Love, or Pride?

title: beautiful

today's been such a beautiful day. i wake up and i see the clear blue skies, swept and washed clean by the rain the day before. the scent in the air is gentle, wafting through my windows. i couldn't help but jus take a deeeeep breathe before heading off to wash up and then class.

and even as i was walking to the bus stop.. eveyrthing was jus so beautiful. it didn't jus look beautiful.. it felt beautiful. the wind passed me by, bringing with it the fragrance of the green about me with a hint of rain.

later as i walked back from arts to my hostel, a delicious coolness jus rippled thru the place. and i took a good look at the ferns and trees that i was walking past. beautiful...

just the way God intended it to be

it's really so amazing.. nature and beauty is just something that makes you want to embrace and give a murmur of appreciation...

thank You...for creating all these...the Author of Life...Love

gosh.. it's been such a beautiful day :)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/26/2006 06:53:00 PM .

title: back to school! - suffering fr party withdrawal symptoms-

well well well.. today's gonna be the first day back at school for me after a fri-tues long party/celebration. hahaha honestly i've eaten so much cake over the weekend i tink i'll go off cakes for a while.. well.. at least until the next celebration which would be wendy's! -winks- but i tink i need to go lose all the calories that i've consumed over the course of wad.. 3 days? it's been intense man..

but how i enjoyed it! in fact, a lil too much.. i'm starting to feel a lil homesick now even tho i'm still home.. heh! i was whining to my mum on mon nite (see.. i start early) that i didn't want to go to school! whahahah feels so primary one-ish and all these coming from a just-turned-21-yr-old.. oh well.. guess i'm still trying to get used to it.. hee!

ytd was awesome tho.. woke up at 8am for david allbritton's seminar @ yishun (woohoo! super near) at 9am. and gosh.. he's good.. now of cuz he didn't stay on topic like he 'promised' thru the flyer.. but it was good. cuz when i went there.. its like i got a new measure of faith and its contagious! hahaha i feel awesome! =)

den afterwards some of the youth headed down to orchard (the couples headed to vivocity.. heh!) and we went to borders..

gosh that place is crowded! but okay la.. at least we could move pretty freely.. the degrees of freedom not that low yet.. :P and i joined the damai gang for shopping once i spotted jiunn ngee making his way down the borders aisle jus as e rest of the youth were leaving. heh! so fun eh? transit from one grp to the other.

i had super much fun with the damai gang.. hahah its been so long since i've been out with them that ytd was actually quite cool =) hahaha i never knew tt before! and manwai aka sylvia has such impeccable taste in clothes.. she shld be a designer or something.. and the same goes for jiunn ngee.. =) apparently, (he's like my stylist now) i look good in trench coats and office lady wear.. hahah cuz i look very journalist-ey with my specs and all. and there came a pt of time when i was jus standing while manwai and ed were helping me into clothes lo! hahahaha =) how interesting.. and ed was being a dear cuz he helped me carry my oh-so-heavy bag (i brought the new bag josh bought out!!!! -beams-) and afterwards paid for my shopping, a new Zara blouse.. heh! he's like some gorgor like tt lo.. thanks ed! p.s. my mum was wondering why u were paying for my shopping.. until i told her that it was my bday gift from ya.. hahah!

and i absolutely love juana! tt girl is jus so so so sweet.. and sososo pretty.. heee.. and i'm so happy with wad's happenign in her life too.. wad was cool was that during lunch juana suggested saying grace and it was COOL.. cuz syl, me and (i tink) juana too are christian while the guys are not.. so we jus went ahead and said grace together anyways.. heh heh! =) i'm excited at what's gonna happen!

ytd celebrated my bday with my dad, uncle and granny too =) and it was so cool la.. i'm so proud of my parents.. both of em.. tt they organize thigns so well.. hee.. its like my dad got a cake from bengawan solo and he brought dim sum all the way from bedok to my granny's place (which is at bugis area).. so sweet can? i really really appreciate him.. and sometimes i jus wish i was more patient with him ar.. but ya.. last nite sent him an sms to tell him that i love him and that i appreciated all that he's doing for me. hee.. i tink i thanked him for being my daddy too.. =) heee..

