YFriday, March 31, 2006
Dear All,
Thank you for your application for the MCYS internship.
We are happy to inform that we have shortlisted you for the MCYS internship. MCYS will conduct the next round of selection. You may be required to improve on your cover letter/ CV and we will get in touch with you individually.
We will advise you accordingly once we hear from MCYS.
-- eh.. call me dense.. but have i been shortlisted then? hahahah Dear ALL doesn't sound v specific.. so i guess maybe a lot of pp kena shortlisted? haa.. but oh well.. this is an opportunity not be missed.. heh heh! so yep.. sticking wif my earlier post.. yes.. if God wants me there. .i'll be there.. heh heh! =)
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okay..i'm jus psyching myself up now.. JUST GET THRU THIS WEEK!
and i know i'm gonna get thru jus fine.. i know God's right here with me.. yes.. i know i'm gonna do good..
*shaun goh jus called me and 'mooooooo'-ed into the phone.. WAHAHAH tt dude is nuts!! =) =) and i said.. 'u sound like a stalker' .. hahahahhaha..
*josh jus smsed something v encouraging.. cuz i was saying that i hope to end the next week in JOY.. and this is wad he sent : "Hee hope is a future expectation which is of substance =P equals you will definitely end in joy.. the grindstone will become a never ending flow of water =)
--> now tt's just prophetic!
so i'm believing it NOW!
on one hand i wanna go thru it.. cuz its jus liberating and exciting at the same time.. but on the other hand. i'm jus afraid tt things will cock up.. u know? like.. thigns not matching.. arguments not flowing etc etc.. but NO.. i will stay positive.. i will stay in Faith.. =)
alright.. shall talk abt the interview today. it was awesome! i enjoyed myself os much and i tink that the female interviewer was a christian.. haa.. =) so tt's kinda cool.. and she was telling me.. don't apologise for being idealistic.. cuz that's why u're in USP and i thot.. man.. tt's so cool.. and its true.. pp in USP are really those that burn wif a passion for something.. and yeah.. tt's jus neat to know.. =) i tink ar.. even if i dun get the internship i'll still be super happy tt i got this chance to chat wif her and also to hv all these other opp open up for me.. cuz she said that she's gonna put me on her list of those she's gonna contact if there are any outreach events for usp and for other opp that come my way if there's a fit wif my personality etc now that she's met me and heard my heart.. i mean.. wow.. this lady really takes efforts.. =) so yeah.. i'm blessed! she said i was really passionate and articulate -beams- and i guess it was cuz i jus spoke from my heart ba.. and this has really been something that i've worked out for a bit.. like.. now i dun jus wanna write.. i wanna impact society with my writing.. i wanna go on and make a difference somewhere.. not jus to have my name printed on some silly article.. but to write somewhere where its worth while.. i guess tt's what drew me to the newsletter thingie for youth ministry.. but yeah.. =)
i'll know the results on monday anyways.. so ha.. let's see how la.. this is jus the first round of interviews.. and next round will be by mcys.. jus realized how big this role is gonna be.. cuz i'd basically be running the event that they're needing us for.. and i'm carrying the name of usp.. so.. yeah.. BIG resopnsibility.. but well.. if God wants me there.. if its His plan.. den i'll be there.. =)
alritey.. its back to work!! God.. give me strength and keep me safe in Ur arms.. i konw they're strong enough to carry me thru!! -huggies-
and big hugs to all my frens.. esp just and erjie for jus being who they are.. i really lvoe those girls.. my support system in a way and of cuz.. there's lotsa ya.. but jus so happen to hand out wif these two babes these past 2 days.. and farahrahrah.. it was fun chatting wif u today.. hahah love ya!
-chugs away-
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YTuesday, March 28, 2006
roslinda e usp admin person jus called me and asked if i could go down for an interview for the internship at mcys.. yiipeeee! but its on friday 930am and i've got class from 9-12!! -groans- i hope i get it i hope i get it i hope i get it i hope i get it!
and argh.. i've got too much bio on my mind now.. i tink i need to sit back and let the blood flow properly again.. i hv a baaaad feeling abt my evo essay.. grrr.. no doubt YC helped me quite a bit.. but hmmm.. aiyah.. need to sit down and think thru la.. at least i know i've got readymade parts to integrate into my final essay if i need to edit it extensively.. tho now i'm super lazy.. gargh..
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okay.. jus felt like putting that as the title.. cuz i'm currently working on my evolution paper AND presentation after i'm done wif the paper.. gosh! i really hope i can get it done by today.. which means that thre is the SUPER high chance of me skipping today's lect.. AGAIN.. darn... can't stand myself.. but ar well.. =P see how la hor...
and my engwish is gowing.. i jus spellt 'reliable' as 'relibable' GARGH.. and of cuz.. many other inane mistakes filling up my msn convos..
last nite was busy busy as usual.. but not that i mind.. i love being busy wif some things.. heh! like talking to frens and having nice fruitful discussions online/offline. heh!
and oooh.. my mummy jus told me she bought me dance pants! hahaha she told me one of it is hello kitty (???!??) but heh.. shall see how la hor.. can't be tt bad la.. jus hope they fit.. and if all goes well..u guys will see me in my hello kitty pants soon.. wahahahahhahha
workie workie workie workie..
