Love, or Pride?

need i say more? =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/30/2005 11:18:00 PM .

haa.. yay! i got all the elang modules i wanted.. whee! thank God!! =)

jus had a 'party' of sorts at my place.. my sis organized a potluck for her net.. and it was fun! hahahah.. tink this is prob e most i've ever come to talking to em so much.. ha.. cuz it was always like.. a hi and bye thing for me and the rest.. but today was good.. guess i really jus needed to slow down and talk.. been too busy most of the time to talk to em ba.. nice nice..

got laods to blog.. but aiyah.. too lazy alr la.. hahahaha =)

another time den..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/30/2005 10:59:00 PM .

ello! me back from encounter! ha.. and well.. feeling really tired.. dunno how come.. this is despite e fact that i slept a good 5 hrs a nite.. and didn't expand as much energy as the participants wor.. [note: i was the girls chaperone aka welfare person aka guardian aka maid aka sai kang warrior] not that i minded tho.. haa.. =) guess maybe its jus the toll of running arn and getting things plus making sure eveyrthing goes smoothly.. heh.. and well.. maybe its the ministering too. but its jus been such an awesome time la.. really thank God for this opportunity cuz i really managed to spend time wif sylvia n her frens, like meiling, jeaneve n shereen.. who are such an awesome bunch of gals.. its like i could really see God touching every single one of em.. jus praying that they'll continue in this attitude of open-ness and victory wif the Lord.. there's jus so so much potential and promise in each one of em.. love em all... =) its like when i was there i jus wanted to see em get ministered to so much.. and i really thank God that i had His favour wif me thru out.. praise e Lord!

i tink my heart really lies with the youth.. no doubt i really wanna see the children grow in Christ too.. but ya... i'm realizing that this is where my main ministry lies in a way.. cuz i jus came back from the planning meeting of youth activities for the entire next yr.. and i realized that i didn't feel that tired when i was there planning.. in fact it was relaxing and jus cool! =) we came up with some great ideas and it jus makes me excited to think that these things are gonna take off.. oh man.. 2006 is such a promising yr.. things are really gonna happen.. like the youth are gonna be more united and pp are gonna be more integrated n ministered too.. its jus gonna be good.. looking forward to everything so much! =) hahah..

real tired.. can't believe i actually dozed off on the way back home after encounter.. alright.. gonna sleep now.. ha.. tired.. tmr den i'll check cors..

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i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/29/2005 10:23:00 PM .

darn.. i was so hungry i ate up the remaining chunk of that baguette that i was munching on last thu at full dress rehearsal.. only to find out now that there's fried rice in the fridge.. gargh.. oh well.. wad's done is done.. and i hv only one stomach.. hahha! next time den.. =) and oh.. my mummy bought me a new shirt! yay! basic tees here i come! i hv soooo many of u now.. whee! accessorizing becomes primal .. hahahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 01:04:00 PM .

me and my posing.. haha!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:35:00 PM .

woohoo! we're the.. err.. purpley-pinks! hahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:35:00 PM .

give it up for the greens!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:34:00 PM .

YAY! a group pic of ALL of us! daphne, lynette, melody, dawn, lena and me! (L-R)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:34:00 PM .

we love u! ha.. i love it that this bunch of gals are jus awesome pp! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:33:00 PM .

before pic.. before we get transformed (us looking normal)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:33:00 PM .

death by dancing.. haha! gals after chinese svc performance

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:33:00 PM .

this was before the performance.. hot babes of VFC.. haha!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:31:00 PM .

shot taken by lavette, me after performance. blur but check out the costume! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:30:00 PM .

lisha and dawn ham it up at Andersons

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:28:00 PM .

i love li sha! she's going off to east timor like next yr?! -cries-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:27:00 PM .

whee! at the lift thingie area.. all our pimples are out! gargh!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:27:00 PM .

me n my buddies.. ha.. mark and josh(L-R)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:27:00 PM .

its dawn's world! hahah she declares it her best xmas ever

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:26:00 PM .

me and dawn trying to look cool

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:25:00 PM .

boo! dawn u took so long to take this pic.. hahah hence the face.. and of cuz li sha looks delicious!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:25:00 PM .

