YThursday, September 29, 2005
i'm so happy i can eat solid food!! yay! today i ate sandwiches and last nite i had potatoes n some soft chicken slices.. yummm... and for dinner i ate horfun.. yay! the beef was black peppered somemore.. so cool yeah? i nv eat that before.. heh heh.. =P but still got this weird feeling in my mouth la.. so.. oh well...
jus wanna thank God and praise Him for wad He's done for me these past few days.. haa.. i really feel my life and my perspective change lo.. u see i've jus started reading the purpose driven life.. and man.. tt book is super good.. i mean.. its Christian.. but its a super good book! like it really gives u the truth and u really see things in a different way then.. hmmm.. gosh.. this sounds like a book review.. but yeah.. God's really been revealing lots of stuff n junk in my life that i needta get rid off in order to function better than i'm functioning now.. which IMHO is not very effective..
oh.. another thing.. thank God for His faithfulness even when i'm so so so utterly faithless.. like sometimes i jus let myself be consumed wif worrying and all tt.. tat i get caught up in the affairs of the world when i shld be pursuing the matters of God.. not to say ignore studying or wad la.. but i realize that when i get caught up in ME MYSELF n I, i get really miserable.. cuz i start worrying and i start getting insecure.. etc etc.. and really now i know that the real focus shld be God.. and jus last nite i was talking to God la.. jus tellin him how i felt abt certain pp.. certain issues in my life.. and all tt.. and one of em was my worry that i won't do well this sem.. and tt my tests (esp el2101) will score horribly bad lo.. bad experience from 2102 u see.. so.. ya.. i jus blabbed everything out to Him and i told Him that.. yeah.. iw anna give it back to Him again.. cuz afterall my life on this earth is a Trust that He's given me to tend to.. and i shldn't like jus get my focus wrong and consume myself in the Me-factor again.. =P
anyway.. its simply awesome la.. i got back my results today for el2101 and biosemiotics.. all good news.. i'd expected like 2/10 for my el one.. but guess wad? i got 8/10! and i'm ecstatic! the highest was 9.5 la.. but most of my frens had 1 or 2 or 3.5 after addition of marks.. so i feel really blessed right now.. and u know the times when u really know that it wasn't ur own doing that got u success? this is one of em right now... the section that i thot i screwed up ended up in full marks.. and tt was jus totally awesome! i'm very very happy with it... =)
and for my biosemiotics paper.. wow.. i got 102/100. yup u saw right.. i had 2 bonus marks over the full marks.. and tt's simply wow.. first time in my entire life.. hahaah but he was lenient la.. he gave us loads of chances to score.. and he said the average was 95. so my 102 is a lil higher than tt.. but i'm happy still.. =P cuz he was really encouraging over my paper.. haha called me his star scorer.. hahaha feels weird hearing tt.. he's such a great guy! =)
so yeah.. for all tt... praise the Lord! it realy isn't me but Him and Him alone.. -hugs-
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YTuesday, September 27, 2005
-gasp- i can't believe that i saw my project deadline wrongly.. haah and all this while i thot i had tons of time to complete it.. i thot it was due 27th oct and i'm pretty sure i checked that info sheet like more than 2 times! and voila i look at my fren's sheet and i see 27th sept.. -faints- thank God this is a group project and that he actually extended the deadline to 4th oct!! oh my goodness gracious me.. if it were due tmr that'd be the end of me.. -gasp-
had very good progress for soci proj meeting today.. guess when we're rushed for time our brains jus move quicker.. heh heh.. and i guess it helped that it wasn't too difficult a proj la.. jus hope we can pull everything together nicely.. such that its focussed and all tt.. cuz we've simply got so many many wonderful ideas running arn.. wow! alex is super smart la.. he jus talks and den we get all these great ideas! hahaha thank God!!
nice guy.. gave us a lift to lunch at dover.. hahaha and i tell you.. God is so good.. He puts such wonderful pp in my way.. first was alex la.. he's the alex wang guy la.. tt has his own concert etc and u know wad? he was from my church!! woah.. talk abt coincidence.. but yeah.. he left cuz he didn't like ps seaward and wad he preached back then.. but ps seaward's changed since then.. and its only for the better.. =) but it was cool to bump into a fellow VFC member.. even if he's now at new creation.. hahaha and hey.. we're ALL children of God ain't we? he's a nice guy..
den at the coffee shop where we had lunch, i was ordering porridge only to realize tt its those kinda teochew porridge which has like rice grains in em.. and its something i'm not ready to eat yet la.. but she was so nice.. cuz she ask me wad kinda extra ingredients i wanna add.. and i said.. erm.. dun wan any.. so she gv me this 'u are weird' look but den i explained to her that i jus extracted my tooth and i couldn't eat anything.. so she suggested dou fu.. and it was nice.. glad she got that for me.. and den afterwards she helped me carry out everything lo.. so sweet! i'm so blessed..blessed indeed.. =)
and afterwards ling n alex made me buy yoghurt cuz they said it'd be good for me.. i agree.. i tink they were shocked by the portion of my food (or lack of) haa.. cuz it was jus one bowl of soupy rice and a small small dish of dou fu.. but i tink everything cost like.. 70Cents? hahah cheapest meal ever.. and well.. needless to say i didn't finish it.. think they were jus worried i wasn't getting enough food..
anyway alex drove us back to school and yeah.. that was where i gave my other cup of yoghurt to eugene.. hahaha cuz i figured i wouldn't be able to eat up TWO whole cups of yoghurt anyway.. haahha
i wanna get well soon!!! really.. i mean i really appreciate the time when i can eat and exercise and all that stuff.. and i wanna be active in school.. to talk, to interact, to hv fun wif my frens.. =)
had fun wif my hooked frens too.. we were manning the booth for this gal called Yulia la.. she's holding a concert/showcase at UCC on october 3rd and they're like giving out tix today lo.. so it was nice to talk to em.. and i found out that one of the gals is an Elang major!! woaaaah.. its so rare that everytime i hear that i feel so happy.. hahahah she's in fourth yr wor.. expert seh.. honours yr.. cool! but yeah.. had good fun.. and i feel so inspired to finish up ALL my projs.. and well.. actually once next week is over 2 outta my 3 projs are gonna be done.. and i jus needta conc on my term paper and my lil quizes for el2101.. heh.. i jus hope that every proj i submit will be superb work! i wanna do well.. i really do.. and yes.. everything is in my Mighty God's hands! and He loves me!! can u blieve it He loves me!!!