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YSunday, March 26, 2006
alright.. this post is gonna be abt sat.. haa.. =) was commenting to some pp that it was like some kinda social-day.. but hey.. i loved every bit of it! and i love e pp that were a part of it.. =)
first up was youth activity.. PaintBALL! it was so fun to jus go crazy la.. like jus throw paint bombs at each other and play like mad.. hahah and it was jus as awesome to see all e new faces there interact wif the 'older' ones - those that have been in church longer and hv cliques alr. yeah.. i'm always one for integration.. wahahah! and i tink my net members are crazy.. seriously.. haahh they really REALLY play leh.. gosh.. hahah but its nice la.. i'm so glad to see em all fitting in.. which is really e goal that our youth ministry has for this yr.. to reach out to those who're in our midst but never get seen.. yeah.. so it was good.
managed to catch up wif ian too.. rode home wif him on 21 and yeah.. long time no see my brother alr.. =) so yeah! he's still as crappy as ever and we still crap as much too.. hahaha and the sweet dude bought me milo cuz i wasn't eating anything for lunch after paint ball.. and he dressed my wound when i cut myself at paintball. hehheh.. not bad leh his wound cleaning skills. and to those that don't know.. i cut my foot on the 'treasure box' container while trying to protect my 'queen' simon aka helen of troy. hahaha!! and i didn't even notice that i cut my foot until aaron pointed it out.. and i was like.. Oh.. and den i continued filling water bombs.. hahaha tt jus shows how intent i was on winning the game.. and jus playing. hhaha and when i was filling the bombs, my mind jus kept going back to FOC when we wld fill the bombs for our games.. HAHAHA i have been well-trained..
den dad cooked up fried rice for lunch.. YUM.. i love my daddy.. he's so sweet lo!! =) jus now he cut oranges for me too! -beams-
and after tt headed off to youth service.. where met allt hose who went for paintball.. a lot of pp were there this week.. whichi s a nice refreshing change.. =) cuz sometimes edge gets a lil empty.. hahah but yeah.. this week is good.. as other weeks are.. cuz God always shows up. yep.. and it was nice to be able to talk to everyone.. and jus be a fren to everybody. yup yup.. i like being arn pp and beign able to be a fren to em.. heh heh!
den i went over to farah's bday party at tamp. thank GOD she lives so near! hahaah i can't imagine if she lived anywhere else la.. but yeah.. met all the swappies.. and met a jc fren there who was farah's sec sch clssmate.. =) farah looked awesome! really.. she was jus radiant.. and she looked very pretty.. hahaha prob from al the happiness =) and it was nice to meet everybody there.. aside from the table.. hahaha..
but i had to leave earlier than the others cuz i was supposed to meet mark and josh.. and they haven eat yet! so i felt reaaaaally bad.. and i jus apologized and upped.. gosh.. tt made me feel bad too.. gargh.. but ya.. mark's back from india.. so we 3 jus met up la.. as we always do.. and this is where it gets interseting... we walk into cafe cartel.. and there they were.. the YOUTH! wahahahha it was super funny cuz i totally didn't see em until mark called me and said err i tink they're calling u.. and the youth were going 'Kariiiinaaaaaaaa' in that 'ooh.. wad are you doing wif two guys' kinda way.. wahahaha they're so funny la! but yeah.. i tink i blushed cuz i was jus so shocked and i didn't know how to respond la.. wahhaha -_-" darn! i jus gave mark another excuse to suan me la.. hahaha but yeah.. they were all commenting abt how good-looking mark was and eel in particular kept asking me why we weren't tog?? and i was like... errrrrrr... cuz thing is.. me and mark go waaaaaay back.. we're jus like buddies from dunno when la.. heh heh.. and PLUS he isn't christian.. so heh heh.. no way until he gets that settled la.. =P looks are one thing.. but being whole on the inside is another thing and its just and in fact MORE impt than the outside. yep yep
so yeah.. those were the 3 large social groups i hung out wif last nite.. heh! happening rite? and at nite.. in fact.. i was supposed to be at like.. hmm.. 4 places? was supposed to be at the night safari, farah's bday party, youth svc and wif e guys. hahahah interesting rite? its jus the 25th of march la.. i mean..it jus seems to draw all sorts of apptments.. heh!
yup yup.. okay.. i SHLD get back to work rite? haa.. i shall jia u!!
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u know wad? despite having back to back schedules.. i'm actually pretty alright.. =) this morn and evening had kids church to do.. so wasn't in service and in the afternoon had musical pract.. and wow.. i'm jus amazed and SO super thankful that i got thru it.. and i know that God definitely had something to do with it.. -beams-
let me begin wif the kids.. I LOVE EM! they're jus SO super funny.. its like most of the time i jus end up laughign at em cuz of their silly antics to try to get ur attention and their 'smart-ass' answers which very often turn out to be the ones that i weave in to the lesson cuz somehow it manages to fit in.. and i jus think its soooo nice to be wif em.. i mean.. today is the last class for this batch of kids, the next next week i'll be receiving a new batch of kids for the age group le.. and honestly.. i tink i'll miss em.. =) and they were talking nonsense la.. as usual.. but there are those really sweet ones who'll really listen to you and u can jus see em learning and taking in all tt u're saying.. and there are those who TALK and TALK incessantly but yet have a certain kinda soft spot for you.. so when u say 'listen' and 'dont talk' etc or ask for participation.. they're the ones that step up.. and its jus so nice to see tt la.. i mean.. u can see tt they love you altho they never really say it.. hahaha =) they wanted me to treat em to mr softee tho.. but i told em.. wait a while when i start working.. and they said den they'll call me to remind me to treat em.. hahahaha and i was tinking.. wow..by den they'd be youth alr.. and i really wouldn't mind keeping in touch wif em lo.. hahaha
evening one was good too.. cuz the kids were jus so excited la.. hahah i tink they really like games and the point system thing REALLY works wif kids.. hahaha terrible rite? but cuz we did that pt system thing and constantly told em to be serious wif worship time.. they really worshipped.. an dlet me tell u.. it was so awesome! like God's presence jus came and hung arn like such a sweet presence.. it was great.. and i felt so ministered by the worhsip and everything la.. even tho this service came at the end of a long day.. i jus felt so energized by everything.. the kids, the games, the worship, the lesson (on loving God wif all you got) and the review lesson. time jus flew.. and we didn't even get to finisht he game.. hahaha but e kids didn't know that we took tt long too! hahaha until their parents came in.. hahaha cute rite?
