YTuesday, July 25, 2006
title: the feeling of finishing an article
aaaahh.. never thot i'd say this.. but i'm pretty glad that i'm finally done wif the article tt's WAY overdue for the interview with one of the teams that's in Reel Revolution.. heh! now all i hv to do is head on down to office tmr (yes! i'm coming back!) to optimised the pics and put em in.. n we're good to go! whee heee heee..
hv been feeling so unproductive of late.. its like i'm seeing all my work and responsibilities pile up and i'm not doing anything abt it.. sighs..
thankfully most pp understand ba.. but i guess sometimes its inevitable that pp would get disappointed with the fact that u can't be there at that point of time and that sometimes ur time is jus so stretched tt u can't fit anything in?
and interesting thing was tt jus on sat nite i was tellin gmy sis that i wished i had more time to fit in everything.. cuz everything matters to me. and guess wad.. at svc the next day, the speaker was talking abt 'time'. well, more specifically he talked abt being able to discern the times the the Lord has for us.. but his wife shared a testimony and it was about 'saving our time' for God.. and i jus got me thinking la.. so heh.. not done processing everything.. so maybe next time someting on this will pop up ba.. heh!
anyways.. glad tt i'm feeling way better.. it certainly is really BAD to be sick.. urgh! never want to be sick like this ever again!
-stomach growls- hungrrrrrry! :)
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title: preallocation results are out!
and yaaaaay.. i got both my 3000 mods.. wheee! now jus hv to bid for the other 3 lo.. and best of all is that the WE girls are all gonna be taking CDA together! i mean.. how cool is that la? i love being arn these girls and yeah.. i hope they'll be in more of my classes! hahahah
was mentioning to erjie n fiane.. tt somehow now tt i'm going on to yr 3, i jus dun feel like hopping up to pp and getting to know em all the time la.. hahaha call it laziness but ya.. i jus feel like slacking and resting on wad i have alr.. hahaha
but eh.. i'll never know what God has in store for me ya? last nite at 4am (couldn't sleep till 6am++) was jus praying that as i move into RVR, tt i'll hv good neighbours and tt i'll be able to serve and minister those that are arn me ba.. cuz i know that God has given me this room for a purpose ba.. esp with the timing of things.. its jus too 'coincidental' to be a fluke at all la.
so now i'm jus praying tt i'll still be able to function well living on campus.. since i'm super used to working at home wif my cushions and bed and all.. in a room on ur own.. things are pretty different eh? and i wonder if i'll be able to sleep my first week there.. =) but ahhh.. giving all em worries to God! cuz i know He'll take care of it! =) so i shall jus be a happy student. was jus telling my mummy last nite tt i'm getting all excited for school and the stuff i'll be doing! heee..
living on campus will definitely be super different la.. but i know.. i must be careful not to overload myself wif stuff as i sometimes do.. but i'm really looking at joining VCF ar.. if my schedule allows for it. cuz i won't be able to go for care group le.. and i wanna grow in my role at school too..
wheeeee.. excited! can't imagine myself in a lecture theatre all over again suddenly.. its been office and dance studios for waaaay too long this hols =) haa.. and oh oh oh.. who wants to go on a YEP to Cambodia??? its this december! =) i wan go.. but i do hope against all hope that my parents will allow me to.. they're really protective abt these things which sometimes irks me to no end.. but yet i do see they're point la.. heh.. shoooo.. guess i'll jus hv to think things thru ba..
getting better! shld be able to get back to work tmr! wheeeeee =) jus hope i dun pass on my germs to anybody.. wouldn't want anybody to feel the way i feel.. which explains why i didn't want josh to come too close to me.. cuz i dun wanna pass to him.
and alright.. some much needed updates for those who are not in the know alr:
1. i've dyed my hair black and i've gotten a new kinda fringe. heh! mummy couldn't stand her daughter being a paul twohill lookalike.. haa.. no offence to him la.. but ya.. jus a mother's instinct to snip snip snip!