okay.. getting a lil high.. hahaha odd cuz i'm like wathcing CSI.. morbid show.. heh!
ah.. aother nice guy.. shaun ong.. haha i felt so bad today.. cuz i ate dinner at school and i was SO slow.. i tink i took like an hr or something? and shaun jus patiently waited for me while he yakked..hahaha thank God ... otherwise i'd hv felt so bad.. like if it isn't bad enuff that he waits for me to eat my neverending bowl of noodles, he has to put up wif silent treatment..hahaha interesting chap anyway.. =)
was this close to poking the eyes out of every male commuter on the train today.. heh! i get irate when i see like rows of pp seating down and in every row.. all the passengers resting their butts down are MEN save for ONE lady.. i mean.. talk abt a gracious society?! i tink sgporean men are so ungentlemanly.. and they really dun care for women lo.. bleah! grrr... shall gripe about this another day.. heh heh.. =)
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YMonday, September 26, 2005
yay.... i am so super happy that my swell is going down.. haa.. went to church ytd and many pp gave me super shocked looks at my bump.. =) kinda interesting.. but at moments i couldn't help laughing and tt hurt so bad.. cuz my jaw is still sore from the op.. and yeah.. i dun wanna risk splitting my stitches or something like tt... haa
anyway.. i feel fruitful.. i emailed lots of pp today.. email dr don, prof alatas - to tell em i wasn't coming for class and dr don was so sweet.. we're supposed to watch a vid today and he told me that he'd pass me a cd so that i could watch it.. awww.. i wrote to prof alatas to tell him abt my term paper topic and e difficulties tt i had too.. my gosh.. nv underestimate ur lecturers.. no matter how lazy and heck care they seem.. they got stuff lo.. phwoar.. i jus emailed him and den voila he gives me a whole new means of searching for resources n stuff.. its jus awesome! thank God!!
also emailed my proj groups abt meeting up and all tt.. its amazing tt nobody really does all these things except me.. is it jus me or is it them? hahaha oh alright.. my soci group.. alex did initiate la.. and i'm glad we're meeting up tmr.. =) yay! finally can get started on it.. and el2101 prob meeting on fri.. for a super last min proj meeting.. but hey.. it is kinda simple.. heh! hopefully.. el2151.. hmm.. still awaiting prof stroud's comments.. but i emailed em some stuff on the proj la.. some observations that i mde.. and tt made me feel so .. productive! haa.. started on my ucv term paper research too.. the real ground breaking ones that are gonna find their way into my paper.. don't pray pray wor! oh.. and i did my soci tutorial.. YAY!
but yes.. tmr.. everybody shall be exposed to my infamous swelling.. muahahahahahahah
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YSaturday, September 24, 2005
i realized this.. when i put lip balm on.. the area of skin around my mouth seems to sweat more.. why huh? is it cuz ur lips actually help ur skin breathe to a certain extent? hmm..
anyway.. this is day 2 of my swelling.. yes.. i look like i hv a char siew bao in my mouth all the time now..haahah last time used to be hmm..tang yuan? but ah well.. i'm glad my throat ain't acting up tt badly now..it was horrible yesterday.. gargh i hope i nv hv to do it ever again.. and my jaw's kinda stiff.. so i can't open my mouth much.. it hurts when i do.. sigh..
it stinks to have hunger but no appetite too.. sian!! but my jie was so sweet.. she bought me my fav blackforest cake!! -hugs- i love her so much.. she said that it was to motivate me to get back quick.. haa.. and thank God.. i can eat it!! yay.. cuz its soft enough.. but i hv to put in super tiny bites and even tho on usual days i'd relish e thot of eating it finish and licking up the remains.. this time i eat it halfway and i feel like.. woah.. i'm done wif tt.. gargh..
this sat is gonna be pretty bland.. who'd imagine that there'd be so much time in one day.. guess i've been running arn too much to notice tt.. and thank God for days.. thank God for Him.. =)
starting on purpose-driven life again.. i need to get back wif God..
i keep on walking took her pride away at
what a compliment =)Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover 
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorableEven a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's lifeBy giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.What Kind of Seducer Are You?
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YFriday, September 23, 2005
a note on wisdom
hahaha.. alright alright i'll cut the crap.. for those who think its gonna be a philosophical entry.. u are mistaken.. its prob gonna be the most banal and down-t0-earth kinda entry anybody can ever get.. hahah its abt teeth.. and in particular a very troublesome wisdom tooth of mine.
heh
jus back from getting my wisdom tooth extracted.. and woah.. wad an experience it was.. considering that i've never gone for any surgery other than the time when my mum was giving birth to me.. but den again tt's her.. so yes.. i've never gone for surgery before so as i sat on the dentist's chair i was feeling so freaked out that i could almost see my life flash by.. well.. not quite la.. but i did see flashes of light cuz the dentist kept shining it in my eyes.. and with a whimper of 'i'm scared of pain' i hoped and prayed for a good surgery.. aka one that didn't hurt so bad..
of cuz.. it didn't help that they had to go thru the protocol by explaining the risks of the surgery.. meaning.. that the nerve might be paralysed for a few weeks to a few months if it was tt bad.. but it'll heal.. immediately thots of a drooling and uncontrolled lip dominated my mind.. hahah.. NOOOoOOOo... so yes.. i was freaked.. considering that i hv a super low threshold of pain..