i love em! it just reaffirms wadever tt's in me that got me involved in Kids ministry in the first place.. =)
musical pract this afternoon was alright la i guess.. we relaly need to communicate more.. but yeah! i believe God's gonna see it all thru.. and things are really moving.. i tink we've really got a great team for the committee.. and i'm SO amazed and awed by the amt of commitment they're all putting in.. i jus love it when pp pull their weight.. and e work is really jsu so divided that you dun feel the pressrue when u're there.. tho sorting out and getting our thots heard can really be very trying.. like all discussions are when u're discussing something big. but yeah! i love everyone of em.. and i konw that they really really put in their all.. -big hugs to all from musical reading this- but yeh.. prayer's really gotta be our help in all this.. God really has to come thru for us.. was getting a lil cranky.. hahah and i tink i gave a super stressed look most of the time.. but yeah.. wheni saw the dance gals jus put in their all.. i'm jus so touched and so moved by their dedication la.. =) u gals are great!
so yeah.. i really think that God got me thru this day.. and somehow.. i'm not stressed by all the stuff that i have to do? like.. i know they're there.. but somehow i know its possible to get thru without losing my mind.. =) and big thanks for dawn for buying me lunch today and being sensitive enough to pick up my 'valley' moment this morning.. was being tired and overwhelmed... i jus cried to God in my empty classroom and i was jus like.. God.. You really have to get me thru this.. and u know wad? He did.. =)
love You!!
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YThursday, March 23, 2006
alright.. this is e second tag i'm getting online.. haha so fun! =) to farah.. sorry i haven't done urs.. i was on the verge of completing it when my spastic fingers tapped some shortcut and ERASED it all.. i was so EURGH i jus left it. hahha so yes.. when i hv e time.. i shall do it.. =) here's an easier one to do tho.. so yeah.. from jacob..
My Perfect Lover Instructions:
The tagged victim (HAHAHA) has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Specify the gender of the target(uh huh...). Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Sex: Male
Gender: Male
(must be practical rite? wahahahah)
1) Be in love with God as much or even more than I am.
I just think its very important that my guy knows God sooo intimately and sooo well that i can just fang4 xin1 and not worry about whether he's in a cult or something. plus i always believe that if you're right there with God, chances of you turning out as a nice person is there la. when it comes to decision making, i'll also know that he's sought e Lord's advice and that he's got the wisdom he needs. having a fear of the Lord is super impt.. can't have somebody that disrespects Him (my no.1) cuz i'd want us both to love God with all our hearts and eventually hv ours drawn closer together. awww.. God is a God of Love after all.. =)
2) Be a good leader
NO.. i'm not talking about him being some commander and yelling orders at pp.. GARGH i'll jus leave the guy to his 'men' if they exist in the first place or not la. heh! but okay.. i like my guy to be able to take e lead in making important decisions and of cuz discussing it with me first la! =) those are aspects of a good leader i tink.. heh heh.. let's me know he can lead in the relationship and in the family.. and it speaks of his char. as well when u hear frens saying.. 'waaah, he's a very good leader' cuz must hv balance of knowing what you shld do and valuing relationships as well.
3) Be able to dance with me!! (alright.. expand this to being an Arts lover)
muahahah okay... i'll admit.. this is a chiko-bu remark.. but heh! i jus think its romantic to be dancing with ur guy who also ur dance partner.. sighs -gives faraway look in eyes- of cuz if he can't its fine la.. but dun snub dance or music or the arts la.. yuck! i dun like pp like tt.. i mean.. its fine if you dun get it but dun snub it and put it down la.. heh! but OF CUZ this being a survey for MY ideal man.. i'd say that he'd have to be able to appreciate the arts and see the nuances in things.. to be able to understand e meaning behind art e way i see it. i guess this links with my next pt abt...
4) my guy shld be smart!
dun need to be academically there like phd or masters.. but at least.. a degree and of CUZ be smart in the things that matter. in relationships with people, in social issues. he shld be competent enough to debate with me on stuff and to input things inside tt i'll go 'orrrhh..' after a good conversation with him. heheh.. i'm an intellectual snob la.. =)
5) shld be able to laugh at himself - carry himself well in social situations
not too serious la.. heh! we shld all learn how to laugh at ourselves at one time or another.. hahah i'm still learnign that.. but hey.. it helps to have an example to work towards. hahah.. and i guess my life's pretty centred arn being friendly.. as you guys can tell.. so to have him be warm and sociable enough would be good la.. like.. jus dun dao pp and stand in a corner.. hahah...
6) share my passion for reaching people and their needs
i really wanna go arn and make a difference in the lives of others lo.. so he shld be able to share that same passion to see that when somebody's hurting, we shld be there.. to be able to feel for those that are less privileged and not snub/ignore em. aka.. he shldn't be a selfish freak. hahahahahha...
7) i wan my guy to protect/pamper me!! wahhahaha
every girl wants her knight in shining armour rite? hahahaha i wanna be pampered by my guy and to be a support to him as he is to me. heh heh.. okaaay.. stop laughing!! =)
8) VERY IMPORTANT - must LOVE me!
and of cuz.. i'll love him back as much as i can possibly do! hahahah
'nuff said.. hahaha i tin kthere's more.. BUT those are side issues i tink.. heh heh.. aiyah.. if they're there u'll alll hear em sooner or later la.. heh heh
with that.. i TAG pp.. i tag:
erjie, xiao mei, farah, cheryl tan, cheryl ho, xuan (you know wad? u guys are ALL attached!darn.. ) argh.. so i shall tag more pp..
dawn, cheelay, djd, rion, pandora, shaun lee.