oh oh oh.. and my granny cooked porridge too for us! we (the kids and alvin) ate till we were stuffed! like really really really stuffed.. plus somemore that day i had fish&co at arn 2plus? i couldn't even finish my portion, had to give it to ed.. and phwaaah.. go to my granny's place.. eat somemore.. i could've split! :P but it was a really good dinner.. but i tink wad touched me the most was that my dad gave me some capitaland shopping vouchers that he'd won.. from being one of the best employees at his wkplace.. it's worth 20bucks.. but it wasn't the value that touched my heart but the fact that.. he's giving me soething that he's won.. and tt jus means so much me la.. like.. wow.. =) love u pa!!

but alrites.. its back to reality i guess.. heh! no more goofing arn..the pile of work that awaits me is jus stressing me out a wee bit. i need to get work done somehow! argh.. and i've got class 1-4pm and den dance 5.30-7pm.. i'm really amazed at how life jus goes on somehow.. and.. argh.. i'm wondering wad to bring to school now.. too many things in hall and lovely lovely things left at home.. i need to strategize.. heh! and i'm so glad that i hv a home now in ang mo kio. .and i'm getting used to the place =) thank God for my auntie.. she's jus awesome! and this weekend, i'll move more of my stuff back home i guess.. otherwise i'll jus be surviving on the bare minimum.. heh..

more stuff added from ytd's shopping:
- 3quarts from U2
- topshop sweater/jacket
- zara glittery top

used bday gifts:
- cap (from djd and xm)
- bag (from josh - the bag's SUPER BIG CAN?? but i like!)
- book (from dawn and shaun)
- jacket (from pan)

woohooooo! ohhh.. and the photos are up here! 123shots! gosh.. and mroe to come.. got another hundred over at alvin's side.. now its jus for the rest to contribute too.. wow! i'm jus prayign real hard that yahoo never ever crashes.. cuz if it does.. den all my memories gone liao lo.. booo! but yesh yesh.. check the photos out for ur lovely faces! :D

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/25/2006 10:20:00 AM .

this is me with the mic (duh) grinning thru my speech.. heh! love u guys many much and thank u so much for making it such a special and awesome nite! -hugs-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:11:00 AM .

nicholas and samuel watch on.. they're great guys and i'm so so glad they came! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:10:00 AM .

this was my script lo.. now u know why i had such a hard time reading it.. my gosh.. =) kudos to my uncle danny who prepared it to saboh me.. actually he had one more game but we didn't hv time :( so ar well.. next birthday!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:10:00 AM .

wendy, pinky, huangwei, toktok, djd and xm get in line for hte limbo rock game.. look at them discussing strategy.. they cheated!!! wahahah but so smart lo.. =P bleah.. naughty pp..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:09:00 AM .

justina, su teck, kyle and erjie stand around.. hahah natural photo eh.. =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:08:00 AM .

limbo rock game with 4 tall guys getting nice and hmm.. low?

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:08:00 AM .

swappies with the hairbands.. hahaha

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:07:00 AM .

here's WE! with the WE-halves.. haha like macam membership like tt rite? wahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:07:00 AM .

sylvia and shereen =) awesome ladies!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:07:00 AM .

jie, me and juana! we look like sisters rite? so cool!! :P

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:06:00 AM .

mummy and uncle danny.. heh! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:05:00 AM .

ian with.. hmm.. my sister's hairband (??) and simon.. looking.. hmm ah beng.. =) wahahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:05:00 AM .

simon - mr retro in white specs, me, daffy and jie! =) daffy is ms retro.. hahah

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:05:00 AM .

hahahah super retro.. jiunn ngee in the blue jacket =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:04:00 AM .

woohooo! the damai girls..haaa =) jie, me, pan, sylvia and juana

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:03:00 AM .

wendy, me and angie - being the blend between red and black.. i stood in the middle.. heh! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:03:00 AM .

ohana - dage.. bleah! but still.. these girls are my chums man.. super sisters!!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:02:00 AM .

me trying to be monroe-ish.. hahahah its the skirt la i tell u.. :P hahaha!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:02:00 AM .

now it's back at them! ooh.. erjie.. u look so pretty.. haha and of cuz.. xm and djd too! :P u guys are so awesome!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:02:00 AM .

me and mummy justina! this girl flew down all the way from school.. i'm super touched lo.. =) love love!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:01:00 AM .

here's us being retro-esque.. hopefully.. :P i like chris' pose!! :P

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:00:00 AM .

swappies unite! i totally dig char's get up la.. hahaha! and julaina's marilyn monroe skirt.. hahah =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:00:00 AM .

jie jie and me.. hahahaha us and our hairbands.. :P

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/24/2006 12:00:00 AM .

dawn.. my meimei! who looks super much like me.. or so everybody says! hahaha she's such a sweet girl :) -big hugs-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:59:00 PM .

ian.. with his signature dazed look.. heh heh! =) love u lil bro!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:59:00 PM .