thank God tho.. that only the injection hurt.. stinking injection.. my sis called it an ant bite.. and i added on that it was an ant bite that shld nv even be there.. the tenderest place of all where God never meant for it to see daylight unless u're gorging urself.. haa.. =P so yes.. i teared at the injection.. and after a bit it got number and number.. till now i can hardly feel my lips and left side of my tongue.. heh.. but that doesn't stop me from talking la.. i yakked all the way back home.. haahhaha! =) only bad thing is i can't stop the saliva from collecting la.. and yes.. this is where it gets gross.. ewww
other than the unpleasant injection experience.. eveyrthing was fine.. but i noticed that the dentist and the asst weren't exactly the best prepared pp.. hahaha so that kinda panicked me a lil.. like.. oh no! who ARE these people?! and later on when the dentist was extracting my tooth.. believe me.. i was so scared i closed my eyes.. only to be told that i shld open.. hmm.. wonder why.. they scared i pass out ma? hahahah well.. possible..
at the end of the day.. it was the constant rubbing of instruments against my lip that caused the most pain.. so yeah.. the anesthetic did work.. i was half afraid i'd jus feel eveyr single thing that was happening in my mouth cuz i could still feel my teeth on each other.. so yeah.. i DIDN'T want to feel that.. =) but thank God the asst was nice.. she jus kept reassuring me and she was the one that told me e tooth was out.. and i was honestly surprised.. all this while i thot he was jus working on another tooth like doing the preliminary thingies.. haa.. but turns outs he was working on my wisdom.. heh.. interesting eh?
oh.. i laughed quite a bit.. cuz for one.. i didnt realize that anesthetic could be soooo powerful.. ahah woaaah.. he like injected me and den for a moment there i wondered why my sight was suddenly more blurry.. and den i realized that it was cuz my eyelids were drooping! hahahah.. i mean its fine now la.. but boy..i wonder how i looked den.. hahahahaha like half face lax the other half alright.. hahahahaha sorry.. weird humour.. =P
another thing tt made me laugh was when he told me to rinse my mouth.. and cuz my other half was lax i couldn't hold my lips together and water jus kept coming out uncontrolled.. hahaha! so amusing.. so try as i might to rinse the blood away i jus couldn't la.. hahahah.. oh.. and the stitching! gosh.. i saw the HOOK on the beginning of it!!! gargh!! but actually.. not pain la.. it was jus the sight.. so guess he was being nice when he told me to close my eyes la.. heh heh..
another heart attack moment also was when he expressed some momentary shock at my tooth.. cuz it kinda revolved in an odd direction.. so he was surprised for a moment there... thank God he didn't express it outright but only after the extraction.. otherwise i tink i wouldn've jus fainted there and then la.. gargh...
la la la la... at least its out now la.. heh.. =) yay.. survivor later!!
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YThursday, September 22, 2005
yay! i'm feeling way better.. i jus finished my 3 reports for my islam module.. YES!! the darn reports that have been on my mind and bugging me for the past i dunno how many weeks.. they're finally DONE! woohooo....
its amazing how exercise rejuvenates u.. psychologically.. went for dance feeling down and out.. and came out feeling like a million bucks.. well.. smelly.. and laden wif books cuz i went to the lib to do my research but.. yes.. happier than when i was leaving the hse wif diary in hand.. heh.. writing in a diary is cathartic too.. heh! =)
ytd this lady on the mrt fainted.. must've been too crowded.. the darn train is so crowded at nite lo.. the poor lady jus flopped over on the floor and thank God she came too after a few concerned jolts by the pp arn her.. and she was so near me! so this lady got up and offered her seat to her while i sat beside her and offered her a sweet.. cuz if she fainted she prob doesn't hv enough blood sugar ma.. meanwhile another person gave her feng yu.. goodness.. tt was quite a shock.. it almost felt like i was in India all of a sudden.. where the trains are packed to the brim and if u faint u prob won't even fall cuz its so crowded.. eegh! crowds...
anyway.. prob gonna get my wisdom tooth plucked tmr... heh.. poor dawn.. i'm gonna hv to inform her abt my inability to teach once more.. gargh.. sorry gal! i'll help wif the running arn k? and yes.. i gotta get it out cuz i itnk its growing and its giving me a lot of pain.. eegh.. the pain's kinda spread to my throat area lo.. so it feels like i've got a sore throat or something.. but it isn't...
and man.. my pms is getting worst as i grow older.. i'm jus so glad that its finally here.. and all these silly feelings will go away.. gargh.. perhaps they're jus indicators of wad's inside of me all this while.. hmm... natural revealer of feelings..
anyway.. i'm in a hardworking mode.. shall do my tutorials later! WHEEE
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YMonday, September 19, 2005
maybe its pms.. but somehow.. i don't feel very cheerful today.. not as i usually am anyway.. feel like talking but also dun feel like it.. feel like i wanna study but when i do.. i jus feel so blah..
maybe i really shld go for a run tmr.. clear my head a bit..
i feel like i wanna do something wif my laptop.. like get some work done.. but somehow.. there isn't anything i can do wif it anymore.. i've finished the worship video thingie i was supposed to do a month ago.. and oh... i remember now.. i'm supposed to work on the newsletter.. gargh.. somehow i'm dreading it.. cuz its been so long.. and it feels so stale.. aw man... i don't really wan to go back and do printing too.. and my buddies who've helped me all this while wif printing are all at work.. li sha and esther.. i feel a tad sian of doing the newsletter.. but hmm.. its really a culmination of everybody's effort.. so yes.. i'll do it.. regardless of the labour and the lag.. we'll work something out again and prepare for the next yr.. we need to get this up and running..
i shld start on my term paper this week.. hmm.. wonder if its possible.. shld i go for the dance blast outing? or shld i jus be anti social and simply head to class? heh.. patrick's coming down to conduct it this time.. so yeah.. shld leave a good impression on him.