WAHHAHAH.. i'm currently hung up on this line..
i am woman.. hear me roar!!
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YWednesday, March 22, 2006
here's my sweet list.. and of cuz this list is SUPER inaccurate cuz there are way more people who are sweet and in my life.. so dun fret if you're not mentioned here.. not yet at least.. cuz my brain space can only accomodate so much la.. sorry sorry ar..
but anyway.. here goes:
Mark: for calling and sms-ing me all the way from India where he's having his field exercise.. been there for abt a month. he was asking me wad kinda colour shawl i wanted.. and i totally didn't know la.. cuz i hv like a black and pink one alr.. but anyways.. its sweet of him to even think of buying something for me(tho' i did ask him to buy me a sari! wahahah joking joking..) and calling back to ask too! must've cost him even to call/sms.
Jacob: for giving me special mention in his thesis.. dude.. i really didn't deserve it la.. =) and thank you so much for putting my name there.. hahaha -big wide grin- and of cuz.. for the burn the floor tix!
Cheryl Ho: for being such an awesome fren.. like jus today i saw her protecting my phone while i was at the toilet lo.. i mean.. u might not thnk its a big thing but to me, its e lil things that count la.. and that lil action jus told me how much she was a fren even in times when it might be unseen. and she's been awesome in hearing me whine and freak out.. hahahaha sorry ar girl!
hahah alright.. tt's all my brain can take.. =P hahah jus some thots and hey.. to those that are reading and thinking like.. heeey.. doesn't Karina see me as a fren? i DO!! don't be mistaken k? jus tt today i was particularly touched by these people.. and i feel so xin fu that there are so many of you guys out there too..
oh.. and i made it thru the day!! wow!! =) got up at 440am to send my mum to the airport for her holiday.. heh he.. n den went to school fr there.. project meeting n editings.. dance which was awesome as usual. it was so fun.. like such a de-stress activity esp since today's dance was simple.. wif loads of shaking.. wooooo! VERY good for stressed pp.. =)
alright! i MUST do my presentation now! been procrastinating.. gargh!
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YTuesday, March 21, 2006
ytd xuan wan and cheryl(s) were commenting that i blogged alot.. and i was like.. hmm.. really? hahahah well.. maybe i do.. but tt's cuz i'm bored most of the time.. and when i mean bored.. i mean.. bored of doing work.. so i could be typing an essay..like wadi 'm doing now.. and here i'll be.. blogging.. =P i guess its carthartic in a way cuz sometimes when ure thinking u wanna talk to someone abt ur thots but yet u dun trust urself enough to be nice and NOT cranky to the other person u're talking to.. hahaha and plus.. blogging is jus abt blah-ing.. which might be good for loosening up those writers' blocks! heh heh heh.. alright.. now i sound like a spokesperson for blogger.. maybe they shld hired me for something.. heh!
i tink i'll head down to school for lecture after all.. cuz he didn't put the lect notes up.. and i tink i've missed his lectures way too much.. hahaah and i feel bad for pon-tanging so much la.. hahaha guess i'm a guai kia at heart.. but heh.. it wasn't always this way la hor.. -winks at erjie and just and those who knew me in jc- hahahahah
speaking of tpjc, i found my online portal lo! hahah and this is after erjie was surfing hers and when i confessed that i forgot my id and password. hahahh but yeah.. it feels SO nostalgic to be back there.. i mean.. after seeing ivle for so long.. like the same screen.. the pattern and all tt.. its really weird to see tpjc.net again.. hahaha! and i realize tt i've changed.. its like.. i tink now if u give me forum and all sorts of actitivies.. i tink i will join lo.. like wad i do in nus.. last time i think i was more.. erm.. shy?? =)
anyways.. working on media paper now.. child lang.. WAH i was on a roll last nite man.. i didn't mean to type so much.. but after doing the posting and den putting the 'to-do list' on my word.. i jus started looking down and den i thot.. okay.. lemme do the conclusion first since i was supposed to do it anyway.. and den after tt i jus thot.. hmm.. like the conclusion must open up into other further developments ma.. to give a nice wrapped up general feel.. and before you know it.. i was like pulling ideas from rion and hoho's parts - e ones they highlighted and wrote em into a further studies part. then i read dr mad's proj guidelines and saw tt we needed to do limitations.. and i jus thot abt some stuff tt i'd hoped we could change (but sadly not) for our proj and wrote it down lo.. but ya.. i hope they aren't shocked at the sudden amt of stuff tt jus went in.. CUZ its all still incomplete.. need a lot of input still.. must bear in mind that it was done in the wee hrs of the morning.. 2am i tink? hahaha so brain might not hv been working.. hahahah
i jus realize that all my term tests have been done.. and now its jus the projects and presentaitons part.. which is still quite a lot.. but somehow.. now that child lang is almost done.. i'm feeling waaaaay better... and i certainly hope media goes well too.. =P
guess now its more about getting thru deadlines with the best possible work rather than getting the best work done with the best deadline.. hahaah i wonder if it'd make a diff if we were given a super long deadline and we jus did loads and laods of research.. =) heh!
jia u to everybody else who's doing their stuff!!!