2. me and josh are officially together. and well.. jus hv been keeping it low-key cuz personally.. its a lil hard to grow into.. being a swinging single for so long.. heh! and we were jus having this conversation jus now abt learning to love lo.. and yep.. im working thru tt too.. i suspect that i need to learn to love freely after getting rid of some garbage in my life. so yep.. this is certainly gonna be a season of growth. and hey.. if we both dun grow.. den someting's wrong eh? so yeap.. we're starting off slow.. =)
alright.. now only those who read my blog will know this.. an di tink the youth at church have been suspecting tt something was going on ever since i brought him to church tt day.. hahah =) so there u have it den.. hahah but its not like i wanna holler it all out la.. haaa
okies.. gotta get some work done now
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YMonday, July 24, 2006
title: swaps farewell gathering
so saturday was the day when we all kinda said goodbye to swaps, with all the other generations gathered in one place aka Chris' house. too bad i had to leave earlier cuz if i'm not wrong they had a ribbon ceremony thing after the multiple photos we had to take. and i must say.. i tink Chris' mum is really really funky and savvy at the same time.. haha! but i guess tt's wad u gotta be when u hv 4 boys and a girl for children. hahahah =)
amidst all the advertisment abt who wants to marry chris or his brothers or his sister, well.. it was a good reunion =) and we watched all the old videos and heh! they're all still very funny.. hahah timeless if u will.
it was sooooo nice to see everybody again.. i tink i've really been too cut off from my frens lo this hols.. cuz i mean.. workign jus gives u that much time in the night to meet frens adn wad wif dance practs on mon, thu and fridays.. tt doesn't give u much time to play with.. heh! so ya... i really missed everybody.. super long never see em le.. and its like.. even tho i saw em at camp or sometime recent.. tt jus doesn't count la.. i mean.. seeing pp doesn't mean u connect wif em and neither does it count as 'meeting' em.. so yeaah.. sat was a great time to do tt =)
oh oh.. the hornies were the biggest og there from swaps quest! WOOHOO! we rock man! =) and so we managed to take pretty much a good og pic tog la.. freshies.. abt 4 of us were there.. facis.. i tink most of em were arn.. hee! so yaaaaay... and i tink we all took so many photos tt nite tt i'm almost blinded by the flashes.. hahahah
anyways was a good time.. despite me feeling faint and lightheaded half my time there.. hahah i guess good company really brings u up cuz i tink i left there feelign waaaay better =) heh heh!
so here's to you SWAPS and my fellow swappies!! hahahhhaah
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awww.. u guys are all so sweet =) i tink i'm very very blessed to be surrounded by awesome pp like u all (meaning all those reading my blog la) seriously man..
to cheray: yesh.. i'll agree that part 2 is a lil disappointing and a tad too long. my fren was SO bored by the show she actually sat there with her head down like half the time? hahah =) poor girl.. i realize that u really need to watch the first part in order to fully get the show. and even when u do tt.. heh.. i guess maybe its jus me.. i reeeaaallly dunno who's e vanilla guy tt's after their arrest? was he in the first part? does he have anything to do wif the show at all? -scratch head- but oh well.. i like the general direction which the movie is taking tho.. we jus need to wait for part 3 to come out!! woohoooo!
to hoho: thank u babe!! -hugs- me feeling way better lo.. tho ytd was reaaly bad.. read below for more details =P
to .nessa: miss u too! i wished we culd've met up this hols.. but apparently.. it hasn't been very possible.. -pouts-
alright.. haa.. jus decided to post all the replies here cuz i dun wanna push the comments down with all of mine.. haha i'll sound/look very narcissistic if i do.. wahahah!
anyways.. ytd finally went to see the doc. yep, after everybody in the entire world has been nagging me to do so. and boy am i glad i did.. in fact by the end of the day on sunday i was jus WANTING so badly to go to the docs. my head was jus burning up, looking flushed and all. and i jus had to put my hands to my face jus to keep it that lil bit cooler. but yep.. according to the doc, my temperature last nite was like 40 degrees.. which is super record breaker for me la.. i never reach so high before.. hahaha! and i'll admit, i was this close to freaking out about losing my brain because it'd get burnt out or being forced to take a cold shower which would jus 'kill' me la.. bleahs..
and the wait for the doc was really long.. i tink it took abt 1 hr plus.. and phew.. thank God that i could get back on my own.. my mummy was so sweet.. she told me to go back first to rest cuz she still had to go buy dinner for me adn she didn't wan me waiting outside for so long ba.. and yesh.. thank God for His protection that groggy as i was from the headache and the fever, yep, didn't faint or fall or wad..