la la la la la.. wait a min.. i'm supposed to be at a proj meeting tmr.. so why am i up so late? well.. if u could call this late.. heh.. i'm feelin a lil discouraged by it.. frankly.. somehow i hv the weird inkling that my grades this time aren't gonna do fantastic.. and its not even my bad.. but yeah.. i know.. i shldn't be in the mode of blaming others la.. i'll jus hv to be faithful in doing my best for my part and i know God will do the rest.. i guess i need to take my faith up to another level as well la.. feeling a lil slack in that area.. somehow i'm jus not trusting Him enough wif my future and my life.. and i'm starting to worry abt areas that i reall shldn't need to.. maybe tt's why i'm feelin this way..
hmmm...
i keep on walking took her pride away at
whee.. my second article is up.. wahahah.. =P somehow i always seem to be writing wif a shaun/shawn. haa..
http://www.hooked-nussu.org/content/view/274/88/
anyway.. somehow i tink i'm sub-consciously stressed over my work load.. but yet.. i can't bring myself to really get all that work down.. ha.. guess i jus need to get into the mode.. heh..
was supposed to lead worship for tmr's care grp.. but den it suddenly hit me last nite at my granny's hse that i had a fieldtrip to go to.. darn..
as a result.. i tink saula jus kinda got worried tt i wasn't attending care gp n youth service n evening services like i used to.. cuz he said that it jus wasn't very normal of me to not be doing that.. and yes.. it did come down to him asking if i was attached or something like tt.. heh.. and i reassured him saying that 'no la... of cuz not' haa..
well.. it is easy to tink that i can be attached la.. hahah given that i go out so much these days and return after only at 8 on most days.. i wouldn't be surprised if my dad suspected i had a boyfren.. hahaha.. ar well..
speakin of bgr tho.. i guess its jus been something that i've been thinking abt la.. haa.. and jus nice when i was online before this, i saw on christianitytoday this qn on 'displacing God' when u enter into a relationship.. and it jus kinda spoke to me.. cuz i really dunno how to balance a relationship n God.. and i was pretty happy wif hte response la.. the person replied saying that its normal for ur feelings to initially be displaced cuz its love ma.. but more imptly is that u committ everything to God and u make Him the Lord of the relationship.. and this means not neglecting ur ministries and God most imptly.. so yeah.. i kinda agree wif it.. i hv no idea why it feels like i'm seeing this for the first time.. heh.. cuz i'm usually e one dispensing such advice.. haa.. maybe God's jus trying ot teach me something right now ba.. heh heh..
ytd was last lesson for spanish.. haa.. but its not e last in MY learning of spanish.. i love it! its super super fun.. =) thank God for my wonderful teachers..
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YSaturday, September 17, 2005
wonderful day.. had so so so much fun.. =)
haa.. erjie i love reading ur blog..u always make everything sound so nice.. and i gotta admit.. u found ur first fan here.. haa.. i came back connected myself and imm headed for ur blog.. happy not? hahha and hey u were alright la.. at least to me. heh heh.. and i guess e sun got to everybody la.. i was quiet.. for once.. see u guys.. i CAN be quiet ya? =)
anyway.. i feel so proud of my friends.. haa.. mark n qx/josh (haa.. he's another one like me.. got more than one name.. haa) i tink they're so li hai lo.. and they were nice/patient enough to belay all of us and teach us a thing or two.. i know they must've felt soooo tired.. yet they were nice enough to do us this favour.. haa.. i feel like giving em both hugs.. =) guess i miss em too la.. esp mark.. cuz he's like my male best fren la.. awesome dude.. he's one of those pp who i really wanna be there for.. on top of my ohana n pan pan.. n family..
but yeah.. i felt like a princess today.. hahah cuz i had all my best buds wif me.. and the guys were very nice.. at the foodcourt they kept staying back to accompany me instead of buying their food.. in the end shaun stayed back wif me.. haa.. thanks dude! before that was mark.. and qx came along to jus find out why mark was staying there.. (hmm..) haa.. but anyway.. they were all very nice.. and yes.. thank u shaun for the lift to yishun + to northpt.. u've really been such a blessing..
rockclimbing was cool.. hahah i'm so proud of myself.. i managed to scale the entire wall for the first one we tried.. wheee.. and today i refused to tell my dad where i really was going.. cuz i know he'd freak out.. he's really protective u see.. but i had no choice but to come clean abt me going rock climbing in the end cuz he saw me in my track pants.. hahah! cannot smoke thru wif the "i'm going out wif my frens" excuse.. i tried tt once for canoe polo.. and he actually made e wild guess of thinking i'd be going skydiving! hahaha shows how crazy my dad actually pictures me to be.. =)
guess he was jus kinda worried tt i'd hurt myself la.. and wasn't sure that my frens could handle e safety aspect and all tt la.. but he really didn't hv to worry.. cuz mark n qx are trained pp wor.. hahaha -beams- another proud moment for my frens.. and mark gave me a look of indignance when i told him tt.. hahaha! =P mark and his ego.. wahahah its prob an ns thing..
glad erjie went too.. i'm proud of her too! hahaha u go girl! and oh.. xm.. we were saying that if u were here.. u'd jus conquer em all la.. jus climb ur way up babe! hahaha cuz u're super fit and u're flexi enough.. hahaha next time k?
it was nice.. all in all.. cuz its like.. everybody interacted wif everybody.. so it was cool.. hahaha oh! mark even walked me to my church.. hahaha nice talking to him.. he's one person i can jus keep talking and talking and walking and walking wif.. hahaah
yes.. bro's grimm is a VERY dark show.. my gosh.. i gave lil squeals thru out the show cuz i was so terrified.. and i kept covering my eyes.. SO SCARY lo!! gargh.. and i was in between shaun n mark la.. so yes... i did get teased abt tt later on.. heh heh.. ya.. too dark for me.. tho i appreciated e artistic aspects of it.. very political in nature and very erm.. nightmarish.. guess i was scared cuz its resembled my nightmares.. wahahahahhaha... in the name of Jesus I ask tt these images go away! Fear shall not be part of my life no more!