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YMonday, March 20, 2006
woohoo! i'm done with my biodiversity test! well.. actually i was done with in by abt 1230pm la.. haha but i just happen to be blogging about it right now.. =) but yeah.. my previous previous post abt my child lang test got wiped out.. somehow.. i jus hope i can still blog and that its not the prob with my blog! i'd be jus soooooooo sad if it was!
anyway..i'm jus glad that the test was manageable.. as in.. i knew most of the questions (i tink most people did) but also that it came out of a weekend when i was tempted to jus buang church and jus study and do work. and it isn't jus church per se.. it would've meant me buang-ing God.. and i jus didn't want to do that.. tho the temptation was SO great.. i mean.. it would've really given me more time.
but that would've meant that i'd hv missed out on the time when me and my net can get together (ALL of em were there on sat.. its jus awesome!) and i'd also have missed out on the opportunity to hear dawn out (tt girl's really impt to me).. plus i'd also hv been left high and dry cuz i'd hv missed out on hearing the lovenotes that God had towards me.. (msg by Jeanne Mayo - she's jus such a real person with a heart for God and for youths). and it'd hv also meant that on sunday, i wouldn't hv been able to say what i wanted to say to the kids in class and see that some of em are jus angels waiting for a chance to be the sweeties they are.. and for dance.. to truly appreciate the frenship/partnership i hv with daphne as well as the rest of the girls who put in so much effort each week (i know you girls try ur best! jia u!) and also i might not have seen esther who i've really missed seeing the past weeks.. -hugs- we really need each other yeah?
so yes.. my week, or rather weekend was cramped.. but hey.. i really feel like God's stretched my time and He's made all these things possible.. the things that really matter were those that happened this weekend.. not that my projects don't.. but honestly.. some things.. u jus can't miss out.. once they're gone.. they're gone forever.. and i'm gonna live on with more fuel in my tank.. with God by my side.. and seeing Him also.. at the finishing line welcoming me.. standing on the sidelines cheering me on.. and just being arn me.. protecting me from any harm, seen and unseen.
i've learnt much this weekend.. =)
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YFriday, March 17, 2006
hahahahha alright.. child test was pretty okay.. somehow i wasn't as stressed as i was for the first test when i jus really 'froze' when i saw the questions.. and i jus wanna thank God for the extra calm that came when i saw the questions. it was like.. i jus resolved not to refer to my notes and jus go along with my sense.. cuz that was how i usually do my data analysis in class =P so hopefully the results speak of the 'ease' with which i did the test ba.. hahaha sometiems it does turn out differently. heh! but if this fails.. literally den well.. 5% la..
somehow... now i'm like seeing tests as jus tests.. but not like some death wish or something la.. =P can take it both ways.. i either kai1 qiao4 le.. OR i'm jus bochup cuz i've got more pressing issues.. hahah but den again.. in a way.. its like i've found a new perspective on things la.. in light of the fact that there are other things that are worth more than tests and grades.. like my net, my ministry, my friends, my family. to value relationships more than things.. yep.. tt phrase really stuck from last week's sermon.. i tink there's a lot of truth in that la..
blog more later.. =) gotta go to class.. heh!
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YWednesday, March 15, 2006
Your Five Factor Personality Profile 
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.The Five Factor Personality Test
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i tink i'm getting stressed le.. haha my memory is failing me and i'm getting more easily pissed. maybe its pms.. but hmm.. i tink i need to slow down.. to not be so rash and to not be so sensitive. -breathes-
i jus thank God that i've really got great project groups. eveyrbody's jus focused and wanting to do well in their tasks. thank God.. really.. i can't imagine if we have any ninjas arn.. i'd prob jus freak out and be more stressed. now its jus whether i can match out to em lo.. like.. sometimes i jus feel like i'm the stumbling block in our discussions..
arrgh...
Karina needs to get back.. don't take what i say to heart k? esp if they're cranky statements. i prob don't mean em.. but they jus slip up.. trying trying to control and keep my selfish self in check. forgive me if i do k? cuz i do appreciate and care for everybody tt's arn me, still.. -hugs-
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YTuesday, March 14, 2006
hahah yes.. i have pontanged yet again.. (hoho i'm really catching on eh? hahah)
but hey.. its for a good reason k? to me at least.. i'm at home trying to do up biodiv research and putting stuff in coherently.. did a bit of child lang this morn too.. i'm thinking that i'll get down to studying for identities test after i'm done wif biodiv.. after sending it to em la.. dunno if can or not wor.. i'm losign confidence in my writing skills.. like macam so limited and so casual like tt.. i tink i'm writing too much for hooked le! arharharhar
speaking of which.. HOOKED is having an interview for pp who wanna join e team.. its at 4pm this Friday and all you gotta do is to write a short commentary/review abt something to showcase your writing la.. so if you interested, come come join.. let me know k? so i can look out for ya! =)
last nite had a nice chat wif him.. HE is SOOO funny la..he's like a furby! hahaha i can jus laugh my head off with the things he says. and i kena suan by him last nite! -gives insulted look- to think that i kena suan by him!? no fair.. he caught me off-guard! but ya.. last nite was nice la.. cuz actually we were supposed to talk on sun.. but somehow his cpt called his bunk pp (platoon/section i dunno) down and he had to go do some presentation stuff la.. haa OCS is really like school lo.. so when i sms-ed him abt me being stressed over school he was like ME TOO.. and i jus went 'ark'. -_-"
i jus thank God for good frens la.. i mean.. i was seriously on the verge of crying in class tt day cuz i jus felt so stupid and unproductive.. and there was Jacob being such an awesome friend. he's so brilliant la.. i jus told him where i ws stuck at and there he went, providing a super good main argument lo! -applauds- and he gave me a good pat on the back. hahaha
and there's cheryl tan and her bf desmond who gave us a lift back home.. and i mean like home home. so there's being blessed for ya! -beams- ytd went pretty alright la actually.. and i realize something.. whenever i'm down.. transport always goes well for me.. it almsot seems like its God's way of telling me: there there.. i'm here.. look here's the bus.. hop on! what a loving Dad. and i have a real loving Dad at home too.. hahah he's been buying snacks home! argh! noo fat! but yeah.. he's either in a peckish mood lately or he jus knows that i'm stressed.. and he keeps on telling me not to sit at the chair for too long cuz if not i will get cramps. hhaha sweet dad.. and mum's great too.. told me that she was alwys there to talk to me if i needed to talk to someone abt what i'm going thru. haa.. think she worried that i loading up on too many things le. =)
i'm so loved.. -beams-
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YSunday, March 12, 2006
alright.. i realize i type too much.. =) so i shall be brief and jus put everything in a digest-like form.. wanted to put Karina's digest.. but tt sounds disgusting.. so i've decided to label it thus.. heh!