thank God for awesome pp like ian, dawn and jemima.. they were so sweet the entire day lo.. taking care of me and all. hahah ian was so worried that i'll jus topple over when i walk from church to the bus stop that he was insisting that he carry my bag.. but heh.. i jus refused tt la.. cuz i tink i still can tahan :) and je said she'd walk w me to the bus stop cuz i mean its on the way for her too la .. blessed! and dawn was jus awesome ytd. cuz i was supposed to be teaching in the morn but i jus really cannot so i emergency call dawn and asked her to help me 'many many much' and this girl is a gem i tell u.. she jus rose to the occasion and said okay! and even tho we didn't need to teach in the end (e original teacher could make it) i jus feel like i'm living off His grace and its thru these pp that i really see it =)
really thank God for esther chan too.. cuz was supposed to be on evening svc duty.. but i really cannot make it la as u guys alr know.. and this girl is like superwoman.. she also need all e rest she can get and yet she told me to go back and rest cuz she'll handle the entire prog on her own.. -hugs- thank u SO much babe! it really made such a difference.. =)
and of cuz there's the best fren - pan pan whom i met to pass xue's present (her bday gathering was ytd but of cuz i couldn't go too.. sad) and she was alr wif josh who was there waiting for me to send me home and to a doc. the two of em jus escorted me.. literally cuz it was one on each side to the nearest clinic.. but the clinic jus nice closed le.. so i decided.. jus go home ba.. cuz at least got bed.. got comfy setting to rest.. yep..
wheeee later josh is coming over.. heh! buying dinner =) and he's talking to my mum! haha the both of em actually arranged this tog lo.. hhahaha dots.. -beams-
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YFriday, July 21, 2006
my speakers are officially wrecked... now when i play music everything comes out all fuzzy and zzaaaarzaaaar.. if u get wad i mean.. oh sigh.. must've been from tt day when we were blasting music for the kids.. but den again.. this lappie of mine is on to its third year alr.. so yeap..it has served me well.. -gives it a pat-
anyways, not at work cuz i felt terrible again. gosh.. i can't even remember e last time i felt this way (ytd isn't counted). usually i'd jus come down wif some fever and den by the next day i'm all okay.. but today when i woke up..man.. i jus felt like puking.. but didn't la.. phew.. puking is terrible business.. and jus no appetite la.. tho i'll admit tt ytd i tink i overshot my capacity a bit cuz i jus wanted to eat but i dunno wad to eat also.. and darn.. now i hv an ulcer on my lip.. PAIN! -whines-
another sad thing.. my 'Little Mermaid' dvd can't work!!! nooooooooo... now my only memory of little mermaid is really my memory.. sigh sigh sigh.. jus when i felt like watching it ytd too!
ar well.. guess if its any consolation.. i'm gonna watch pirates of the caribbean tonite! wheeheehee.. and i dun hv to rush down fr work .. =) so yay to that! BUT i'm aware of the growing pile of work that is left undone tt needs to be done.. darn!! oh well.. its back to work for me den.. and yippeee.. pay is IN! -hums money money money..-
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YThursday, July 20, 2006
gosh.. i'm so glad i'm home right now.. i really feel bad jus waking up today. like there's this big headachey feeling in my head and my eyes are still burning (too much comp?) and i just feel achey all over.. sigh.. but ya.. glad i got the day off and won't be going for dance later.. i tink the previous week is catching up wif my body lo.. hahaha
was trying to decided whether how i felt ytd was due to wad happened on tues nite following wed morn or was it due to pms + the actual thing. heh! i tink it was a combi of both.. but i'm so so so glad that i went thru that tough period. i tink God really showed me a lot of things about myself that only He can show.. cuz sometimes pp can put on a facade that implies everything is alright but actually underneath all that.. a storm is brewing and well.. you might jus being working yourself up in tangles.. internally.
