone (while waiting for the new one) and i hv absolutely no idea who i'm msging cuz the numbers come out but the names don't.. heh... sorry sorry ar... =P

oh well.. i gotta get to my term paper la.. need to edit stuff... sooooo.. shall blog some other day! ciao!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/26/2004 07:56:00 PM .

wheee! its gonna be my birthday! hahaha

there's this weird/odd pattern in humans.. when u're really really young, ur parents will want everybody to know ur birthday and they do that by giving out lotsa sweets.. and chances are you're prob too young to even understand the significance of birthdays.. and den as u get older.. the singaporean modesty sets in.. everytime it reaches ur birthday.. u jus say "NO! it ISN'T!" haha odd eh? and den once we hit the above 16 age.. we begin to publicise our birthdays.. hahah so let me jus complete e cycle on my part

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TMR!!

wahahahha... i better say this while i can before age catches up and i shall have to resort to concealing my age the best that i can.. wahahahhaah best lo.. =)

but to tell the truth.. i was kinda dreading it.. nooo not cuz i'm getting older.. but cuz.. its jus so stressful.. hahaha like everyone will wanna get ur attention.. and it doesn't help tt this yr my bday falls on a saturday.. one of my most busy days wor.. hahahha

but den i guess it'll be fun.. the only thing i'm really getting ticked over is the fact that i can't meet up wif ohana... sighz.. so sad.. really wanna spend bday wif em.. guess i shall jus have to wait till dec...

which reminds me.... i tink my mum is gonna book a hotel rm for dec 24,25 and 26.. hahaha so xm and erjie...feel free to come ar!! come on one of the days and we can frolick in the sun!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahah i make it sound so comical don't i?

argh! my term paper.. is due on MONDAY! and i wanted to use the afternoon of sunday to do it.. but i gotta attend this class.. its make up class la.. but if i dun attend i'll have to re-do the course and i DON'T WANT! eek! ar well.. guess i shall jus have to get on wif my work.. maybe do it tmr morn.. so i can have a more relaxed sunday printing things out.. haaaa~

turns out next week is gonna be quite busy too.. cuz i got an assignment to hand in for stars.. and my friday term paper deadline... after those i gotta start work on my lit essay.. den my stars termpaper... =P so happening eh?? haha

boy.. i'm glad i didn't stay back in skool to wait for net.. hahaah for ur info.. i'm having 2 nets this week! hahaha cuz i'm taking over lisha's net for her while she's away on holiday.. hahah so cute rite? like relief shepherd.. =P wait.. this sounds familiar..did i type it here before? hmmm.. getting old.. can't remember le... my 19th yr is pressing hard on my brains.. anyway.. i had a good time la.. its kinda refreshing leading another net.. not that i'm unhappy wif my net.. but yeah.. its interesting.. and i really learnt alot.. tink God is simply awesome.. He uses everything to teach us.. cuz He wants us to grow.. =) also learnt the true heart of a shepherd.. that is to care for sheep.. in general.. doesn't matter whose.. as long as they are sheep..they deserve the care... heeee~

oh! i pon elang lecture today!!!! wahahahahaha... very bad la.. but it feels kinda good.. cuz for once i get to wake up late on a friday.. and cuz its totally against schedule... it was soooo relaxing to be able to be out of the hse when the sun was out.. hahhaa usually on fridays i only see the stars when i leave the hse.. haaa!

wheeeeee... BIRTHDAY!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/22/2004 11:27:00 PM .

yay! i'm so glad the week is coming to an end.. but also... the weekend is coming and its probably gonna be busy lo... heh... =P

well.. at least after this week.. everything would be more or less settled and assignments done.. and we hv exams to look forward to.. finally some semblance of normalcy aka jc and sec skool familiarity.. haaa~

managed to do my tutorials in the end.. haa thot i'd have to stay up till midnite to finish em lo.. thank God able to finish em.. heh heh..

anyway.. had a super fun nite yesterday.. cuz we went to watch WIMBLEDON! and i tink Peter colt and his german fren are SOOOOO CUTE!!!!! hahahahah *droolz* makes me jus wanna take up tennis for the game and for the hunks that are prob gonna look like em..but den in singapore.. hmmmm... maybe not... hhahah still wanna see my ANDREW MEADS in SINGAPORE wakeboarding at BEDOK RESERVOIR!!!!!! muahahah!