ytd n today's service was so good! its like eveyrthing was so relevant to me.. and i got a verse that spoke so clearly to my condition la.. and all i can say is.. well.. God knows everything. and He's really been encouraging me and telling me.. "hey.. don't worry.. I'll carry you thru.. have faith!" and this past week, He's just been awesome.. i can't begin to describe how many meetings i've sat thru this week.. but every day i wake up fresh and ready wif enough energy.. so really praise the Lord! i know that He's e one that's been sustaining me.. -beams-
the verse was this anyway.. Ps19:12-14
Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep you servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then will I be blameless, innocent of great transgressions. May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.
God's word is always good man.. in this few verses alone.. it jus ministered to me thru and thru la.. =) how awesome!
and today's sermon pts.. those that i found really good was this:
3 practices of Wisdom-
a) wisdom practices Lowliness (to know that we're fallible)
b) wisdom does not treasure Things (it treasures relationships)
c) wisdom recognizes True Riches (yup.. its abt knowing the Truth thru and thru)
and worship today jus brought me back to the Cross again.. when i finally saw again that it really is the blood of Jesus that i'm saved.. not anything else. its truly humbling and i guess i really needed that.. i've been depending on my own strenght too much.. when all i need is God and yeah.. it jus is..
dance today was awesome too.. tho i kept messing up my steps.. hahaah cuz its like me an daph jus came up wif em there and then.. as in.. finalizd em la.. =) its really so heartening to see e girls put in their all for this.. proud of em! and talked to dawn (finally!) after such a long while.. and i love that girl! jus wanna be there for her cuz its like.. i can see wad she's going thru and it really reminds me of what i went/am going thru.. so yeah.. today was a good day.. was pretty bubbly and bouncy.. and well.. wad can i say? when u've got His joy.. anything is possible! =)
alright.. shld start on my presentations now.. heh! i'm PON-TANGING biodiv tut TMR!! hahaha so i'm not readign the readgins.. shall do that tmr.. heh.. =)
wheeeeee.. (girl on the loose!)
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YFriday, March 10, 2006
hahah this is so interesting.. erjie and me were typing.. and den we sent the email and guess wad was at the end? my signature! have a look and u'll know.. hahaha
hey! my resume!! edit edit edit edit!!! =)
Wheee~~ The chocolettes is not gd....
Drink more water...
Sleep early....pat pat pat until u sleeeeeeep...
*poke*
u poke me!!!!! -whines and pouts- sleeeeeeeeeeeeep sleeeeeepp ZZzZZzzz
me/us
Karina // Pui Ming
in His steps, in His service
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YThursday, March 09, 2006
... is that i forgot all that i wanted to blog about!! and its irritating cuz i get these great thots and flashes of inspiration (salute to eugene) and den when i'm faced with the screen.. i go blank! gargh! wad's up man.. =P
so i shall bore u guys wif ramblings abt my days.. arhahahrahr.. captive audience.. =)
today's class was good.. i love media,discourse and society.. i jus think its a very me thing to be in that class cuz i tink abt stuff like that all the time! freaky i know.. but i do.. and even when i watch movies i alwys try to analyse why stuff happens and why they portray things in a certain light. like jus now i was at pan's hse (i miss u girl! but i'm so glad to see u so happy!) watching pride and prejudice and oh man.. it was such a nice show.. i had all these ideas coming into my head all at once.. like jus *shooooom shooom shooooom* WOAH
which might explain why i'm pretty selective when it comes to movies.. WHEN i actually do hv e time to watch em. heh heh! =) thing is i barely have time to watch movies until it hits the hols at least..
i tink this week's been another happening week and i look back and i'm wondering.. where did mon, tue and wed go? and here i am.. on thursday evening.. blogging! wah.. talk abt fast man.. time is whizzing by!!
but heh.. at least we got most of our project stuff done yeah? so tt's a relief.. now i jus hv to hum and buzz and work my way thru all my parts/portions.. yay.. shld be fine la hor.. dun hv any ind essays this term.. somehow.. only presentations. .but yeah.. need ideas for that.. need to develop em more fully.. heh heh..
musical is also falling into place.. phew! praise the Lord! pubs meeting last nite wif yi si, joel n shaun was fruitful i would say.. yi si is really a very good leader.. she jus allocated work arn like woah! so cool la.. =) thank God for her.. heh.. and we came up wif this abstract theme on how to make the posters/flyers stuff.. it was so cool la! i almost feel professional.. but yeah.. i know that its really God that's working thru us and in us.. He's been right there beside us at eveyr meeting.. -beams-
oh.. submitted my yale application le.. together wif hostel application for residences.. i figure that i might as well stay one sem.. and since its residence.. its liek thousand bucks plus for one sem? quite alright la.. will prob join loadsa activities if i do stay.. haa.. not sure if i wanna apply for residence asst tho.. i dunno if i can commit or not wor.. -pouts-
did my resume too.. planning to intern wif mediacorp.. so.. well. hopefully they accept me.. haa.. cuz they were looking for pol sci students.. but HEY why jus them rite? if they wanna cover stuff.. sruely they can come from other places ma.. =P but okay..i might be jus hoping too much la.. hahaha i wrote in to this mag too.. so yeah.. u guys can prob tell by now that this hols i really wanna do an internship. haa.. its jus about time la in my opinion..