so yeah.. i'm so so glad that God showed me that side of me and that He disciplines those He loves (this verse popped into my head while i was showering.. heh!) and now on hindsight after looking at things come full circle i really see the reason why i was feeling the way i felt or why i was doing certain things.. and all i can say is that His Grace is something that is so so so real and so precious and very BIG part of God. i realize that i've been trying to live my life apart from grace and jus falling into legalism. such that when i have the 'fear of the Lord' (which is the beginning of wisdom).. its actually cuz of the fear of Man! and oh man.. it really takes someone like God to show you that.. and also it was really a test of where my treasure was.. cuz where your treasure is, there your heart is too. so yep.. i know God pulled me thru that difficult time (even tho now looking back i dun get why i was upset.. but now i kno wthat it was a refining process and discovery of what was in my heart.. and ofcuz.. its painful) and yep.. this is the verse that kept coming to me.. 'i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me Phil 4:13' yep yep! somehow it jus kept popping up..
and was at worship svc on sunday.. wah! super super awesome.. and i tink God is really revealing to me and answering my question abt what on earth am i here for... like i mean.. i know the usual 'stuff' but i guess i was jus really seeking for something mroe specific.. like how do i fit into His big plan. and interestingly.. the first answers i got was.. 'you gotta first lay down your pride' and i'll confess.. pride is a big issue in my life (the thorn in my flesh i'd say..jus like how Paul had his thorn too) and yeah.. so tt was wad i got when i first asked God.. and den recently as i was worshipping on sunday i jus felt God tell me.. 'you know.. i made you a woman, to be eve, for a reason - don't despise that' (note: wasn't the super solid words coming out la, but jus a general impression) and so i jus knew that God wanted me to learn how to be vulnerable and to jus let Him be my stronghold, my protector and my guard. so yep.. i jus couldn't help sobbing therea nd then as He healed that bit of my soul. yep yep..
in short, these past few days (when i've been real quiet over the blogosphere) from mon till today were days when i was jus being exposed to my real self i think.. and i've been thinking and praying quite a bit.. an di realize this.. in all situations.. really Praise the LORD! i mean.. somehow i jus felt led to do that ytd as i was feeling bad and all.. and woah.. lifting His name really brings strenght to you and in the situation itself.. yep!
i tink God is an awesome God!! praise You! thank you for everythign.. i'm so so so glad i had to go thru wad i went thru.. thankyou for beign faithful enough to answer my prayers.. thank you!!
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YThursday, July 13, 2006
title: having my bitter blueberry chocolate cheese fudge cake and eating it!
woohoo! wondering why the cake has such an odd/long name? ha.. its actually 2 cake names combined la.. bitter chocolate fudge cake and blueberry cheese cake from cafe cartel! both me n josh thot of e name tog.. and i decided to scramble everything tog so that there is this max effect of 'huh-ness' to the name. hahaha alright i know.. nerd moment..
i'm still feeling full from last nite's dinner. and wad was itneresting was that for once.. we were both out on a date with each other! hahaha yes.. we have been going out.. but it was never a date date kinda thign.. if u know wad i mean? most of it was pretty much out of necessity and informal casual outings or if not its out with groups of frens..
but last nite was really jus e two of us la.. so it was pretty interesting! haha and i prob wouldn't hv realized the shift in the nature of the outing till he told me over sms last nite. heh! and best part is.. its legal so to speak.. haha cuz everybody tt needs to know, knows we're officially on this page of our lives. heh! so yeah.. tt makes things all the more easier and we can both breathe easy. wahahah
so we met and went to swensons to eat.. wahaha! and i'm super hapy cuz its like my first REAL dinner in days! perhaps 2 weeks even! prior to this i've jus been dancing and reaching home at 12 every nite and making muffins and bread my meals instead of proper sit down ones. they've been on-the-go meals. so can u imagine my enthusiasm when i declared tt i needed.. yep needed to eat at a sitdown place? haaha i felt so deprived can? =) and boy oh boy.. i loved being at swensons for that very fact adn of cuz.. because of the company i'm in.. heh heh!