eunice was so nice.. drove us there.. tho we made her get lost.. hahah we ended up making wrong turns and u-turning and all tt.. haha for that we were kinda late for the movie.. but enuff to see a reasonable amt of it.. hahahah den afterwards had subway.. yummy!

love my elang group! hahaha =P

oh.. today i almost screamed on the train and kicked myself..(would hv been quite a sight eh?) cuz i TOTALLY forgot to bring my books to return today! argh! and the date due was today lo!!!! *pengz* i'm soooo gonna get fined.. ar well...

guess i'll jus hv to lug the books to skool tmr lo.. sigh... why friday must be so 'heavy' one.. feel like pon-ing.. but... later prob gonna meet nicola, sin yee, jamie and pema.. den dunno wad time they wanna meet.. and if i'm meeting em i might as well jus go for the lecture lo.. bleah..

and i'm feeling fat.. argh... i've got excess stuff hanging out all over the place! its gross... doesn't make me feel happy.. hmph! wish i could jus eat some kinda slimming pills and slim down jus like tt.. but i know that isn't the ans to health and a good bod.. its prob jus some kinda placebo and even if it works, it prolly works for a short period of time.. esp if i dun stop eating all my snacks and unhealthy stuff.. bleah.. can't stand it.. jus dun hv that kinda discipline to stop snacking.. when i'm stress i eat u see.. so u can see how i balloon up during stress periods.. sigh.. why can't i be like those kinda ppl who lose a lot of weight when they're stressed..hahahah ar well...

k.. enuff rambling... shld be getting to sleep soon.. otherwise i'd be cranky again.. hahahahaha

BAD!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/21/2004 11:15:00 PM .

argh!! flooded wif assignments.. my stars lecturers jus gave us an EXTRA assignment! yes! EXTRA! this is crazy! now i have to hand in a two page assignment on the nuclear stellar processes.. or stellar nuclear processes.. i dunknow... my brain is still reeling from the shock.. bleah!!

but one good thing is.. he's pretty flexible wif the deadlines and i know he's making us do this so that we won't die for exam.. haaa haaaaa and he's kinda expecting the term paper only after exam.. phew! this gives me like one month to do it la at least.. hahaha and at least i can bia the term paper after exam or something.. hahaha best...

gosh.. i'm sooo looking forward to december.. cuz den i can realli slack alr lo.. and even if i'm busy wif ministry.. i also dun tink i'd mind.. its kinda relaxing la.. but actually... come to tink of it.. i kinda like skool la.. ahahaha so it realli isn't a problem.. its jus NOW.. when all the term papers are like a week away from being due.. and when u've got OTHER assignments apart fr the term papers.. and tutorials to catch up wif each week.. eeeEk!

i'm fine i'm fine.. i'm good.. *breathes*

publicity is really getting to be a lil heavy now.. like loads of website articles to write la.. and most of my writers are kinda busy wif their o levels so i dun wanna bog em down wif writing.. at least not now.. next month is gonna be month of one accord alr.. hahaha i'm kinda looking forward to it.. tho it'll be busy.. i know that God will bring me thru.. and frankly.. studying for exams aren't realli gonna be much of a prob.. its jus the term papers that req more attention.. so once this month is over.. i can pretty much breathe normally... heh.. except of cuz.. for the stars term paper la.. which is TEN (1o) pages loooooooooong (hey.. there are 10 Os in that word) hahahahahah!

k.. this shows how bo liao i am.. n i gotta head home le.. using the skool comp now.. hahah gotta get started on my response paper.. if not can't finish on timele.. argh!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/19/2004 05:09:00 PM .

yaawwwn... so sleepy.. but i'm not nappinng.. i came back wif every intention to nap.. but.......

had to handle some pressing matters first.. heh...

sigh...

today's test was hard... but i can't wait to get the marks back.. hahah dunno why.. jus wanna see how i do.. good or bad..

bleahz.. not enuff sleep.. everyone said i looked zombified today.. wahahha

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/15/2004 05:40:00 PM .

argh! so sian of editing my lit paper le.. hahahah i'm jus gonna leave the excess words there whether she likes it or not! rraaaah!!