oh.. speaking of fear.. i forgot that i had a fear of heights.. and u know wad? nobody arn me really knows tt.. hahahaha tt's interesting eh? yeah.. and i only got reminded of it when my dad told me.. hahaha cuz he recalls me walking abt super cautiously and erm.. nervously when i'm in high places.. hahah and well.. i can only say tt its God who set me free la.. =) i mean.. after all fear is really in ur mind la.. so today when i was like climbing.. i didn't feel scared.. but i was jus dying from the fatigue la.. hahaha in fact now my hands feel a lil disconnected.. hahaha the delayed effects of the climbing are beginning to set in.. when i was climbing it didn't feel half as bad.. haaa.. but now its starting to get a lil woozy.. =P
n yes.. i hv jus officially been labeled a chiko-bu... haa.. oh well.. wad can i do? i jus appreciate good-looks.. maybe i'm a fascist deep down inside?? hahahahahah
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YFriday, September 16, 2005
wow.. its the hols.. and man.. am i enjoying this..
using the main comp today and when i entered the home page it felt so good to leisurely look thru the weblinks from campuslife.net and i really feel like.. wow.. i'm so lucky to have Jesus in my life! i really dunno wad i'd do without Him.. and yes.. i know this sounds cliche.. but some things are jus so real that u begin to see the meaning in those cliches somehow.. =)
next week is lined wif activities tho.. more like for school la.. project meetings and all tt.. beginning to feel a lil worried abt em le.. cuz its like.. we're not meeting up as often and its kinda disheartening to see the deadlines creep closer while i'm still in that state of relaxation/inertia.. hahaha guess we're all too familiar wif the system la.. so maybe now tt i'm working wif yr2s we're less kan chiong? hahaha but its not right leh.. like.. something's missing.. so yeah.. hopefully this time during the midsem we can settle some stuff..
got loads of readings to do too.. and i really wanna finish my reports and term paper by this week la.. tho i know it may not be possible.. i've decided to go down n borrow my books one day in the mid sem break.. heh..
tmr going rock climbing le.. haa.. excited but nervous cuz i tink i'm a lil fat for climbing.. hahaha! hopefully the guys dun hv such a hard time belaying me la.. heh heh.. =P mark's bringing his fren.. stress! and this guys according to mark is some good-looker la.. wahahahha i was drooling over that fact ytd la.. haha but den again i might jus be horribly disapointed.. heh.. really hope eugene can make it tho.. it'll be nice to hv him arn.. den shaun won't feel so 'out' in that sense? cuz i'm like combining my three circles of frens ba.. my sec school mates, jc frens, and nus/swaps pp.. and i jus realized ytd tt there'd be only 2 of us gals.. aka erjie n me.. and hmm.. 5 guys? 6 if eugene comes along.. heh.. oh well.. jus hope we'll hv fun and good weather tmr.. meeting pretty early in the morning..
and darn! i tink i'm putting on weight.. gargh... feel like such a lump.. and i'm eating so much too! i had a whole bowl of cereal and den like 20 mins ago i munched on a biscuit.. and i jus ate another one! wad's happening man... eating so much.. bleah... and its not like snacking... its hungry! -_-" am i inducing my hunger or is it jus my metabolism?
hmm.. inducing reminds me of my midterm tests ytd.. haaa el2101.. man.. i wish i could've done better.. i tink i can do it lo.. but somehow when the tests come.. it doesn't come out.. sigh.. and i really wanna do well in my subs this sem.. dun wanna screw anything up.. but yes.. i msut realize and continually remind myself that my life is in the hands of the Master.. and i really have no need to worry and stress myself unneccessarily.. =)
gonna do some studying later.. for once.. =P and den watch survivor at 1pm den go for combined net meeting.. yay! tmr's another busy day.. rock climbing, meeting, edge, dinner wif uncle. by right i also hv this blast outing la.. but i decided to forgo it and go for youth service.. heh.. la la la la la... alright.. shall leave..
out.
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YMonday, September 12, 2005
ooh.. i changed my blog language to espanol.. haha now i can really practice reading the stuf haa.. and learning the lang? hahah immersion indeed.. =P
i realised this today.. i hv monday blues.. ha.. i mean i was due for school at 12.. but den i got inspiration for my new hooked article and i jus started typing.. and den when i was done.. i realized that i wouldn't hv time to get to class on time.. so i jus stayed at home! hahahah and well.. it was good la.. but if there's anything abt staying at home.. is that i snack!! big time! =) and i had to have a short nap from like 2 to 215 lo.. haha like dat also can rite? but i jus felt so sluggish.. like i didn't even want to go to school if not for the fact that my lecturer was intending on running thru some impt material for our test on thu and tt i hv a fieldtrip to the mosque! haa
but yeah.. i prayed abt my monday blues la.. and wad do u know.. i felt so much better.. and in fact.. i totally left my blues behind as i boarded the bus and train and all tt stuff.. =P but bad side was.. i kinda forgot to post my sis's letters.. heh heh.. so jus now i "risked" my life in the thunder and lightning storm running to the postbox outside blk adm from central forum.. hahaha i was so scared!! gosh.. i nv knew i was such a scaredy cat for storms.. heard from my sis that our place at bedok got blackout because of the storm.. oh man.. i simply can't imagine how the pp in other countries are like.. tahaning typhoons, tsunamis, hurricanes and wad not.. gosh.. and here in sg we're alr so freaked out if there's so much as a strong gust of wind.