anyways i recommend this new main course - almond crusted lamb chop!! SUPER NICE! the almonds really complemented the taste of the lamb and the sauce they provided was soooo unique.. it was peppermint leaves with some kinda lime-tasting stuff.. and it was sooooo soooo nice! go and try k next time u're there!! the lamb chop was pretty well done too! tho had a bit too much fat for my liking.. heh! oh oh.. we had deep-fried mushrooms too.. yum-MIE! he had ribeye steak.. which according to him.. wasn't done e way he liked it.. so oh well.. steaks i tink best is phins la so far.. =)
i was feeling like a pig.. so he was saying.. round 2 later ya? and i went OKAY! he actually felt like eating dim sum.. but i was craving for auntie ann's (in the end i didn't eat it) and i thot that i wouldn't be able to stomach everything.. so.. heh.. sorry dude! i tink i deprive u of a lot of food jus cuz i can't eat alot.. but i'm GREEDY!!
so we jus walked arn until the food from dinner got digested.. heh! and deeeen.. we went to cartel! where he met his sir! wahahahahah and the 2 guys were jus peeping at each other la.. cuz they're both out wif girls and i tink its jus a guy thing to check out wad e other guy is doing? sigh.. guys...
and tt's where we got our cakes lo.. half price! (i know i v auntie but its really really so much cheaper!) also despite eating the bitter fudge cake like a gazillion times (alrite.. actually jus 2 times) i jsu realized tt it had a tiny bit of rum in it.. no wonder it tasted so good.. haa.. adn he was the one tt picked it up.. interesting eh? i tink it takes someone who knows the taste of alcohol enough to identify stuff like this.. i def can't.. not on first taste anyway.. but den again.. its prob me.. cuz i jus eat no questions asked. which is prob dangerous cuz if things are poisoned.. den.. too bad for me lo. haa..
can u believe it tho.. even before we started on our cakes i was like.. can we go carl's jr? cuz i was CRAVING for fried food.. i haven had em in ages! (i'm so deprived rite?) but heh.. of cuz.. after everything and given my puny stomach capacity (darn!) we had to go for a walk and give carl's a miss.. i'd wanted to get the onion rings.. heh! so off we went to the esplanade and engaged in a very itneresting conversation abt giants (they're real! remember goliath?) and how they came about. very very interesting... ask us some day..
explored a diff part of the esplanade area.. tt i never knew existed.. cuz i realized there and then that i've always walked int eh same direction ALL the time without even registering that there is a left to a right. haa.. interesting phrase eh?
and i can't remembern ow.. but i made a reference to the fact taht it might be a full moon tonite (i tink josh was being a lil crazy.. hahah! so funny!) and guess wad.. its REALLY WAS A FULL moon! and so i stayed a lil further away cuz he was gonna turn into a chiko-wolf.. hahahaha! joking la.. it was a fun nite together.. and the stars were out.. super super nice! can't believe i used to know wad stars were which when i was doing my stars module.. sigh.. nwo everything's jus disappeared into the black hole (if i might continue in the same vein).
honestly tho it felt good to be not dancing at nite for once. its like since last week i've been at dance 8 days outof 9. and it was for the MINDS performance i had earlier in the day (wed) plus DR la. i dun mind practs but sometimes it gets to u la.. hahah so it was reeaaal nice tt i got to spend it with him anyways since we didn't really get to meet up and talk the whole of last week.. as in those kinda quality time thing.. brief meet-ups have but ya.. different ma..
anyways for the performance.. it was pretty alright la.. i wouldn't say i danced it the best that i could cuz i was kinda distracted by the clapping and the crowd. but the kids were so adorable! they were down syndrome kids and it really really helps that i work with kids at church so when i was there it felt pretty normal la. was being my usual crazy and silly self so the kids were laughing at my antics a whole lot more. haha and they were really interested in hiphop la.. haha! some of em can BREAK DANCE LEH!! my goodness.. i can't even do a babyfreeze! tho i'm working on it!
realize that for dance.. if u dun perform enough.. u lose that kinda flavour for performing.. like u jus dun get it as easily as u used to adn u're jus not used to performing la.. period. so yep.. ytd was an eye-opener.. was good exposure and a ncie thing to hv after having a performance break of like.. wad.. 2 or 3 years? church productions not counted la.. hahaha! tt one the steps all super super simple one.. hahaha..
oh oh.. and esther jus contacted me last ntie regarding choreo-ing for dinner and dance at her hospital. i'm wondernig if i shld go for it.. i a bit scared i'll stretch myself too thin tho.. i mean.. third year alr.. and i'm getting heavier modules.. maybe its wiser to give it a miss and jus conc on whad i hv on my plate.. hmm.. yes.. i shall do tt..