BEST FRIENDS!! pan pan and me! she's gorgeous ain't she? love her loads!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:58:00 PM .

berner and cynthia.. heh! berner's my god bro =) but waahahaha.. super MIA.. my mummy complain lo.. -winks-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:58:00 PM .

uncle danny getting the guys to do the 'baby elephant walk'! hahaha from left: malcolm, thiam siong, eujinn struggling in e bkgrnd, kyle and rion.. berner's behind.. haha!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:58:00 PM .

me and yong ping.. long lost buddy from damai.. he's REALLY tall.. jus can't tell from e shot rite? :P heh! thanks so much dude!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:57:00 PM .

my cake!!! arrrgh.. was so hungry lo.. i could SMELL it!! and -coughs- my mummy 'sabohed' me with MooMooMing.. not tt i minded.. heh!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:56:00 PM .

mummy and me being dramatic.. hahahah like mother like daughter ya?

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:55:00 PM .

these are the cousins.. and of cuz.. niece and nephew.. standing beside me =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:55:00 PM .

Family photo.. heh! e whole of my mother's side came lo.. cool!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:55:00 PM .

here's e VFC gang! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:55:00 PM .

Dance Reflections: Elkoha!!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 11:45:00 PM .

title: One Word...

BLESSED.

seriously man.. i woke up today and that was the word.. and den a whole string of phrases came.. blessed above and beyond, exceedingly and abundantly...

and that is jus so so true...

i LOVE you guys! u guys made last nite the bestest bestest nite ever man! and it was really a dream come true.. cuz i've always wanted to hv my party in a function room and have like all my frens come.. =) i felt bad that i couldn't entertain as many of u as i liked to.. but i'm so glad u guys managed to have fun together on ur own too.. hee! i felt so bad for neglecting the proggies/swappies!! but u guys look so nice! u guys have gotta be the most retro-esque of all.. hahaha i mean.. as a unified group la.. the next runners-up would've been my church gang.. simon.. oh my gosh.. u're awesome man! =)

and honestly.. my life is jus so different cuz you guys are in it.. and i'm so blessed.. i tink God's so good in all this.. tt my friends are jus so wonderful.. in fact i was telling my mum tt u guys are so dear to me that if any of u were to 'go' i'd be crying my eyes out lo.. and tt shows how much u guys matter to me.. -beams-

but last nite was a blast.. hope u guys had fun seeing each other and dressing the part.. hahah super retro rite? hhaha vanessa was suggesting punk rock for the theme instead but i was like.. punk rock ar.. our relatives can pull it off or not? at least like this ar.. everybody fits in and flows as one.. heh heh!

special thanks for my emcee for the nite, PANDORA TAN!!! she, my bestie, has jus been a winning host and wow.. thank u so much babe.. may our frenship grow and grow and grow forever more man.. hahahaha yesh.. here's the cheesy 'Frenz 4eva!!!!' phrase... but i'll bet that there really is some weight to that phrase.. so pan.. frens forever ya? love u big time! thanks for being there when i need u always.. for being a sis too!

and of cuz.. to all the different groups that came... swappies, WE (and ur WE-halves, hehe!), crazy jc gang, damai peepz, VFC-ers (my net, children's ministry trio, gary&jolene, caregp-ers, dancers, everybody!).. and certainly.. Jacob and his erhem.. 'partner' Sarah (i'm so glad she came!), Edwin from OCIP (we've come a long and interesting way it seems.. heh!), Ohana (dage sent me something.. i'll fwd u guys soon! i laughed my head off), family (all of my mum's nine siblings were there.. i'm SO amazed), cousins (don't you jus love my youngest, tengteng!!) and niece(vanessa, u're famous!)/nephew(malcolm).. *i'm hoping real bad that i'm not missing anybody out.. but forgive me if i do k?