I am Queen hear me ROAR!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 12:24:00 PM .

a sign that i'm truly under the weather... that i start typing all my various ids on blogger.com instead of the one i'm truly supposed to type.. hahaha =) i went u040... and den moomoo... and finally irethe.. whichi s this one's id.

anyway.. finally done wif cors.. settled on doing 3 elang mods and 2 usps.. tink i'll jus do my core stuff first before launching into UEs.. heh.. =) i know they'll be fun! looking forward to em..

and i feel i can genuinely look forward cuz of all the FUN i've been having this hols.. i love every hols to be like this.. tho i'm kinda tired now.. hahah cuz i've been having too much fun i tink.. haha running arn does take up energy ya?

xmas outreach was a blast! e gals did so well.. i'm so proud of em.. and of cuz it helped that a lot of pp came up to me to congratulate me on the dance well danced.. hahah =) sorry abt e pun.. but ya.. it felt good to be recognised as a dancer.. and a pretty good one at that.. but it was really pan's comment that made my day.. she said i had stage presence/showmanship.. and for that to come fr her jus meant so much to me.. ha.. cuz she's a fellow dancer.. and if a dancer says that abt u.. its gotta mean something! =) hahhahah but apart from that.. i realize that suddenly eveyrbody's catching on our dance.. and pp are going like.. 'oh.. u're e one' presumably the 'one' up there dancing.. ha.. so yeah.. its kinda cool..

but wad was more amazing was that.. when i was up there on the second day (sunday), the joy of the Lord really came upon me.. and i jus wanted to dance for Him.. and i guess that's wad made the difference.. in pan's words.. i gave more than the dance steps itself.. and that's prob e reason why i stood out.. cuz i jus couldn't help but dance for the Lord.. so it was jus awesome! any fear of me tripping up jus went away.. tho before i went up i'll admit that i blanked out on the last few steps and almost panicked.. phew.. thank God for His peace.. its like.. once i was on stage i knew things would be fine.. maybe its jus that the dance went by so fast? but yeah.. i was fine when i was up there.. praise the Lord!

ytd was super fun! i realize that i had my frens coming and going like changing group like that.. its like.. in the morn.. went ice skating wif simon, josh, dawn and edwin. was so fun! met charrissa there again.. and it was so nice to see her.. she's such a sweet gal! learnt quite a bit from ed... and i tink i can backskate reasonably well.. can do there twirling spin-arn thingie too.. haa... tho i need more practice! =) after that went for lunch/movie at marin sq.. ed left.. and mark joined in.. den simon left to meet tino, jeremy n saula i tink.. and li sha came.. so there.. a new group of frens.. and we went for the movie.. the CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE LION, THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE!!! woaaaaaah.. so cool la! it was such an awesome show.. i cried so much when i watched it.. =) cuz its like.. e more u know the links there are between what Jesus did on the Cross and what Aslan did in the movie/book/story.. the more u see how much cost went into ur salvation. and that jus touched me so much.. in fact at one pt of time.. i tink i heard God tell me this.. "u are not despised" and i have no idea why.. but it jus brought some comfort to me.. not that it was speaking directly to a current situation.. but it jus sank in right there in the cinema and perhaps God was healing some inner issue ba... God is so good right? He knows all things! =) so yeah.. i was super touched by a lot of the scenes.. cuz of the messages and the parallels i could draw between em and real-life situations.. AWESOME! everybody MUST go and watch! hahahahaha

and after the movie.. walked arn a bit wif all my favourite pp.. lisha, dawn and mark, josh. took pics at the lift area of marina.. hahaha! and den mark n josh had to leave.. so me, lisha n dawn went on thru suntec.. but decided that we were hungry and headed to subway! wheee! tho i had only a cookie.. cuzi was still full fr the andersons stop we made for icecream n cheesecake(only me). but it was cool still! love those gals... had so much fun talking and having crazy quirks.. after that we went to the fountain of wealth there cuz we were wondering how come got so many pp in there when we walked past earlier.. but when we went after our dinner there were lesser pp la.. so we jus forgot abt our earlier objective to find out and jus took to taking lotsa pics.. and towards the end.. robbie williams' Better Man came on and i started lip synching to it.. and li sha + dawn started video-ing.. but my memory card on e cam ran out of space (too many pics le!) and so.. the main bulk is with li sha.. hahahaha SUPER funny!! i see alr i wanna laugh so bad.. hahahahaha