finally back at the office.. i think i really clock very little hrs at the office this week.. i tink i'll consider ytd a day off or something la.. unless i can work out a halfday replacement thingie.. which means that i cannot take halfday lo.. unless i do somemore events on sat.. heh! but interestingly.. i can miss coming to work eh.. its prob e environment and jus the routine of it all.. that makes it so appealingly easy.. heh! i miss travelling back to home direct from work now tt i've got dance practs.. i feel like its such a luxury to be able to get back early too.. and i love my mummy! i tink she really gave up a lot for me and my sis... =) will blog abt this later/next time.. too much to say lo.. hahah..
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YTuesday, July 11, 2006
i'm now wondering if i should do another elang 4000 mod instead of the cnm one.. cuz the lecture is much later whereas for the elang one its earlier la.. so i dun hv to rush for dance or something.. hmm.. how ar...
anyways asked more abt hostel stuff.. there are SO many misc fees involved! gaaaarrgh! but heh.. excited still tt i can stay there.. actually iw as thinking of backing out a few days ago cuz i was tinking of my tues care group.. if i stay on campus.. i won't be able to get back for care group lo.. so.. hmm.. gotta work something out ba.. but ya.. decided to stay in the end due to some circumstances will i can only say next time when it happens la..ya..
meanwhile.. i'm looking at what i need to bring on campus to make my stay there a super comfy one.. wahahah was looking at my list on the way back from dance (i reached home at 12!!! gosh!) and its a WHOLE lot of stuff! arrrrgh.. hahaha but well.. for the sake of comfort and 'home'. really wondering how life will be like there.. certainly hope i can study well.. hahah
which brings my mind to something.. shld i do 6 mods? i'm very very tempted to do tt lo.. arrrgh.. but its prob suicide.. i'm jus prob feeling the itch of being away from school too long lo.. hahaha and i'm also wondering abt my ecas.. i wanna do somethign tt is.. well..not a whim or fancy.. but something tt matters.. and i guess i've jus been thinking abt e future quite a bit.. heh! and i wan my choices to be the choices that God wants for me.. something tt would please Him.. yeah.. those that have eternal purposes guiding em.. =)
its gonna be one exciting sem/acad yr!
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YFriday, July 07, 2006
yays!! julian's buying subway back! -rejoices-
and i jus realized i didn't blog abt my Tuesday nite/Wed early morning and Wednesday schedule. let me describe it in brief..
after work on tues i headed down to school where i was matchmaker for the nite so SP games at camp and deni was frightnite cam lady.. hahah freaky but i realize nus is really not tt spooky after all. and den ended my day at 5am where i slept over AND did not bathe AND did not hv a toothbrush for washing up the next day.. so i improv-ed told u i was low-maintenance.. heh! shall nto let u guys in to how i managed it other u'd be all grossed out.. ask me personally.. hahah.. thank God for the bed tt erjie gave up for em (i bunked in with em). woke up at 855am e next 4 hours and went for dance at 10am when i flounced arn thru my steps. went back with the intention to sleepand den go for cm meeting.. no way.. talked to my sis abt her wedding plans all afternoon and decided tt i really wasn't much good going for meeting and slept at 8pm instead.. woke up at 815pm the next morn wanting more sleep but heh! had to work.. and i was glad to do tt actually.. hahah i like work! =) thank God He placed me somewhere i love being in. -big hugs to Daddy- and oh yes.. thank God for a great boss like julian cuz he gave me the whole day off (half was for renovations and the other half i claim la) but still.. heh! thanks jul!! i really needed tt day off.. and sorry for not doing the news.. heh! miscomm miscomm..
alright. not exactly brief.. but at lesat in a para.. ahhaha! alright back to work..