its like i have so so many pts to put across and so little space to write.. sigh.. wad do they expect of us man? jus list down pts meh? den still must put in a nice prose form.. den must have evidence. and my tutor happens to be very particular abt footnoting and format.. oh sighz... ar well..but she's good la.. at least we get to explore real nice areas of the text.. heh heh.. guo3 ran2 si4 masters student.. =)

ar well.. at least i'm done wif the essay.. hahah thank God i've alr got the main ideas/bulk down.. so not so much editing required.. at least its jus chopping down the no.. not the generation of ideas.. i tink that's the hardest lo.. bleah...

got a lot of stuff to do.. now printing readings.. got test on FRIDAY!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! somebody save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ar well...

i'm tempted to buy a bikini set.. but this time is boys shorts one.. and there are so many bazaars happening arnd skool.. so shiok lo.. and they're all so so cheap lo!

oh.. i wanna go on an expedition!!!!!!! but i dun tink my dad allow.. i wanna climb mt ophir.. hahaahha =) 3D2N... hahaha sounds fun eh?

and i wanna learn how to design! they giving free classes.. so conclusion is.. im gonna borrow the cd from em lo.. hehehehehehehhehe

muahahaha

i'm losing it

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/14/2004 01:14:00 AM .

i've had the most most awesome day! wow!! i can't even begin to recall man...

i jus enjoyed myself so much in skool.. my goodness..its wonderful!

pon my aerobics and attended care gp.. and it was so nice.. cuz everybody is jus sharing and we had lesson..t he lesson was so encouraging..and it was jus so cool to see everybody worshipping and coming together.. growing closer to one another.. i mean.. these ppl are family!

oh.. met melody on the mrt.. haha so funny! i was like burying myself in my notes and den i looked up and realised that the gal sitting opp me was observing me and it kinda took a while for my rusty brain to conjure up the fact that she was MELODY! wahahahah! and it was soooo nice to see her! hahaha cuz i long long time never see her.. she's my disciple btw.. =) hahah coool.. and to think i was jus praying abt her today.. God really answers prayer.. wow!

and good news!!! we got 90/100 for our Elang project!!!!!!!!!!!!! woah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is jus so totally awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 wooohoooooooooooo

cuz we all realli worked hard on our proj.. and it wasn't jus a project.. but we were realli building frenships lo.. so even if we didn't get good grades.. that experience was truly worth it.. but of cuz la.. we're SUPER happy that we got SOOO HIGH!! woohoo! its realli God's favour man.. hahaha and we were like saying that we shld get 90 lo.. hahahaha positive speaking.. the power of the tongue.. =P

thank u so so so much Jesus! heee~

i realise that God's hand is really wif me.. and i'm gonna live for Him man.. somehow, when u do that.. everything jus falls into place.. and this isn't the first time i've seen God's hand in my life when i start committing everything to Him lo.. my gosh!

oh oh.. i really surprise myself man.. at tutorials today.. i jus kept coming up wif thots and ideas that i didn't know i was capable of handling. hahaha like i jus shot answers that were surprisingly correct.. *looks up* hmm.. maybe God put that wisdom in.. hahaha my God is wondreful! hahaha

but tmr's gonna be pretty busy.. got quite a lot of things to do.. so gonna make a list.. hopefully can complete everything according to deadline.. gonna bring laptop to skool tmr.. yeah! God will bring me thru.. He'll never leave me nor forsake me... =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/12/2004 11:37:00 PM .

i'm a notti gal.. hhaha i'm supposed to be doing my essay now.. n i was supposed to be back by 4.30.. but only reached home abt 6.. hahaha baaaaad...

so fun today.. haha yi xian, tino n ian came to nus today! hahah so we kinda ate together at the deck.. so fun! but of cuz.. yi xian belongs to the law fac la.. but stilll... it was so nice to see em! *beams*

was having a fun time showing tino n ian arnd when yi xian had to go for tutorial.. realise how much i know or don't know abt campus.. hahaha but still la.. successfully led em arnd.. i hope!?

it was so nice to see erjie too! hahahah realise that frens are real impt wor.. i mean.. they're there to uplift u, protect u, encourage u.. and be there for u.. they're such a big BIG influence lo.. tt's why its realli so impt to have frens who are like tt.. a positvite buncha ppl... =P

sent my term paper outline to my prof... hope he tinks its good.. but this would mean that i sure have to add or change some things lo.. ah well.. but nvm la.. at least better than starting fr scratch.. i'll jus make it better.. cannot be lazy! hahaha cuz i have this thing abt finishing things and den jus chucking em aside refusing to touch em ever again! hahaha horrible habit.. must change...