so yeah.. after our crazy moment.. i tink i kinda strained my voice a bit.. so as a result i feel kinda sick now.. hahhahha but still dun regret any moment of it.. anyways.. encounter later.. i'll jus be the registration ladee.. hahaha! told jan that i couldn't lead worship cuz i'm afraid that i'll lose my voice halfway and i couldn't go swimming otday wif est.. as much as i wanted to.. cuz i really can't breathe properly wif my stuffy nose.. need e rest as well.. =) its been a jam-packed 4 days.. and the days leading up to em... heh heh..

will post up pics k? so look out for it.. =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/27/2005 11:59:00 AM .

la la la... =) i've seen the light.. laaaaaaa....

ha.. well.. okay not so dramatic but yeah.. i tink i'm not that affected by my results le.. i mean.. i realized that it was jus plain silly worrying over it and fretting over it.. i mean.. i gotta move on and understand that its part of life to not have everything going the way i want to.. hahah i tink that was jus the idealistic part of me expecting everything to be perfect.. hahahah =P well.. guess the key phrase would be to be optimistic... not idealistic..

but i got a bigger and better lesson outta all this... and that is.. to learn to depend not on my own strenght but God's. i guess i knew right from the start that this sem.. i really pushed my way thru in my own strenght and i even prided myself on being capable enough.. but whad i didn't realize was that all thru the times when i did well etc, were the times when i'd actually entrusted it to God. and i tink God knew jus what was needed to remind me that He's jus as part of my life as i am.. i jus thank God that He knew my limits.. hahaha i tink if He'd hit me too hard wif the CAP dip.. i'd hv jus cried la.. hahah but as it is.. it was a lil drop..but yet.. enough for me to take the hint.. phew! i'm so so so glad God knows me soooooooo much better than i do!

i'm also kinda glad that this disappointment happened.. cuz it kinda resets things for me? like previously i was resting on my laurels la.. but now.. i know that when i enter into the new yr.. i'm gonna rest in Faith to know that now it really isn't my past victories that are gonna get me thru, but something new and fresh, something God that's gonna pull me thru my modules - difficult or not.

and thru this yr (haa.. doing my new yr reflections early eh?) esp towards the end of it. i tink i've learnt something valuable too.. being transparent abt my weaknesses.. and ytd was the perfect eg of how being truthful abt ur struggles can actaully mend u in ways u can't imagine. like ytd i was at my fren's place baking cookies for our xmas bash today.. and i jus lamented/whined my bit abt my results and me getting a Cookie (C+) for one of my modules and how disappointed i was la.. and den one of my frens.. this guy that's back from america for his break jus commented that he also got a C for one of his modules.. and i dunno if its cuz misery likes company.. or jus a paradigm shift in my perspective, but i jus felt better after he said that.. like..hey.. it really is normal to get grades like this.. and yeah.. tho it was jus that comment of his.. i tink God healed that lil part of me inside... =) ha.. God is so good!

i tink i did a lot of reflection and thinking that morn after i got my results.. heh! and i jus weighed some things la.. like is it relationships with others or grades tt i shld worry abt more.. and yeah.. i decided that grades definitely DON'T hold that greater priority.. i'd very much rather be there for my friends when they need a shoulder to cry on, to be there for pp who need advice.. or jus be a frenly presence arn.. i tink that matters much more than grades.. and well.. tho i wanna go on to honours etc etc.. i guess its time that i lift it up to God again.. and ask for the Dream that He has for my life. cuz i know its gonna be good... i just know it is.. =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/23/2005 10:55:00 AM .

waaaaaaaaaah.. i'm so sad.... bleah! jus got my results.. didn't do spectacularly well.. quite disappointed with em.. gargh.. wel.. i'm happy wif some and disappointed with some la..