oh.. that gary from blast is 'stalking' me.. he got my number fr a fren and he's now like sms-ing me.. haa.. guess he wants to be frenly la.. but oh boy.. this is interesting.. =P
ytd gary and saula spoke to me and yixian about net stuff. and well they're now forming their group of 12 and let's jus say that knowing that i'm one of the 12 kinda puts things into perspective.. like.. hey.. my life really isn't abt me anymore.. its really abt Jesus and the people He loves ie. my frens, family, pp arn me. so.. yeah.. i'm putting on something new.. and i'm intending to keep at it.. dun wanna slip back to the old routine of jus caring for myself only.. tt simply empties u.. in my opinion.. =) guess i know my priorities now.. and things are more or less settled i guess... like my schedule and stuff.. tues is icare day, wed is dance, thu is long day, friday is off day! wheee..
oh.. i got a big big biiiiig blue-black-green (tt's its colour) on my knee.. got it while trying to do a cross-over during ice-skating.. haa.. hmm.. did i mention this before? but yeah.. its BIG. very long nv have such big bruises le.. heh heh heh...
uh oh.. i dun understand wad guardar como borrador means.. but i do know wad publicar entrada means.. hahah it means publish entry!!! so i shall click on that! =) heh heh heh.. i shall and i will speak good spanish!!
whee heee heeee.... voy a cantar!! la la la lala la!!
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YSunday, September 11, 2005
me gusta espanol. yo voy a intentar a escribir en espanol ahora. clase hoy es marvilloso. yo aprendar mucho en clase. quiero a hablar bien. =)
oh wow.. tt certainly took me a long long time to type.. hahah or more simply.. i could jus write wad i can rite? =)
hola. mi nombre es Karina. yo soy un estudiante universidad. soy un cristiana y tengo una hermana. mi familia es el amigos y amigas en escuela y victoria familia centro, la iglesia yo voy a. mi madre es una cristiana tambien pero mi padre no es. quiero el es.
Dio hablar:
Yo soy el grand Yo Soy.
digno eres tu! nadie como tu! te amor!!
hahahah this is so cool.. haa and i need to start mugging alr.. i tink i've kinda gotten some kinda wake up call.. not jus in my studies.. but i itnk for my entire life.. wow.. let's hope i keep to this.. i got some new info from gary and saula today.. hmm.. shall blog abt it some other time.. fo rnow.. i wanna watch mib 2 first.. hahah! =)
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YFriday, September 09, 2005
hmm.. am i getting too busy for my youths?
to sylvia: was it ur bday the other time?? oh my goodness!! i had a feeling that ur bday was arn e corner.. but i couldn't quite put my finger on it.. so here's saying a happy happy belated birthday!!! muaaaah! will get ya a prezzie some day.. as soon as i find out when ur actual date is.. ehh heh... =)
i feel like i haven't met my net in such a long time and oh man.. i miss em so much! i feel like i've neglected em.. and here am i .. a net leader.. a shepherd.. someone who's God put in charge of em.. and i'm slacking.. -kicks self-
on monday had a thinking day.. cuz me n sis were jus talking abt what my ministry really is.. as in.. children's or youth. and my sis said that mine is probably youths.. cuz somehow she felt that i'm in children's ministry as a means of compensation i guess.. like God knows my heart that i really wanted to hv that experience the kids in CW and KB are having.. and so He put me in the ministry so i could grow in my foundations and give as well.. while He gave to me what my soul really needed.. and wow.. tt jus resonated so strongly in my heart as my sis told me.. i couldn't help but tear as i heard her.. and even as i'm typing it now i feel like i'm on the verge of crying too.. not out of sadness.. but more like.. wow.. God loves me so much and yeah..t he other part's unexplainable..
guess a child's heart is always closer to God.. like even when u're not exposed to such things u 'instinctively' know that there's a God out that.. someone way bigger.. someone so much more.. but yet u can't explicitly bring it out.. hmm..
but well..i hv been thinking abt wad my sis said.. and i feel like.. yeah.. it's kinda true.. my heart does belong to the youth a lil bit more than the children.. not to say that i don't love em and that i dun love serving in the ministry.. i honestly do... they've provided so much joy and fun and laughter.. and u wouldn't believe this.. but frenship, not only with the 'adults' serving there but with the kids as well.. =) undeniably tho.. i find myself praying for the youths far more than the kids.. dunno why.. and in terms of seeing which ones will grow and develop.. i see the youth as having that.. odd eh? but somehow God revealed tt to me la..
k..this doens't mean i'm gonna pull out of the ministry jus like this.. cuz i know they still need help.. and hey.. if God's put me in this position den i'm gonna be faithful and serve there.. i'll only move when He tells me to.. at present.. He's only chosen to reveal my stronger inclination.. but that doesn't mean that i hv to move or quit somehow.. =) after all we're one Body and as long as i'm serving my Daddy, tt's all tt matters yeah?
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YThursday, September 08, 2005
i am so amused.. was at el2101 tutorial jus now and i answered this qn la.. and i heard a gasp from behind that went.. 'she's so smart' haa.. i'll admit.. my head grew a lil.. but yeah.. it was interesting.. =)
oh.. i have an ex-ms universe participant in my group. haa.. lorraine lai.. remember her? e popular hot favourite? oh my goodness.. i didn't know lo.. but frankly.. she isn't very pretty.. hahaha i tink lin yen is prettier.. and i tink many others are as well.. heh heh.. oh well.. to each his/her own..
and man.. i feel hungry again.. and i jus had lunch at like wad? 12? goodness....
today's gonna be a long day.. looooooong.... ending only at 8 i guess.. got hooked meeting.. =P
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YTuesday, September 06, 2005
excited! the article i wrote wif shaun for hooked is out! this is so cool.. hahahah =) for those interested u can read it here! whee heee heee.. this being my first published article ever, i shall make special mention of it in memory of this historic moment.. wahahha
http://www.hooked-nussu.org/content/view/243/88/
but its flow and all tt definitely got a lot to do wif melissa (our editor) la.. i tink she really made it less convoluted and confusing that it was.. heh heh..