ian mentioned that i gotta say more positive things.. and i must say that it reminded me abt wad was said in service ytd morn.. forgetful me.. =X

... dwell always on the things of the Lord

yup tt's kinda like the summary of wad was said in svc... and yes! i must learn to be more positive abt myself.. shld not let the ppl arnd me tear me down wif stupid remarks like me being fat and big sized and all tt... esp since i'm still so touchy over my weight.. i still get affected when ppl compare me wif my sis... ar well.... i know God will change me and He's really teaching me and showing me how to cope... sometimes revealing sides of me that i've never know.. i thank God i know a Person like Him.. heh heh... =)

so i shall be positive!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/11/2004 06:21:00 PM .

wow.. i realli realli need sleep.. hahha so i shall sleep after typing this entry out..

but the good thing is.. i'm done wif my two term papers.. or at least the ones that i know the deadlines of.. and i realli realli thank God for helping me wif em.. and wif the lit. essay outline i jus did.. its like we have to do quotes and all tt kinda stuff.. so i was jus praying and committing the essay to Him lo.. and voila! i found the quotes and all tt pretty easily and its the exact quotes that i needed to know... this is realli a miracle considering that the book is soooo thick and i kinda rushed thru it only once! wow..

this is what happens when u commit ur days to the Lord.. everything that is in it..

Praise His name!!!! woohooooo....

i'm learning how to leave everything at the Cross again.. and not try and pick up the burden on my own.. cuz i know i'd probably crumble under the pressure and all tt.. so yeah.. my God is an awesome God... He realli looks out for me.. =)

tmr gonna do my lit essay.. haha so funny.. i complete all my term papers which are due in two weeks and den leave out doing my essay which is due this thu.. tell me if that isn't a total upset of priorities or wad man! hahhaha but it feels good to have the term papers outta the way.. jus left wif the final vetting thru...

need to read thru my stars notes.. gotta consolidate wadever my teacher has inputted into my brain. .haha otherwise if i forget.. wah... sian....

okay.. i hv to sleep le... my bed is caaaaalliiiiing.... miiiiing... miiiing..... miiiiiiiiiiiing.....

*collapses on bed*

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/11/2004 01:35:00 AM .

waaaad's ha-ha-happening to me??! *looks at self and disappears into a stack of papers*

hahahah k.. thot i'd jus let that crap surface after speaking so seriously over my term papers the past week.. but hey.. the illustration is deep okay.. i've been up to my neck in term paper writing this week lo.. cuz i gotta plan time properly ma.. =) but actualli i kinda realise that i'm like rushing thru my papers instead.. not that they're hard.. haha jus tt require more thinking and analysing the research materials u have lo.. i quite enjoy it.. hahah am i masochistic or wad?

hahahaha!

last nite slept at 3 plus AM.. fried my eyes.. almost fried my brain.. was so stressed jus tinking about the paper that i got up and started working on it .. till now.. hhahah after lunch.. and i can truly say that i'm finally done! wahahah

i was feeling kinda sian cuz my paper doesn't seem to have much depth leh.. like macam i'm jus regurgitating facts.. but my jie was so encouraging.. i was reading, well sort of like giving a general overview of wad i was talking abt in my term paper.. and den she was saying 'wow...' and frankly.. tt meant a lot to me.. dunno whether she know but my confidence in the work jus zoomed up by THAT much! hahaha thank God for wonderful sisters like her! *hugs*

so i guess i'm gonna keep what i'm writing la.. jus keep the paper in mind and keep working on improving it thru the days building up to the deadline la... maybe that'll help improve the paper.. at least i've got the main bulk/backbone of it. haha oops.. too obsessed le.. i jus went to correct somethings in the paper before i forget it. =)

was supposed to have met my fren at 9.30 today to collect stuff. but turns out. i was too tired to wake up and leave on time.. so end up cancelling tt appt.. and now i jus cancelled another one.. cuz i wanna do up the appendices, and footnotes for my essay... can't stand it when things are done halfway.. bleah... and after i'm done wif tt.. i'm gonna print it out.. so i can vet thru n edit it properly.. somehow i jus find that i work better on paper.. on the laptop.. everything jus seems so surreal that my thot dun penetrate it.. haha so i'm VERy VERY glad that exams are handwritten.. hahah tho i do write slower than i type la.. but i rather that than a brain jam!

last nite went for prayer.. wow! God has realli realli been speaking to me.. and i luv it when tt happens.. its realli the joy in ur Spirit when u're connected to God lo... wonderful wonderful.. hah want to type it down.. but frankly e details are getting pretty garbled now inside my head... so maybe i shall get it down some other day.. but one thing's for sure.. God is moving in my life! Praise Him!