and hey.. shld i join usc's musical? they doing dance and my fren's been getting me to go for the practs.. shld i? will i jus faint and pass out?? hahahaha think girl.. think.. don't get too carried away... i feel like there's a lot on my plate right now.. but osmehow i know it'll allwork out.. and best part is.. i'm totally gonna enjoy it.. heh heh he..
talking to shaun ong now.. heh! told him that i was considering joing his dance IF i stay in residence next acad yr.. heh he..
jia u! shall compile survey stuff now.. thanks so much guys! =P u guys hv been such a great help and u're are all so encouraging! thank u thank u !! -hugs- love u guys!
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YWednesday, March 08, 2006
... and in fact, i have many.
but this one jus appears to be more salient and persistent in all my experiences. and let me say it now so that all of u can see it and just slap me if i display it too much for my own good or if it pisses you off. heh heh =)
don't worry tho. i'm not depressed or anything la.. jus been in a reflective mood these days when i've got the time and the energy to think abt what i've been doing in the midst of my doing.
alright so here it is.. i realize something. when i'm like really concentrating on something or maybe when i'm like placed in some position of influence i tend to get tyrannical and this is BAD! cuz i do want to be nice to eveyrone and u know.. be a good leader instead of jus being so task-oriented and inhuman. and sometimes i jus get so sarcastic (no doubt its for the laughs) and even critical that sometimes i tink back and i wonder if i was jus too hurtful. cuz i mean if i think back and if pp say such things to me.. i wouldn't like it lo.. so now if i do it to them.. wouldn't it be jus as painful??
hmm..
and the thing is.. i know that i'm in those positions cuz God got me there.. thru His favour and His grace.. and here i am abusing that position.. like i mean.. e fact that i'm in those positions of influence is so that i can shine His light arn.. and glorify Him.. so if i'm not that way.. den.. it jus defeats e purpose eh?
guess its really all abt finding a balance and achieving a real change on the inside. i hope i've gotten better fr last time when i remember my jie commenting that i had this tendency to be too driven. so i'm wondering now.. did i move on from there? during projects, do i talk too much and push my ideas too aggresively? [ps. to those that feel that way abt me.. i'm sorry ar.. i dun mean it wor.. i jus get carried away sometimes] and during meetings.. am i jus neglecting people feelings?
change... God.. help me change from the inside-out.. i wanna be a better person! =)
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YTuesday, March 07, 2006
just felt like having that as the title. and well.. this is one of those rare moments when i get to come online for blogging purposes only. heh heh! and gosh.. i hv a lot to write abt.. tho sadly (to shaun) no pictures.. sorry!! but i jus dun carry a camera arn and the one that i do only has my pictures.. haha now how narcissistic is that?
hip hop nite was a blast! it was so cool.. all the dancers and dances were so hot and i must say.. helping out behind the scenes (being the dressing rm person/stage asst) was pretty nice! cuz i really got to see what stage management is like and it gives me a rough idea of what to expect for our musical this april.. heh heh! but not to mention that i got to at least contribute to blast other than taking up space floundering thru my steps in class.. hahahah! candy n rosanna commented that i was good and tt i shld consider joining the committee.. haa.. i can only say that i was truly flattered. =) i mean.. to have people praise you like that when they barely know u.. its jus nice la.. -blush-
and oh.. speaking of blast.. e cca points computation is out!! and guess wad? i got like 2 demerit points??? hahahahah from blast.. cuz i tink i pon tang den they jus marked down .. haha but the pts are high man.. its like macam eveyr class i go for got points one la.. not bad.. =) and for hooked? participation is like 2 pts la.. but got 5 bonus! prob for every article that i write. hahah so COOL! and it was also nice to see that even tho i heck skating like mad.. i still got one pt for being a member.. haha this says something.. if u join a lot of clubs without really going for em.. you might just get enough pts and a social life that could kill you.. hahah okay.. i added the second part in for laughs.. but yeah.. u might accumulate a pretty decent amt of pts jus by having ur name in there.. =)
super happy anyway looking at my pts.. hahah the record looks nice at least.. at first it was jus hooked and i was like.. hur? i did so lil meh? how come it feels like so much.. so its really nice to jus look at it now and see aaaaahhh.. e fruits of my labour.. heh heh!
these hols are gonna be happening too la.. if everything somehow goes according to plan.. but HEY gotta focus on this sem first!! must jia u all e way loh.. today gonna hv meetings all e way le.. morning: child lang proj, 2-4: class, wait till 6:handbook proj meeting, leave by 7 to travel back to tamp by 830pm: musical meeting with gary n pastor kenny. he heh heh..