yesterday was actually kinda moody cuz think i got stressed out by the amt of work that i had to do etc etc.. and den i actually forgot that there was supposed to be steamboat to celebrate the september babies birthdays.. so when erjie suddenly called me and asked if i was staying for it i was like.. okay i'll stay but when i found out that it'd start sooo late i got a lil cranky la.. so i jus totally shut up and didn't feel like saying anything.. sorry to erjie and mummy.. u guys really see me in my good and bad times eh? and i'm jus so amazed tt i still hv wonderful frens like u guys.. -big hugs- hope i didn't spoil e day for anybody ya? in the end i had such a great time wif the swappies.. i tink its one of those things that u at first dun feel like going but den getting everybody together.. the event jus ignites with the warmth and joy that's jus going round.. hahah
oh this is amusing.. somebody actually walked by us and asked if we're from the steamboat club! hahaha cuz we were all eating steamboat.. hahaha and ohh.. there was this really really nice choc cake too! yum.. wif bananananannanananana inside..
ytd was also quite a happening day in terms of my ecas la.. got 2 calls.. first one was when i was on my way to get my dinner wif erjie.. this gal fr the icare project called me and told me that i'd gotten a conversation buddy.. yay! and its this gal from vietnam.. hopefully everything takes off.. cuz really really thank God.. the timing and all that is so good lo.. not on monday but on tues and before soci..which is kinda cool.. cuz i dun feel like i'm coming to school for nothing den.. hehh ehh.. so it'll be like every tue 2-3 when i'll jus meet up with this gal and talk to her.. be a fren lah basically.. really committing this to God cuz i wanna be someone who this person can talk to and trust and i jus wanna be Christ-like.. and frankly that's really been on my mind these days.. being like Jesus.. not sure i'm doing such an awesome job tho.. so well.. guess i'm learning and re-learning certain things ba.. =)
next call was from dance blast! oh my goodness.. i was so excited when i heard the good news.. hahaha this gal rang me to tell me that i was thru to the auditions! i was so happy! and i told justina, erjie and farah.. they were so excited abt it! hahah we started giving each other hugs like right in the middle of everybody's steamboat.. hahaha! i really do hv wonderful friends who genuinely feel happy for me.. and wow! its jus awesome... hahaha
but wad was most interesting and amazing was tt.. jus that day i'd told God that i wanted to give my all to Him and it didn't matter if i didn't get dance or anything like tt.. cuz i jus wanted my life to be His and His alone.. and i know that my eventual plans and future.. they're all in His hands.. i mean.. at that pt of time (which was like ytd morning?) i really jus wanted to live in His plans.. i desired so much to walk with Him and not on my own desires.. and the fact that He gave me this dance thingie jus showed me how much He loves me and how BIG He really is! i mean.. wow! i guess wad God really wants is our heart. He doesn't jus look at the action but rather the attitude behind that action.. u can donate tons of money to a charity but if u have not love behind the action, that thing is jus void.. null in the eyes of God.. and anyway.. u'd have already received ur reward on earth le.. esp if u do the act in front of everybody everybody..
so yeah.. tt was wad really struck me ytd when i got the call.. i mean.. i'm still in shock actually.. and i still think that they might've called up the wrong person or something.. but wow.. tt's jus awesome la.. and erjie was really nice abt it.. she went like she knew already that i'd get in.. cuz when i told her that i wanted to go for the auditions she jus knew that there wasn't a chance of me not getting in.. haaa.. okay.. confusing sentence.. but bottom line is.. thank you gal!!!
xm xm xm xm xm xm xm xm xm ... -huggies- u're not forgotten k? one day we'll pop by ur school and bounce arn ur campus.. bounce bounce bounce bounce.. la la la la la la la la la la la la la la... we can dance together!!!!! yaaaaay...
i keep on walking took her pride away at
YMonday, September 05, 2005
on prawning, gastric, steamboat and great friends!
haven't blogged on wad happened this friday ya? haa.. i am lag.. shall blog after saturday soon.. heh!
alright last friday was super super fun! and well.. tho i was really crabby before i met erjie, the evening ended up really well. was cranky in the afternoon while making my way there cuz there was this pasar malam at bedok la.. and people were NOT moving! gargh! esp when u're like rushing and its raining and wet .. the last place u'd want to be stuck in is the position in front of an auntie/uncle/kid (no discrimination ar..) who refuse to move and simply stroll den think to themselves 'eh? maybe i should eat that' and promptly station themselves in front of you. grr.. not to mention the fact that the oncoming flow refused to give way to u.. AT ALL! infuriating.. i think the usual 3 min walk prob extended for like 8 mins.. (okay erjie.. i tink i was exaggerating that day). haa..
but erjie was so sweet.. she jus cheered me up totally even when i was on the phone wif her and she was such a dear even tho i was SO late... i was supposed ot meet her at 6.. den i extended to 615.. but i ended up there at 630. so u can imagine how pissed i was at myself, the weather, the pasar malam, the bus.. EVERYTHING. hahaha and this gal is so li hai.. she told me to breathe.. which did help.. and yes.. the sweet was calming too.. hahah! and it felt so good to be with her.. i felt so excited somehow. cuz i realize that me and erjie never go like 'hey let's go out together!' before.. or rather.. its very rare. we usually jus hang out after school or something.. but this time we actually MET up to go out TOGETHER. hahah and the best part is.. i'm so comfortable wif her that i can jus talk abt everything and anything.. and u really dun have to worry abt the conversation dying or something lo.. ha.. anyway by the time ure worring abt such things .. it means the converstaion is alr dead le.. cuz no connection.. hahaha! =)
anyway.. we met up wif dage and chu jie at the prawning area @ marina.. heh.. actually we didn't know where to stop.. and we kept contemplating when to press the bell .. haha! until erjie eventually saw dage.. and i saw the countryclub.. which was our cue to press the ding-dong-thingie. it was kinda cool.. dage look very shuai.. heh.. cuz his hair long le.. den we walked into the place which was kinda wet and as we neared the prawning area .. my old childhood nightmarish memories came back.. hahah! nobody knows this..=P but i'm actually scared of dead fish or rather.. stepping on fishes... cuz when i was very young, my daddy used to bring us to this fish shop where we'll all like jus go in and look at the fishes.. and i remember it being very smelly and slippery (which was wad the prawning area was like). so i'd always be very very scared to falling down and dirtying myself or stepping on a fish and killing it.. my sister did before and i thot it was so terrible.. i even had a nightmare after that! gosh.. talk abt irrational fears.. i jus don't like being a murderer.. hence the reason why i don't like snails.. eek.
alright now i know i sound a tad squeamish.. heh! but actually tt's jus a lil background.. haha on friday itself.. i expressed some disgust i must admit.. i was prob quite a girl there.. going ee this ee that.. yuck.. i'm disgusted at myself.. hahaah.