P.S. got a lot of pimples now... waAAaaH... so sad..... sniff sniff

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/09/2004 01:13:00 PM .

heey... my jie jus told me today that she tink that i'd make a good journalist.. and i was soooo flattered by that comment lo.. wow! i never knew i'd realli have that in me.. thot it was jus the interest that drove me and all tt...

so encouraging... *big grinz*

saw the journalist scholarship ad yesterday.. so tempted to fill it up again.. but den i know/think that its not realli God's plan for me to be kinda bonded by the scholarship... soooo i guess i shan't waste the time and paper to send it back again la.. heh heh

my jie suggested freelance journalism.. and it realli doesn't s0und like a bad idea.. haha its jus how????? where and who do i go to for that opportunity? hmmm.. maybe i shld ask God for it.. heh heh.. its jus wonderful having a powerful God.. hahaha =)

anyway.. today went to lib to borrow books.. so funny.. i set off the alarm.. lucky i now more thick skin. i jus went to the counter and let the person check my books.. hahaha thank God i still had the receipt.. the librarians are real nice.. not cranky at all.. hahah =) but anyway.. i finally decided on what i wanna do for my USE term paper le.. cuz i was trying to decide betw choosing the question on national identity or our colonial past... or jus formulate a topic on my own.. i decided to do my own topic on street names.. tink it'll be fun! =)

heee~ i realise that in uni.. u realli need to rely on God.. its like.. i find that i jus can't rely on myself any more le.. being self-sufficient is jus not enuff and i'm thankful that each day i'm learning more abt Hiim and more abt how i'm actually living my life.. whether its for Him or for me.. and yeah.. i'm jus discovering more... =) still.. its realli wonderful to be able to turn to Him when i need help n to have the assurance that He's always gonna be there, loving me...

You are my World..
You are my Child..
And I lay down my life for U....

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/07/2004 10:23:00 PM .

yeah yeah yeah~ its time to celebrate~~~

hahah actually.. not realli the time to celebrate la.. the real time is realli after term papers and exams la.hahha but completing one is realli realli shiok lo! and i must say.. thank God for Dr. Ernest Chew's frenly guide on how to footnote and biblio.. hahah best!

well.. i'm done wif the writing of the essay itself.. done the appendix.. settled on a organisation that i'm happy wif.. for once.. i feel like i've really done my best for this paper... thank U Jesus! =) i jus need to work on the coherence and handling the minor editing for the language..otherwise.. the content is fine.. its wad i wanna convey and include.. yay! maybe make a lil change to the title..but basically tt's it..

haaa~ jus remembered i need to do the biblio too.. haha so here i am.. off to do the biblio! wahahha.. and i'm gonna save the stuff onto a disc lo..c an't risk anything happening.. i will cry... hahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/06/2004 11:33:00 PM .

wahah! i feel soooo accomplished! i beat my own personal best.. i ran the whole of bedok reservoir (yes all 4.3km of it) without stopping!!! woohooo! its the first time i've done it successfully wor.. wow! amazing.. wonder how its possible.. hahaha the last time even when i was fitter i also didn't manage to leh.. den now when i'm all blobby and slack i can!? weird....

research paper.. here i come! muahahah got inspiration le..hahaha God.. i commit this to U.. pls guide my mind and my hand as i go thru the research paper and attempt to write a good one.. fill me wif the wisdom and skills that i need.. thank you .. in Jesus name.. Amen..

hey ... u guys can pray this too if u need help from the source of all wisdom eh? hee!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/06/2004 06:53:00 PM .

back from skool! wheee!