EL2101
STRUCTURE OF SENTENCES AND MEANINGS
B-
EL2151
SOCIAL VARIATION IN ENGLISH
A-
SC2214
MASS MEDIA & CULTURE
C+
UCV2201
ISLAM & CONTEMPORARY MUSLIM SOCIETIES
B+
ULS2205
BIOSEMIOTICS: SIGNS IN NATURE
A-
CAP: 3.9

i can't believe i got my FIRST C !!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO WHYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?!?! there goes my dream of second class honours le... and i thot i'd do alright for mass media and structure of sentences n meanings.. i mean..i found e exam pretty good lo.. plus all my tests were pretty well done too! gargh... somebody sock me pls! no doubt my cap dropped by 0.1.. but stll... it was nice to be in the 4.0 range... even if it were only the lower end... sigh.. guess this is where its time to praise the Lord even if i'm in the valley... so here goes nothing! praise e Lord! i know U know what's going on.. and i jus wanna praise U for everything else that's going great and everything else that's going as it shld be =) thank U for this opportunity to even be in NUS .. thank U for making today when U could've jus snuffed it out.. thank U for saving me from death when U could've turned Ur face away.. thank U for Ur love.... =) wow.. there's really so much to thank Him for eh? hahaha.. i'm feeling better le.. but ya.. i tink He's trying to teach me a whole lot on humility yeah? i tink i was jus feeling too cocksure and self-secure this time.. thank U Jesus for showing me my condition.. =)

thank U for the results!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/22/2005 11:11:00 AM .

i realize i'm typing in one-week intervals.. oh well. can't be helped.. super busy.. jus told chris that i had 3 events squeezed into the time span of 2 weeks.. hahaha how is that possible eh? well.. actually it is.. but i jus didn't realize it was three events.. =) so when i told him reality jus hit me.. hahahh

anyways.. went out xmas shopping ytd.. wohooo! i got everybody's gifts! so yeah.. feeling accomplished.. my jie says i really very she2 de2 hua1 (willing to spend) and i'm kinda surprised too.. cuz i'm usually the kind that will hold on to my money one..i dun like to spend.. but i guess things are changing.. and even when i was thinking and rationalizing abt my money spent.. i tink its really money well spent lo.. cuz.. i mean.. e pp that i'm buying for.. they've really done so much for me over the yr.. they deserve this and so much more! i tink i'm alr hitting the low end with my gifts alr.. and i tink God's beginning to change my heart too la.. i guess i'm finding it easier to give now.. and i jus know that God's happy with my decision.. heh heh..

went out wif my dad for dinner last nite too.. yay! it was so nice.. didn't know my dad can be so nice to talk to... well.. actually i do but its jus that i seldom see that part of him.. hahah! =) but guess its cuz i was complaining to him so much that he jus saw a diff side of me and for a change he did the listening and advising.. hahahaha! i was complaining to him abt my experience out wif M ytd...

to put in Ian's words.. it was a short date with a short date.. HAHAHAHA i laughed my head off when i read that msg.. hahaha =) but okay.. some qualifications.. it wasn't a date.. he jus wanted to tag along for my xmas shopping.. and yes.. he is v short.. hahahahah

but i was really kinda freaked out and traumatised by him by the end of the day.. cuz he's such a touchy-feely guy... i dun like! and he stands so clsoe to me, i can't even walk properly.. so right at the beginning i start walking really quick so that he doesn't hv that chance to walk closely by me... ewww.. den he jus likes to touch.. YUCK. so when we're sitting down i hv to put my bag IN BETWEEN the both of us.. boy am i glad my bag is big and fat.. phew! it was really kinda dramatic la.. cuz i felt like i was trying to escape a chiko-pek most of the time.. but i guess he didn't really mean it in a chiko way? its jus him.. and he is a pretty okay guy.. personality-wise.. jus that i tink a bit desperate? he wanted to buy me an xmas gift la! -_-" and when i asked him why he was out shopping wif me he said i was an exception-closefriend blah blah.. and i was like.. yeah right.. i hv eyes.. i can see lo.. that's wad i told him.. and den we jus closed the case there adn then.. gargh! wad have i gotten myself into.. BIG mistake... but thankfully that day is over and behind me.. i know now that i'm jus gonna steer far FAR away from him.. gargh.. i'm jus glad that my dad didn't give me the 'i told u so' thing.. tho my sis was close to giving me that.. but she thot better of it ba.. and anyways.. it was pretty hilarious describing it to em .. more than like a fatal mistake with BIG consequences.. was jus uncomfortable and very entertaining.. esp when i told ian.. hahaha i was high on chocolate last nite i tink.. all 3 of us.. that is, my sis, him n i were jus laughing so much! hahaha so nice.. =)