SO SO awesome i tell you.. to have everybody i love right there in the same room.. -beams-

and thank you for all the presents! i tell you.. i was up with my mum till 2+ am.. jus talking about the party and unwrapping the presents.. i am so blessed! and i've been trying to put faces to the presents.. and i'm gonna try to get pics of em.. so i can like give u my utmost appreciation over the blogosphere at least.. heh! and if i dun remember doesn't mean i dun appreciate k? i lvoe everythign that everyone's got me.. and hahaha.. i tink i got a record number of topshop gift cards lo.. hahaha i tink we jus jumped their sales quite significantly over the past few days eh? =) not bad.. 3 topshop cards if i'm not wrong.. so heh.. shopping here i come!

also got a cap! woohoooo! happy happy.. i think it's xm and djd tt bought fo rme.. but hmm.. if i'm wrong pls pls shout it out!! and sorry!!! :P my jie and al bought me not one.. but TWO pairs of shoes.. LOVELY! and the best part is.. they were on discount.. we almost bought that day when there wasn't so really thank God for the good deal.. got 3 books.. one from jacob i tink, the other from damai gang and one from DAWN and SHAUN! :P love it i tell you!... (trying to remember what else there is cuz i'm separated from my presnts by a door.. blockign my view) ahh yesh.. there's the eyeshadow from revlon too..haha EXACTLY wad i was looking for.. u guys are good man (again i tink its djd and xm tt got it) err.. got lipgloss set from annie.. lotsa personal cards and gifts too.. i LOVE em.. i've always liked reading cards.. hee.. and i keep em super long=)

oh gosh.. there's jus too much to gush over right now.. so wait patiently for the photos ya? my sis is prob coming over so i can giggle over the photos we took.. heh! those who took pics p-rease send me ya? i wan see everybody! heee.. and honestly.. i'm so so glad everybody took pains to dress up for the party.. hahaha it really made a diff lo.. heh! hope it didn't really cuz too much pain.. heh!

of cuz.. there's one final person to thank.. among the many others who i really thank from the bottom of my heart and the heart of my bottom.. wahahahaha!

and tt's GOD, my almighty Saviour and Friend and Keeper of my Heart:
i love You and i know that this new yr signifies something differently for me. something fresh and anew.. a walk deeper than ever before and a walk more exciting! thank You for bringign me through everything.. all the moments before this.. and the moments that will come after this. You have always been and will be there for me.. i jus know it.. =) thank You so much.. and i wanna live my life out for You like never before.. this is a new beginning and -hugs- You've jus been awesome.. as usual -winks- i Love YOU!

-big big hugs to everybody-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/23/2006 10:29:00 AM .

title: all i want for my birthday is.....

whahaha.. oh alright.. i wanted to make it sound like the 'all i want for xmas is my two front teeth' ditty.. but ar well.. i guess the written medium jus works differently.. heh! oh wait.. not..its the spoken medium but the visual channel.. heh! (interactional discourse)

anyways.. thank you to aaaalll of u who've told me that you can come on 22nd.. hee! super looking fwd to seeing u guys.. ig uess.. its jus a chance for me to thank u guys and give u guys the birthday treat/fun for being such awesome pp!

but i've had pp asking me how to go to the function room oh.. so here are the instructions.. i'll let more pp know as the day draws nearer... i keep telling my sis and mum that it's so surreal that it's jus next week tho.. -gasp-

1) take mrt to changi airport
2) head to T2 (this shld be where u alight fr the train anyways)
3) walk towards burger king
4) beside BK there's this carpark called carpark b
5) turn right and head towards the lifts
6) only use lifts number 5 and 6
7) go to level 3M
8) the place is called Melody Hall :)

yep.. if u guys get lost.. jus ring me k?

and some have also asked me wad i want for my bday le.. soooo i shall be thick thick skin k? here's my list =)

- Gym Bag (i tink josh is getting it)
- Sports jacket (u know those nice adidas/nike/puma ones? the nice nice material one)
- Wallet (preferably long wallet)
- Revlon makeup (i tink its the scarlet rose line... i think ..if not jus get me black liquid eyeliner)
- TopShop/Esprit/Mango/Zara/Miss Sixty vouchers.. heh! or jus a shopping trip for me to get stuff with you! :)
- Nice/pretty shorts - i saw some lovely ones at Marina Sq today.. heh! (size.. errrr.. as big as possible? hahahah naah.. get me L ba.. now u guys know how big i am :) not that i mind! hehehe)
- S+K combat pants
- Clutch bag
- Cap/Hat
- Topshop striped jacket (it costs a whopping $103... soooo.. if u're feeling rich or u hv enough pp on ur side..... heh)
- shoes (feet size is 7 i tink.. heh!)