did aerobics jus now.. hahah so fun.. i'm really finding exercising very relaxing.. haha like.. it makes u healthy and it realli realli helps to relieve stress. dunno how come but it jus does.. my goodness.. =)

today realli clammed up in class.. hhaha sick.. i shld start participating in class discussions again.. i like talking in class actually.. jus that when ur brain's not functioning its kinda hard to say something good and meaningful..

i've purposed to go and ask my tutor questions this fri le.. cannot cannot let my doubts and queries pile up any further le! yaaaah!!!!

so.. i shall go and eat during the break so that i won't feel so hungry during the lunch hr which is after my tutorial.. this would make me wan to stay back and ask him all the questions i want! woohoo!

gonna make a list of what i have to do later.. tink it'll help wif the organisation ya?

oh.. so fun jus now.. met up wif erjie, ray and justina.. hee we actually went arnd tm.. jus like old times.. felt so nostalgic.. but yeah. i'm realli happy wif the way things have turned out.. its like.. so nice... *sighs*

wanted to join the marketing cell for usc.. cuz i tink its like very useful lo.. the skills that u can pick up.. and the exposure is good.. but i tink i shall give it a miss this yr la.. maybe next yr? hahahah so next yr i shall take time off swaps to conc on dance and usc marketing.. heh heh.. maybe i could even do some marketing for the usc musical 2005.. haha!

God, U are jus SOOO awesome!!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/05/2004 09:26:00 PM .

i need to be more positive abt things.. need to start seeing things in God's perspective.. looking towards Him for direction and strength..

jus find that to truly live.. u gotta give ur life for something.. and to me.. that something/someone is gonna be Jesus! who else better than the person who died for u becuz He loves you so much and someone who understands you the best! =)

so encouraged by what is happening in my net...

but i'm probably needing the extra strenght and encouragement for CM... =)

kinda feeling the weight of my skool load now... i really really need God's strenght to be wif me.. and i know He has been giving me favour and grace.. something that i could never expect being the way i've been.. so i'm really thankful to Him for being sooooo wonderful!

thank you to all the wonderful frens i have.. my family.. for blessing of having you in my life!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/04/2004 01:07:00 AM .

yes.. i'm up and awake now..

for those who didn't know i slept a grand total of 3 hrs last nite or rather this early morning.. slept at 2 woke up at 530am to go to skool... went thru class.. borrowed books.. did tutorial.. discussed swaps publicity stuff... went thru all 3 hrs of journeying (hey! same amt of sleeping time!) and finally collapsed on my bed at 5 plus pm..

hahaha wad a wonderful rest it was.. thank God for beds and home!

yesterday was a busy busy day.. i had to rush to the bookshop where i sent my book for photocopying to collect it cuz i HAd to return the book today.. soooo must must must collect it yesterday... to top it off it was kinda drizzling.. and the bus was taking forever to come.. so i walked wif the umbrella to the shop.. and by den was sweating like mad cuz i was rushing (gonna be late le) and i'm wearing this top that covers up the back of my neck.. so its like supersuper stifling for me la.. haaa...

after lit lect (which is couldn't really comprehend much at all) i took a cab down to OCBC centre where my uncle's wedding was at.. and YES.. my uncle jus got married yesterday.. haha so fun rite? =) anyway.. i was the camera lady.. haha running arnd filming and catching the essential footage.. and my arm ached so badly while i was holding the cam ytd.. haha now it doesn't la.. i could almost feel my muscles popping outta my arm while i was filming.. hahaa real interesting experience.. my other uncles gave me wonderful tips.. he heh...

hmmm.. my dad's side the uncle (the wedding uncle is my mum's side) actually asked me if there were still vacancies for hostels now.. and i tink he wanted to offer to pay for my hostel stuff.. cuz he was asking how come i'm not staying on campus.. and i kinda told him that it was cuz of money and family.. like too ex and i wanted to see my family more often.. but still i tink he finds that travelling back and fro for 3 hrs is ridiculous when i could be doing more productive stuff.. so yeah.. i am kinda considering stying next sem.. provided there is a place and provided funds come in..if not.. ig uess i'm jus gonna get myself a 3/4 days work week.. hahaha =P

lovely day yesterday... too bad it kinda drained me today..

gotta do tutorials and understand lecture.. esp for stars.. gotta get some serious work done.. tink i've been slacking a bit too much

bleah..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/01/2004 09:34:00 PM .