and its amazing how many pp are out shopping.. i met wan-tsin, zhi sheng and amos all at the same place on the same day! wahahah! it was so nice to see zhi sheng back again.. and i tink it was a BIG relief to see someone 'normal' in that sense after beign stuck wif M all day... gargh... so yeah.. thank u zhi sheng.. u gave me momentary asylum fr that dude.. hahahah =P

la la la... my exam results are out in 2 mins time! wheeeeee!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/22/2005 10:47:00 AM .

haha silly boy.. josh jus smsed me and asked if he'd missed mentioning something to me last nite.. and turns out that he says he forgot to mention that i looked good in the dress last nite.. hahahah so funny..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/15/2005 12:09:00 PM .

i'm back!!! yes.. after a 3 day long hiatus.. well.. not really hiatus but u get the picture (i was away at dance camp). i'm back!

but before i forget.. let me take things slow.. shall blog abt social nite first.. heh! while its still fresh in my mind..

alright, to sum everythign up.. it was good la.. heh! =) at abt 645 josh/qx came to pick me up at my place la.. okay.. he didn't drive but he jus came over to my place and we hopped on a cab tog.. left earlier cuz he had to go there and settle some technical glitch.. which i'm thinking.. is so typical of him.. its like ever since i've known him back in damai he's always been involved in such stuff.. hahah so i was kinda used to it when he started going off during the dinner and fixing stuff.. but he was real nice abt it.. kept apologising for leaving me alone.. and he even told his fren to look after me.. hahaha! so cute rite? but anyways.. i didnt mind la.. cuz i was so zonked out anyway that i jus enjoyed those few moments of rest.. hahah and ya.. it was jus nice soaking in the atmosphere..

and then in the cab he told me that yongping/yp was in the same wing as him and that he was going to the social nite too! oh my gosh.. i jus screamed for joy la.. well.. not exactly scream.. but ya.. jus one of those squeals i do when i get excited i guess.. heh! =) cuz i jus haven seen that dude in ages la.. and to be able to reunite wif both josh n him was jus awesome! haha at the end of the dinner all three of us took a pic together.. heh! fun... i tink i got a lot of my pics in his cam le..cuz even when we were doing a catwalk thingie yp (and a few others) suddenly whipped out their cams and starting taking our pic lo.. hahaha.. so embarrassing.. hahaha

anyways.. everybody was made to take a couple pic la.. hahah and so funny.. we were all queuing up and den somebody jus made the comment that we were all like queuing for the toilet or something la.. hahaha now that cracked me up.. cuz it was really a line lo.. =) haa.. but ya.. so me n josh got our pic taken and it was kinda odd that first time cuz i mean.. for those that know.. josh was my ex-bf la and well i had to ask if he minded if i put my hand behind his back and he asked back the same question.. hahah and of cuz.. i didn't mind la.. cuz its for e pic ma.. hahaha that moment jus kinda reminded me that he's really changed and 'grown' up quite a bit since e last time ba... he's really become more confident and flamboyant i shld say.. which is good.. hahaha tho i was afraid towards e end that it was cuz of the alcohol he was drinking.. but apparently it isn't la.. cuz he was still sober when he sent me back.. ha..

last nite was also e nite when i felt so paired off. hahaha never before have i felt like.. i'm really there for somebody.. and solely for somebody. cuz its really diff from a party when u know everybody and even if u come with someone else u can go and mingle wif e others u know. this time its like.. e only person u know is ur date and so u jus keep sticking with him.. and yah.. everybody jus pairs u together lo.. heh... not that i minded la.. it was jus a diff feeling to get.. heh! and ya.. i realized that as e nite progressed me and josh were moving closer and closer together la.. hahahah prob jus cuz we were more comfy wif each other la.. hahaha and since it was a dinner and i'm his date.. why not rite? suits e occasion..