yep yep.. i tink tt's it for now.. heh! as i've said.. i'm jus being thick skinned.. i'd rather u guys jus come and hv fun.. so yeah.. =) -hugs-

and oooh..the PSI thingie is up on tv again.. my gosh..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/16/2006 09:57:00 PM .

title: its term paper and project season yet again!

hahaah i know i sound enthusiastic over the title.. and well.. the fact is.. i am... to a certain extent at least.. heh! i mean.. at least i'm not dreading em so much la.. like i jus wanna get down to doing em and not care about other stuff.. i wanna finish up my negotiation final paper.. i wanna finish up my CDA paper too.. but gargh.. somehow i haven't manage dto get down to organizing my points..

anyways.. weird thing.. i slept at 10 plus last nite.. (i know.. early rite?) and i woke up at like.. 5am?? i have NO idea why that happened but i jus couldn't get to sleep adn it was a perfectly lovely nite/morning cuz the air was so cool and jus -sigh- comfy.. but in the end i managed to sleep la.. and got up to the sound of my alarm clock at 735am.. heh! and u know why i had to get up so early? cuz i couldn't take reading my simulation instructions last nite and i had to read em this morning.. gosh.. talking about having homework for breakfast! as a result of me preparing my stuff i left my place.. think 830 and waited for the shuttle bus and got to class jus on time.. 9am.. BUt i couldn't get any food.. so i waited for the break lo.. heh! HOTDOG! now every thur's hotdog day thanks to Nydia, who intro-ed the wonderful Olio hotdog to me.. heh heh..

jus got back my graded journal assignment and i got quite a good grade for it.. and while many times we always say that grades don't matter.. i guess if i'm honest with myself.. i do want to do well.. i do want to get grades that make me smile.. cuz i know that i'm capable of doing so much more and it jus stinks to be at the bottom sometimes or rather, not reaching ur full potential.. and there really isn't anything wrong with wanting to do well.. but i guess the spirit that's behind it matter a lot more.. is it the spirit of excellence? or the spirit of competition-'nyah nyah, i did better than you' or pride?

i guess tt's something i need to check in myself.. but yeah.. all i jknow for now is that doing well makes me feel good and it makes me want to try harder.. and of cuz.. i know that it's God that gets me thru.. i jus need to keep remembering that cuz i tend to forget Him sometimes.. that He's the source of my wisdom and abilities.. and yeah.. i'm sorry Daddy for always forgetting.. thank You for being so patient with me.. i know that You are indeed my Provider.. thru it all.

today's thur.. i usually go out with josh on thurs.. but today.. i'm not so sure.. somehow i feel a lil distanced from him.. maybe its cuz we're both getting busy.. but hmmm.. i'm quite sure relationships are about making time for each other.. maybe we're jus being too considerate to each other and jus giving each other space.. but den.. it kinda makes everythign seem non-r/s-ish.. or is my perspective of wad a r/s is jus charged by what i see in movies or situations arn me?

jus committed all my thots to God this morn.. and well.. i guess one way's to jus leave it in His hands and yep.. we're good to go!

will update soon soon about more stuff.. a lot of thigns have been happening but somehow wheni try to recall and get em down.. they slip away.. -sigh-

wanted to pontang class today .. but but.. must hand in rxn paper.. SO must go.. but i've printed my notes in colour so it doesn't seem so dry and all.. heh! and THANK GOD i did my rxn paper earlier when i had the time cuz last nite and this week jus didn't seem like moments i would do my rxn paper in.. and well.. last nite was particularly emotional.. had both parents call me and well... let's jus say that i still need a lot of prayer and i'm still trying to get thru even tho i seem alright on the outside.. and i tink for most part.. i do think i'm alright.. maybe its jus one of those sub-conscious strains tt are causing me to behave/think the way i do.. so yep.. =)

anywys... i still haven't gotten my party invite list down.. i'm SO sorry pp! i'm so thankful tt u guys read my blog and are enthu abt my party.. hee.. it makes ALL the difference.. =) and i will send out the invites like tonite or somethign when i'm particularly bored with doing my final paper.. hahaha =) i shall make the list during class later.. heh! :D i'm hoping it;'ll end super super early.. den i can jus chil and slack my way... heh!