speaking of musical.. i feel so glad that eveyrthing's more or less falling into place.. jus that now there's quite a lot of things to pick up.. and its like bits and pieces eveyrwhere la.. heh heh.. but its fine.. God's pulling it all together.. =) wrote the spectacular lyrics that nite.. even tho i was pretty dead den.. but somehow the words jus came and thank God for that! He's really been with me every step of the way.. -hugs- did my NUS-in-Yale essay too.. sounds chim but incoherent so i shall revise it sometime later today or tmr or whenver i can.. picked up the Yale summer programme book and i jsu feel so excited for it! hahah tt's if i get it in the first place la.. sheesh! i gotta stop talking like i'm gonna get it or something.. otherwise i'll jus disappoint myself big time.. hahaha tho it wouldn't hurt to hope and go in faith yeah? heh heh heh.. -blink blink-
still..t here's all the projects and readings that i've gotta do right now.. and eveyrthing'sj us compact.. i had to stop myself fr worrying abt grades this sem.. cuz come to think abt it.. most of my CAs haven't been assessed which means that all hope is not lsot yet.. and i guess i'm jus feeling demoralized over chld lang and letting it cross over into my general psyche.. which is BAD and i dun wan that to happen la.. i know that God's gonna get me thru and this time is really a season of trusting in His faithfulness.. in knowing the purpose that God has placed me here for.. in believing that He will provide what I need.. that i dun hv to worry abt it.. =) aaaahh.. spending time wif Him in the morning is really so good.. sometimes i jus crave those moments when i can turn to the Word and jus read.. cuz every bit of it is from God and it jus brings a lot of comfort to my soul when i read it and i see that hey.. this promise is for me.. its for my life.. if anything.. it brings Hope to the most dire of situations. -beams-
ytd grp meeting for biodiversity was interesting tho.. really getting to know the guys better.. hahah they're a good bunch those ppl.. quirky but nice pp to hang out with.. hahah cuz i'm quirky as well!! =) so hey.. welcome to the club.. hahahahah
now.. i shld read my email and get what dr madalena is trying to say abt our child lang proj. shld get this done before i meet em and before i get flooded with other kinds of stuff.. hahahah! =)
jia u pp! this is the season to really burn out and jus shrivel up from pure lack of sleep.. but don't let that happen! remember to take a short walk or something after stressing over the next assignment u got yeah? no pt fretting over it so much that ur productivity jus goes down.. chill.. drink a milkshake/smoothie/bubble tea and u'll find that ur thots will come back to ya more easily.. like they always say.. there's no time to stress! =) take care guys!!
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YThursday, March 02, 2006
this has become a personal prayer of mine.. =)
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Dear God, I pray for teenagers around the world today. There are so many different cultures, and each faces their own special problems and challenges. I pray for those whose childhoods have been stolen by war, poverty, or abuse. Heal their minds and emotions, please. Bless their souls and fill their spirits with joy and hope. I pray for those who live in fear, that You will rescue them and keep them safe and secure from whatever makes them afraid. Help them feel Your presence and power. I pray for those who live in nice houses, with parents who love them. They too have special needs. I pray that they will not be so sheltered that they cannot function in the world. I pray that they will appreciate what they have, and will make a difference in the lives of other people. I pray they will make the right choices in friends and activities. I pray that all teenagers will have a trusted friend or counselor to talk with and lean on as they go through this ever-changing and stressful period of life. Prepare them, Lord, for their futures. Lead, guide, direct, and protect them from harm and evil. Thank You for caring. Thank You for hearing my prayer. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
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i thought this was good.. esp since for care group, we've been talking abt this an awful lot.. and i feel like its really v impt to connect wif God regularly.. to find our strenght and sometimes our sanity in this crazy crazy world.. =)
Knowing Versus DoingTGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman
I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection.... - Philippians 3:10If I asked you the purpose for which God made you, what might you say? You might give a lot of answers that required some action on your part. However, the simplest answer to that question relates to one primary thing: fellowship. The most important thing God desires from us today is to have a deep and intimate fellowship with each of us.
The apostle Paul said he wanted to know Christ, and by knowing Christ he could experience the power of His resurrection. I find this to be the hardest thing for many of us workplace believers to do. So often it is much easier to be busy with the urgent (or even Christian) activity than spending quiet moments before the Lord. Before we realize it, days have passed since our last quiet time with Jesus.
Jesus understood how important quiet moments were with the Father. "After He had dismissed them, He went up on a mountainside by Himself to pray. When evening came, He was there alone" (Mt. 14:23). The more mature I become in my relationship with the Lord, the more precious this time becomes to me. It is a time I look forward to almost daily. It offers me a time to reflect, to share my concerns with my Lord, and to hear Him speak. In the last few years I have begun prayer walks, which accomplish three things: fellowship, prayer, and exercise. It has changed my prayer life. I have come to understand that Jesus views us as His friend and He wants to spend time with us. We are depriving Him of His time when we put Him aside for the urgent. An interesting thing happens when we make prayer a priority: Urgent things seem to wane as we focus on Him. He makes all these other things fall into place.
Are you taking the time to get to know Him today?
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YWednesday, March 01, 2006
heh! i realize something.. i'm a morning blogger.. as in.. i dun blog at nite no more.. unless i got no time in e morn or too much time at nite. but hey.. i like mornings.. i've always insisted tt im a morning person.. i'm jus more productive then..
listening to planetshakers' All that I Want now.. and oh man.. they're really such an anointed band.. its like i can listen to em and every word that they sing is almost as if its my song back to God. and it really really brings me back to that point of worship with Him.. when i'm truly surrendering and giving my life back.. giving my all. it almosts 'magically' transports me back to that point of time during synergiz when i was jus so soaked up in God's Word, in His worship.. in His presence. and it jus feels wow... i dun ever wanna stay away from God.. no never!
in fact, Gary was jus talking abt this last nite.. that when we're so busy.. sometimes all we need is some quality time wif God.. and i can testify to this man.. tt when God speaks in tired and troubled times.. its really such a light in the darkness and all of a sudden you get new strength to carry on. like u jus know that He's right there wif ya.. and it jus gives you confidence to tread on ahead where He's also there preparing the place where u'll go..
wow...
was jus thinking a day or two back... whad would i be like if i didn't hv God in my life.. seriously? would i still be the same person i am now? hmmm... certainly gives me something to reflect on =)
*met up wif just and erjie ytd.. so happy! =) finally ge tto see em.. i realize that i haven't seem em both for like e longest time.. miss u guys.. those at swaps =)
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