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brrrrr!! freezing in my seat right here in office.. and somebody has jus stuck the dial for the temperature thingie with masking tape.. a notice to those who wan to adjust it that they SHOULDN'T cuz when it does get adjusted to a warmer temp.. those on the other side are in tropical paradise.
hahah gosh..w as tt sarcasm from me? hahaha i am grumpy girl today after all. been tired out wif all the late nights and dance practices.. and wad can i say? i feel slow for my dances and i wish i could keep up. i know i can.. but its jus.. not working out somehow.. nevermind.. i will persevere!! and i tink i've jus about got the steps right in my mind.. somehow i'm those kind tt hv to internalize the steps in my head before i can execute it properly.. if not i'll jus trip up over every step. and seeing the steps in my mind's eye also means tt i tend to retain steps long after eveyrbody has forgotten em.. heh! good rite? but not when u're serioulsy straining to finish dances.. hahahah which is wad is happening now.. soo oh well.. God help us!! =)
but i realized today that i've been wearing lenses to the office and honestly now tt i've been wearing em for a week alr.. it ain't too hard to switch back to em again.. heh he! maybe i shld ar? new look or something.. heh!
most of the interns aren't arn today.. in fact i tink i'm e only one.. -gasp- fiane's gone off to find some books for alvin.. andrea's taking the day off since she's out for a dental apptment in the morn.. alanna's coming in the afternoon.. and ivy's graduating (SO COOL!)
sat's finally worked out.. kinda.. gonna go for event in the morn.. den net den edge ba.. for val's bday party i not sure whether i wanna go now eh.. somehow i jus dun feel v myself arn e dance pp.. maybe its cuz they speak a whole lot more chinese than me? or maybe its jus cuz they're hmm.. different? hahah but they'er nice la the whole lot of em.. =) i do enjoy their company.. and perhaps maybe its my low-self-esteem kicking in when i'm with em.. heh! somehow i feel inadequate when i'm there.. but i jus realized.. after reading primetime with God.. tt its prob cuz i'm pegging my worth with the way i look or dance.. and cuz i feel like i've failed in those areas arn em.. i jus sink.. so i shall say it here.. that the Lord is my Rock and my Salvation.. and in Him i will put my Trust and my Life! =) yep yep.. gonna centralize Him back in my life again.
last nite wasn't feeling too well and as a rsult kinda 'snarled' at my mummy and sis who were the absolute sweetest! my tummy was giving me problems since the afternoon (prob ate somethign wrong) and i didn't eat dinner before dance as usual but had a bit of a sharp pain in my belly on the way home.. prob cuz too hungry le.. but when i got home.. there was no proper food per se la.. and i jus didn't feel like eating anything.. so i jus snacked and mummy gave me half a curry puff while i ate pineapple tarts and some caramel corn snack. bleaaaah.. and this morning didn't feel like eating also tho i'm actually hungry.. so .. ya.. blaah would be the word to describe how i'm feeling right now.
dunno how dance is gonna work out later ar.. cuz they meeting at 6 but i finish work at 6 or 530 earliest and to get to nus from here is 1hr30mins.. so earliest is seriously 7pm lo.. but 7pm joo teng has to go for his DR pract wif calvin.. hmmmm.. so how now brown cow?
oh oh .. i'm item ic for my DR item.. heh! so i get to sms e girls la.. which is cool by me.. i tink i actually like doing stuff like this.. ahahah jus like how i enjoy planing my sister's wedding wif her.. =) i feel so proud of us! we actually managed to work out a whole lot of detail and timeline stuff.. so wheeeee..
hmm.. when's lunchtime? honestly i dun feel like eating.. but i know i hv to la.. ar well.. eat to live!
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YTuesday, July 04, 2006
i jus told e guys at Youth.SG that i feel like i can't run away from Joomla (the web uploading tool we use at youth.sg and hooked) CUZ when i'm in the office.. i need it to upload the news, articles and do all sorts of crazy stuff wif it.. and when i'm back home.. i'm a 'hooker' and i painfully upload articles onto the system which is CRAZILY slow.. note the change in the postion of the adjective lexeme 'crazy' as well as its form.
alright.. i know.. elang stuff.. well.. going on to higher level next sem le.. must practice and put my elang brain to use.
anyways yes.. so i feel like a full-time writer cuz if i'm not at work uploading articles, i'm at home doing it.. hahaha! not tt i mind.. i jus mind the slowness of it all.. esp with hooked.. but oh wellll...