alrites.. gotta run to class.. i tink i'm gonna be late.. heh..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/12/2006 03:34:00 PM .

title: argh!

argh.. jus finished up an entire packet of peanuts! cuz i was so stressed thinking abt what to do for CDA.. and its really weird cuz i hv a whole lot of ideas on what to do... but somehow once i leave class eveyrthing goes out of the window.. gargh.. frustrating..

and today tried to learn like the entire song for this friday's show.. i have only one thing to say.. PRACTICE is SO SO crucial now.. argh...

i seriously need to get started on my term papers and stuff.. this term somehow got a lot of individual work.. hmm.. ar well.. guess it could be worse la.. they're mostly 'short' (if you call 1,500 words short) assignments.. and argh.. i've got a test tmr too...

-faints-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/10/2006 08:32:00 PM .

title: we won!!!

whoooosh! USP won ENG in netball IFG today!! woohoooo.. wow..this is so so cool la.. i mean.. for once.. i'm on a winning team! wahahahah.. but i must say that it was a good match today.. if we'd lost, i would've still been happy cuz the game was flowing very very well.. and yeah.. i tink both teams matched up to each other in terms of standard so we didn't feel like we were trashing one or the other.. so yeah! happy happy happy!

but i feel immensely bad for falling down during the game.. cuz the second time i did, i landed on engine's wing attack.. oops!! and she was a nice girl too!! gosh..i felt SO SO SO bad! and i realize this thing abt myself.. that my right foot, while my stronger anchor.. is actually quite weak along the ankles.. such that when i do quick runs and turns.. i tend to tip over a bit.. so yeah.. tt was why i fell so much during the game.. but heh! i'm up n running.. so that's cool!

i'm really so so in admiration for netballers.. i think it really is a very tough game to play.. and wow! kudos to all my netballer friends.. i tink you guys rock!!!! throw a guy in and i think he'd jus spoil e entire game.. cuz it isn't abt brute strength but agility and having quick feet to respond well to changes in lines of attack/defence.. its really .. WOAAAh..

abt my day tho.. had my 2 project meetings.. one for int. disc which i shall now call ID since tt's wad my gp mates call it.. and its way simpler.. heh! den afterwards had CDA with the WE girls.. hhahahah i tink we all jus kept digressing a whole lot during the discussions.. but heh.. at least we got some preliminary thots down.. and yeah.. i really love being in discussions with em.. somehow we always get into something itneresting.. like today it was abt young teen girls, rebellion, cutting, pregnancies, crabbing, prawning... and hmm.. of cuz.. our CDA project (tho i tink tt was REALLY low in priority somehow) whahahahahaha!

and i finally tried out the Dan Dan Mian from e Sze Chuan stall.. oh my gosh.. its is SUPERB!! pls pls.. all my lovely friends.. go and try it out for urself.. it so so so so so so delicious! and i mean it! it really is good! =) so good that i finished up the entire bowl.. which rion commented earlier abt how all his female frens have never managed to finish up the entire thing.. and heh! well i DID! =) so does this make me a girl? heh heh heh..

but honestly... i've been eating a lot the past few days.. big meals that is.. lesser snacking but fuller meals..

not tt good tho.. cuz my stomach's digestion rate is not very efficient ya.. so i tend to feel bloated and blah if i do eat too much.. and i'm really weird these days cuz if i eat, i eat alot.. if not.. i dun eat at all.. cuz i jus dun feel the hunger pangs.. somehow.. hmmmm

and i tink i'm growing a tummy somehow.. heh! even tho my activity rate has like doubled or something in all my yrs at NUS.. hahaha gosh.. dance classes on wed, dance pract tmr for elkoha, dance pract at church eveyr sun, netball for now.. and before that i was kinda running for fun.. nevertheless.. i like doing stuff like this.. i tink exercise keeps me sane anyway.. methinks its the act of sweating.. so yep!

back to netball tho.. today's my last game unless we get into semis.. tho USP has one more on wed.. but i can't make it for that one cuz of dance pract.. and i tink i need to get my steps for this fri's performance! eek! there's also post-DR celebration this wed.. which i'm kinda thinking of not going.. i tink i need to take a break.. the weekend's kinda taken its toll on me.. and yep.. this morn.. as per the previous post.. was kinda depressing.. i'm jus glad that i have my circle of lovelies to cheer me up.. even if they dun know they're doing that =) interacting with pp jus makes my day..

alrites.. gonna finish up readings later.. and of cuz.. watch my MUST SEE MONDAY shows.. 'so you think you can dance 2' and 'ANTM'!!!!!!! woohoo!