got dragged up for a game wif josh too.. haa.. cuz sway sway his platoon, section and bed no. got called la.. so.. well.. both of us got dragged up la.. heh heh.. we were together wif five other couples at the front la.. n e first ting we had to do was do a catwalk downt he entire length of the room and back again (yes that's when all e cams came up) and i gotta admit that it was kinda weird for a moment there cuz i'm NOT attached to him?! so its like.. wad the?? i was half afraid that they'd make him carry me or do something to him la.. cuz one.. i'm heavy.. i dun wanna tax his muscles.. and two.. even if they made me do some sexy dance arn him which i might be able to pull off.. its jus odd la.. cuz we're not together!! hahahah but thank God e hosts were really nice la.. i tink they have this rule that they can humiliate e guys but not the gals.. hhahahah but anyways.. we jus played e game la.. hooked his arm as we strolled down the aisle.. and got some prizes out of it la.. hahah some voucher and cologne.. =)

food was good.. but wad wow-ed me more was the fact that all e guys turned out to be such gentlemen.. pulling my chair out when i wanted to get in and pushing it back in when i sat down.. haha he even wanted to get my food for me.. but from previous experience.. i tink i'll get a mountain of food by the end of the line.. so i went ahead wif him and he jus helped me pick out e food and put it on my plate la..hahah and last nite i was jus telling josh that i had a bit of gastric and needed to drink some milk to get thhe gas out. .and den he jus stood up and went to the waiter to ask for a glass of milk.. of cuz it was kinda embarrassing cuz when my milk came in a WINE GLASS(!!!!) everybody jus looked at it and went.. 'Milk?!?!' and i jus had to explain.. 'gastric' hahaha whoopps! embarrassing moment.. hahahaha

speaking of embarrassing.. okay this is really laughable.. and i tink u can even include this in a scene of a movie la.. hahah last nite when he sent me back.. he told e driver that he was gonna walk me up and all la.. which is great.. and so he gets out of the cab and i can't decide which side to get out from so i inched towards his side (after he gets out la! wad u thinking.. heh!) and jus when i was abt to get out.. he slams e door shut.. and i jus laughed out loud in the cab.. hahaha it was so funny! and e cab driver laughed too.. hahaha wonder what the uncle told him on the way back or something.. hahahaha and when i get out josh looked slightly embarrassed and said that he was abt to go out on the other side and open the door for me.. awwww.. so sweet rite? hahah but anwyays.. nothing like a lil humour on a date.. hahaha =) think i'm also loosening up a lil la.. dun mind these kinda things as much

was quite a good end.. heh.. he sent me a msg and in sum it jus read that tonite kinda reminded him of the past (awwww) whic is good la.. cuz tonite was good for both him n me. heh! think he was kinda proud of me when i dressed up so nicely.. heh heh... hey got effort k! =) cuz i always belive that when u go as a date.. u shld make ur partner look good and feel proud of ya.. heh heh.. so ya.. always look ur best! =) but ya.. my sis thinks he still has feelings for me.. and well.. my mum too.. in fact i tink my mum's looking forward to me getting attached again.. somehow.. i hv a fun family.. and ar well.. on my side.. i'm not really sure.. but i thot last nite was fun/good la... i enjoyed myself.. and hmm.. if i get invited to his commissioning ball.. den we see how la.. hahahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/15/2005 11:23:00 AM .

heh! jus confirmed with qx that i'll be going for his OCS social nite with him.. hahahah.. so corny.. SOCIAL nite?! wad e?! hahahah it sounds so SDU-ish and erm.... jus plain match-making la.. hahaha but anyways.. the other gal that he asked said she could'nt blend in.. and well.. i jus have to step in to 'save' him from signing 11weeks of weekend duties.. sigh.. e obligations of an ex-gf turned good fren... -grins-

only thing is.. my dance camp ends at 5pm.. and his social nite is at 630. it takes me 1hr30mins to reach home exactly.. so looks like its gonna be another gradnite-swaps arrangment again.. cept this time its a diff set of camp n nite. hahaha.. why oh why do i always end up in such things? =P guess i'll borrow my sisters black dress again ba.. heh! its like a most flattering dress ever... and for the time constraint.. lets jus hope he comes and fetch me.. if not.. i'll go all arn singapore in this dress le..