BUT..
it was absolute fun.. cuz i never see live prawn before except in the fish tank.. but this was like live prawns in a basket.. hanging on the end of a rod! woah!! NEVER see before lo.. hahaha and cj n dage are so li hai.. they really really know how to fish.. haha tho they did it the unorthodox way.. the prawns are so terrible.. dun wan to eat the food and they cling to the side.. and i know dage and cj were so very nice abt wanting me to get a chance to catch a prawn by myself.. hehh eh.. cuz they kept feeding the prawn the bait and making me hold the rod so i can pull it up when they grab it.. =) but sadly.. thye were unsuccessful.. erjie managed to get one tho! hahah tt was exciting.. so exciting i forgot i had a gigantic puddle behind me and stepped right into it! hahahaha.. odd...
and dage is really dage.. hahah he bought potato chips and guess wad? PRAWN crackers.. -_-" so gu4 yi4 rite? hahaha.. ohh.. we had so many prawns that nite.. cuz there was this other couple who was prawning also.. and they had SO many prawns.. and befoer they left they jus passed us their entire basket.. hahaha! woaaaah... multiplication indeed.. plus our own, we had a total of 42 prawns! haahah and we made erjie carry em back.. haahahhaha =) oh erjie.. remember the hook k? one of the prawns swallowed a hook u see.. so.. for the pp eating it, must be careful.. heh..
after that.. we jus feasted on potato chips la.. cuz hungry le.. me and erjie haven eat dinner. this is where things start to get a bit weird... i got gastric despite eating the chips.. and my tummy jus felt odd.. like bloated and a dull pain.. so yeah.. it was gastric.. dunno how come recently got so frequently. and the guys were really sweet abt it.. i tink they remembered that i had to be back by 11 and that we were hungry la.. so they jus said they had enough le.. and we went off for dinner lo.. heh.. and they paid for the rods and all tt.. cuz i dun remember paying anything.. so nice of em..
den we walked to marina south the food places la.. ended up at the one of the steamboat bbq places and i told em that i maybe cannot eat so much cuz my tummy bloated and it gets pain if i try to eat heavily.. so tell em eat more.. and so we jus sit down while the guys settled everything.. dage paid for our dinner i tink and den they got chairs and stuff for us.. i really really felt so serviced that day lo.. goodness.. so embarrassed.. cuz i'm usually the one doing such things... not used to it.. -blush- and so when we're like finally settled down.. me and erjie jus get some food cuz the guys told us to get.. haa.. and den somehow only dage was seen after that.. cj disappeared.. so i thot he jus went off to pick some crabs or something la.. haa.. but lo and behold.. the next time we saw him, he was carrying 2 packets of milk.. one for me and the other for erjie.. he actuallly went somewhere somewhere to buy milk for me cuz erjie was mentioning that if got gastric shld drink milk.. my gosh.. i felt sooo bad!! cuz i tink he went quite far.. considering that he took quite a bit of time..
both of us realized that the guys can cook super well la.. hahaha all like chef like tt.. and it was weird.. us girls were like jus sitting down and eating lo.. haahahahah!! talk abt gender role reversal.. hahaha =P
after this.. we went to the arcade... heh heh.. quite interesting la.. cuz the guys were really doing something that they liked.. hahaha nice to watch em play game cuz they're so good at it.. heh! me and erjie spent 2 bucks on sweets.. haahhaah the mints and sweet fruity stuff.. heh which both dage and cj looked at in disgust.. hmm.. why?? NDU ma? hahahaha =) both of em dun like sweet stuff i guess..
anyway.. realized tt it was quite late le.. was like 10 mins to 11 when we were done.. and we had to wait for 400 to come.. it took some time.. den dage n cj said they tricked us into dropping at the 'wrong' stop.. -_-" actually they planned one la.. according to erjie.. heh.. they wanted to send us back in cabs cuz late le.. and the trains might not be working at that time.. haa.. nice dudes.. =) oh.. i almost brought back erjie's stuff! hahaha cuz her pouch was with me and when the cab came me and cj jus rushed in.. heh.. the cabbie was at the junction la.. so.. gotta be quick.. when i realized that i was carrying the drinks and erjie's pouch! hahhaha so we opened the door again and did a quick transaction.. haaa.. so yeah.. erjie n dage left tog in a cab while me and cj went off.. turns out he lives pretty near my area.. hahah i forgot! =P he stays at tropica.. same place as melody! heh...
real nice guy.. this cj.. take back all my comments abt him being an ah beng.. heh.. and well.. even if he's one.. he's a real nice one.. hahaha! but naaah.. =P told erjie that i didn't expect him to take that initiative to get to know me better as a fren cuz he knows erjie first ma..a nd most guys would jus stick to the girl that they know better rather than take the time to know the girl that is the fren of the girl.. haha am i making sense? =) he was nice enough to ask me if i wanted to go prawning and i only got his msg like ytd morning asking abt my gastric ( he actually sent it like on the night itself, somehow i didn't get it den) and last nite he jus mentioned he was booking in and coffee next time.. haa. i'm cool wif that la.. he seems genuinely nice la.. heh! =P
right.. so that's friday.. next post.. saturday.. but dne.. i'm tired wif this long post.. so.. till next time!
i keep on walking took her pride away at