was telling andrea that i actually like coming to work. cuz interestingly.. i can get up at 8am and still reach work on time. at the event ytd however.. i was up at like.. 7? gosh.. i almost decided to just buang the whole thing la.. BUT.. i'm so glad i didn't.. and this is why..
i had SUCH AN AWESOME TIME!
alright.. first miracle that happened was tt shaun ong was there too! so wad i predicted to be a lonely day (at least at the beginning) turned out nice cuz there was somebody there that i knew.. and interestingly.. shaun didn't know his sis and cousin were gonna turn up too and they were both there as well!
den we played some ice-breaker games and we got into groups of 14.. jus a random mix.. and boy.i love my group. so what if i'm one of the post-jc pp there.. so what if i'm turning 21.. these kids were great fun! and i met eileen and michael.. pp my age.. who were in nus (eileen) and going to nus - the dude. heh! they commented abt how i seemed to fit in with the rest of the group aka the jc students.. and it suddenly jus dawned on me how un-natural it might've seemed tho to me it jus seemed reeeaaally natural to be friends w em.. and i tink its really God's favour tt's resting on me la.. =) and i tink a few of em were kinda surprised tt i was tt much older than em.. heh! the shock on their faces when i told em that i was from nus and tt i was actually writing abt e event.. hahah classic i tell ya..
but yeah.. had loads of fun learning the jive.. bhangra.. and later on teaching the kids. this girl iw as paired up with was really into learning the dance so tt made it easier for me to teach her la.. but honestly it was my first experience teaching kids dance and it was nice!! =) thank God i teach at cw and kb.. if not ar.. hahahaha so yaa.. was super super nice.. will show u guys e dance one day! hahaahhaah we danced to the 'chori chori' indian song! haha
and i'm beginning to see how dance ministry could kick off for children and at church wif the youth. hmmmm...
speaking of which the past few days have jus been divinely arranged i tell u. i went over to chc on sat and the msg was abt pressing on for your vision (something tt God gives) and den i go over to my side on sunday.. and guess wad was the msg.. VISION! OH MY gosh?! God is trying to tel me something man.. i jus know it.. n den i open my mailbox an di see primetime with God emails all focusing and relating to the same matter. and soo.. i've decided to realy jus take time to ask God for a vision. as in.. what He wants me to do with my life. Cuz if anything i know He's callin gme to focus.. and so now i'm asking.. focus on what? where does He want me to go in life? what can i do with this education that i'm blessed with that would extend His kingdom and fulfill the great commission.. so yeaah.. questions questions adn more questions.. stuff tt only He can answer. so yep.. i'm praying abt it.. and waiting on Him for those answers.. i believe that He'll come thru.. =)
u're prob wondering now.. soooo where does the full-time dancer part come in rite? well.. it seems random now i know.. but ytd i danced the whole day away.. literally! cuz int eh morn we had the training workshops.. and in the afternoon dance with th ekids.. and after that.. i headed down to nus for DR practs.. GOSH.. when i came home i looked so tired my mum actually asked me if i was alright.. haa.. but i was well.. jus tired.. guess i needed the food too la.. had half a subway cookie b4 dance and later at nite like 1130pm had chinchow.. hahaha but tt's me la.. i jsu dun like to eat heavily before i dance.. so i guess heh! i'm clearing my food debt nwo.. since i had a really full breakfast and lunch but i've been hungry since 4pm!! eeeek.. so hungry till i had to snack on ivy's milo cereal..
but den agani.. everybody in the office is especially hungry today.. haahha maybe its jus tuesday la.. heh!
going down to nus later to help out in psychone!!!! yaaaay.. i can see everybody and make fun of all the freshies!! tok tok is gonna be there too!! WHEEEE
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WE.. for elang i'm taking these mods.. (since u guys are all telling me i shld do my part and relay my portion of the msg):
1. interactional discouse
2. critical discourse analysis
3. semantics and pragmatics
rion:
research workshop
language, ideology and power (i want take!! but prob next yr)
interactional discourse
english as a world language (wanted to.. but yaa.. next yr..)
cheryl ho:
1. CDA
2. phonetics/phonology
3. unidentified from her timetable.. hahaha! sorry babe.. haven memorise the codes yet.. wahahah
=) wheee.. let us all know wad u all taking k? den we see where we can partner up!
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