oh.. and this is post 360!!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/10/2005 11:21:00 AM .

alright.. i know i haven't been blogging.. but thign is.. i have! in another blog that is.... hahahah =)

and u know u've been using too much msn when u're actually attempting to use the emoticon shortcuts in ur blog.. hahahahahah i jus tried to type :D to give a -beams- effect.. but i realized soon enough.. heh!

been a happening week.. and boy am i glad it happened.

had esther stay over at my place on mon .. was nice.. watched my first whole bollywood movie.. it was so good! it had shah rukh khan in it.. and he's such a good actor.. e actresses in it were also soooo pretty! wow..... the plot not bad also.. u guys shld watch bollywood once in a while.. really entertaining.. heh heh! =)

tues went out swimming.. and the sun that day was super super hot la.. so now i'm really brown... hahaha but sadly.. my swim mark is more obvious than ever la.. i shall look like i'm wearing two swimming costumes when i wear my bikini the next time.. hahaha! =) but yeah..t he exercise and the sun was good.. whee! after that had to rush to my og outing with WASABE!!! oh man.. i felt so bad.. cuz i was late and cuz of that.. we couldn't get up on the bus at 230.. sorry guys.. thanks for being so awesomely nice abt it... u guys are the best! i jus love being with em.. its like i'm jus so comfy with all of em... =) super nice... and they even left the bowling centre earlier cuz i had to be in tamp by 7 and e next shuttle that left the place was 715.. too late for me le. we wanted to go to safra tamp to play pool but ended up in starbucks chilling.. which is great with me.. hahahah i loooooove starbucks.. bowling was good too.. hahaha tho i tink i swept the gutters pretty clean that day.. heh heh.. it was like 9 pins den nil nil nil and nil....

den headed to church.. =P was good.. gary jus kinda did some catch up wif us.. and i looked arn and realized how much i love these pp... and its like.. it doesn't matter if sometimes i can get terribly pissed with em.. but these are my frens and i love em for being who they are... wow! i jus wish that more of the others would join us at the meeting.. cuz we used to be so nice and big.. bt now its like jus the few of us... but i guess God knows the future better than we do eh? guess being in a big group doesn't allow fellowship to flow so freely ba.. and more cliques jus form but now that we're smaller.. we're in a way.. more united and its like we're jus one big family... i guess i like this better now.. tho i really do want to see the other leaders coming in more... i mean.. its like family right? u don't leave anybody out... =)

next day left for camp after having dance pract in the morn =) heh! camp was a good one! God was really there to minister to the kids and i really saw that some of em were changed and jus made new persons at the camp. interestingly, the boys were more open to God it seems.. the gals.. maybe cuz of the age ba.. den they more self-conscious.. so jus praying that they'll continue to experience God in their own way more and more each day ba... but wad was cool was that.. even tho i was there as a leader for the kids.. this encounter ministered and touched me more than i ever thot it would. its like every day.. God would have something new revealed to me.. and it might not be something astoundingly new but it would be something simple and easy-to-miss that would catch my attention. something that i probably know that the back of my mind but only came into reality at that v moment. to me those moments of revelation are perhaps more valuable than if u were to discover a totally new thing.. cuz its always a build up and when things are a build up.. they require a foundation and it jus gets more and more difficult each time to discover what's beneath/behind the surface cuz we're alr so comfortable with what it alr is.

hmm.. not sure if i'm making sense la.. but this i know.. is that God is real and i know that He spoke to me a whole lot during this camp..cuz its like.. whatever was in my mind, someone would always come up to me and confirm that in me and i'm like.. how did they know?!?! =) totally glad for it tho.. and it jus goes to show that He really isn't limited by space, time, culture.. etc etc... but jus so long as ur heart is open.. He will speak.. somehow tt's jus how He is.. =)

so here i am.. back.. and charged up =) only thing is.. i still dunno what i wanna share at net group later on.. i mean.. i wanna hear what God wants me to share.. and i guess i still need a whole lot of patience and sensitive listening to be able to catch what He wants me to do.. tho i can't help but hv this old idea in my head abt what i wanna share - abt how to make decisions abt ur future, cuz my net pp all jus finish o's la.. so thot it'd be good if can share abt this.. will certainly help em.. heh!

next week is gonna be another happening one... this sun having dance pract, going for blast!camp.. from mon to wed.. den thu blading.. den fri dance pract.. heh! physically demanding ya? hahah was jus telling my sis that i'm feeling muscles again.. its like everything toughening up again.. wahhahaha.. yay... =P but i've been stuffing myself at camp the past week.. so hmm.. i hope i didn't gain weight!! arhahahahaha

gary's also asked if i could teach at the youth encounter.. -gasp- God.. help me!!! =) =) =) =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/10/2005 10:42:00 AM .

oh man! praise the Lord! no. 1..He got me thru this day.. considering taht its a super packed day.. i tink its reallyHis strenght that got me thru.. (morning teaching, afternoon dance , evening teaching again) but its good.. all's good.. everything's great!

and He really provided the lesson notes for me this morning.. and it jus goes to show that His grace never ends.. even when i was unfaithful(i didn't get my notes earlier altho i could), He still supplied. really makes u realize the depths of His love for ya.. oh mn.. i love Him!

today's dance was good.. its like i could see all the gals put in their greatest effort to master and learn e steps in such a short time. if i were them i think i really wouldn't hv kept it all down lo.. jus regurgitate one or two eights and die.. ahhahaha! so these gals are good la.. praise e Lord! i tink He really put us together.. and wad's amazing is that all of em have a bit of dance background.. so that jus makes things better.. haa.. wow! praise the Lord!!!

and yeah.. not to mention that we got away another week.. of putting off the dance that everybody's supposed to do.. heh! i like our dance better.. -beams proudly- but yeah.. i remember that this is the Lord's dance.. not ours.. heh heh.. He's e one that has brought us this far and that has enabled us.. heh heh! whee!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/04/2005 09:19:00 PM .

oh.. forgot.. who wanna go wakeboarding????? 28th dec.. 70 bucks per person.. can sign up as a group.. =) check ivle announcement for more details... lets GO !! =) =) =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/01/2005 04:13:00 PM .

ytd was an awesome day out.. its really amazing what stress can do to normal pp.. =) haha but by ytd anyway everybody was free from exams and boy.. did we hv fun.. or rather.. did we EAT!

went out wif erjie, xm, just n cheelay ytd.. thank God could meet up wif both erjie n xm tho.. it was so cool that xm suddenly msged to ask if i was free for coffee and of cuz i was excited! so long never see her le.. plus i'd also made an arrangement to meet wif erjie for coffee.. haa.. nothing beats having coffee wif pp u love and chilling..

nice day.. but of cuz.. i'm too lazy to go into details.. heh! =) i have to bring the cam out someday when the four of us meet up again.. must remember the details and i tink pics speak louder than words.. heh! =)

tmr gonna watch a twist of fate.. and i'm glad.. at least i've got osmething to do.. heh. but den again.. sometimes i tink i've got TOO much to do.. that i jus get sian n refuse to do anything.. haa.. but den.. oh well.. i'm a confused creature. this morn i jus got really ticked at what was happening and i'm trying not to touch my phone and sen danother sms out le.. i'm so sick of typing and sending smses... haa..

its module selection season... i dunno what to take! gargh... dunno if i shld do soci or not.. cuz i wanna see if i can do a science mod from usp.. if i can't den i tink i might be doing all arts lo.. ha.. somehow i seem to be doing that every sem 2.. no wonder i felt like sem 2 last yr was busier than this sem1. cuz i did all arts... =) but its by choice la.. i'd rather do something i like than worry abt e workload.. if i work hard.. i work hard... tho i dunno if i shld do morphosyntax, bahasa or soci now.. if i do soci. i'll do soci of deviance.. shld be interesting... i'm jus kinda wary abt morphosyntax.. think i'll jus see how i do for the exam ba.. heh.. my fren warned me against doing that mod tho.. shld i listen to him? heh.... maybe i'll jus morph into a full time elang student and immerse myself into elang... laalaaalaaaa

i keep on walking took her pride away at 12/01/2005 04:00:00 PM .