-God is my Provider-

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/09/2006 08:29:00 PM .

title: busy week

this week looks set to be super packed and busi-fied.. this morning woke and jus thot like.. oh God.. how am i gonna get thru this week.. and i cannot describe the immense difference i felt the moment i started talking to Him and praising Him, jus worshipping.. and right now my Bible's opened to Psalm 18.. i read it aloud and wow.. its jus awesome la.. i felt my spirit rise there and then.. and yep.. God.. U are my Provider! [tat's my declaration of the week anyways.. hee!]

last nite was interesting.. juana's party was such a fun time of meeting up with everyone.. and yep.. like what erjie said.. the jc gang willb e meeting each other up pretty often.. and i tink that by the end of october.. those that know me will all be quite fairly acquainted with one another alr la.. haha secondary school frens meeting jc frens.. and uni friends alike too of cuz =) i tink its cuz we have too many common frens lo.. but hey.. not that i'm complaining.. these pp are like family to me man.. and beign at juana's party jus made me realize how long i've known her as a friend alr.. 9 years! and gosh..we've all really grown up together.. amazing =)

and speaking of family.. i feel like my family's all around now. heh! i mean.. literally of cuz, and figuratively speaking.. its like i'm jus going fr hse to hse cuz now my home's in the west and cuz most of my activities take place in the east i seriously rely on the goodwill and blessings of others who open their homes up to me.. for that.. i'm super duper grateful.. -hugs- u guys have jus been the greatest!

really ar.. its only thru hard times that yeah.. u see who ur frens are... and yep.. those who truly help out and all.. appreciate u all.. really.. thank you guys so much..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/09/2006 12:41:00 PM .

title: quick update

hahah i'm jus too lazy to update my blog these days.. so pardon me people.. =)

anyways, the net ball game was good.. we were up against arts so heh.. we were prepared to lose la.. but i tink for many of us it was jus about playing a good game and that's wad we got.. to be honest, for monday's game i was really raelly freaked out abt playing against pp for the first time.. but today, praise the Lord, i was jus like there bubbly and ready to play.. and i'm so so happy that they said the defence was good today.. that we really rose up to the challenge got 'promoted' from pp who never played netball before to.. heh! pretty alright ones! =) so i'm really glad for that.. heee! and i saw DJD!!! -screams, runs and hugs djd- it was so so good to see her! and she umpired my game! wahahahahah.. so tt was really really interesting.. heh! afterwards when i had my subway sandwich after scooting down real quick after my bath, i met her again.. and yeah.. love u babe! =)

yesh.. i've finally had subway! hahah actually i've been craving for subway for quite a while this week.. but yep.. prayer and fasting.. PLUS the queue is Super super long always.. so i have to wait till its some unholy hr and run down so the line's that little bit shorter.. hahaah! and ytd i was this close to getting my subway.. BUT somehow, city hall's infected with subway fever too.. gosh..i've NEVEr seen the queue snake that way before.. and i was out with josh.. heh! so in the end we headed upstairs where i went for nasi bryani! woohoooo... and can u believe it? i polished up EVERYTHING... hahahahah and afterwards we had the fried mars bar from chippy's and we met bAO and hoho!!! so nice to see em! =) heh heh

this week's jus been awesome.. and heh.. i realise that my appetite's really gone down quite a bit.. and josh says that its like that when u fast for a few days.. somehow ur appetite jus goes down.. heh.. a bit disturbing... so i'm trying to stick to my (at least) one good meal a day thing.. if not.. i'm jus gonna end up unhealthy and blah..

when i woke up today i was wondering how i was gonna get thru today actually.. having this week be my slackest ever (i even had time to read ahead of my reading schedule and do 2 assignments ahead of time) today was quite a handful.. heh! had class.. and ho chee lick was veyr veyr amusing as usual.. had my awesome girl time with tanny (heh!) and xuan.. den went back to my room.. after tt.. met samuel to teach him how to upload stuff for HOOKED since he's our new sub-ed (i call em subbies.. hahah!) and den hopped over to arts where me and erjie finally met and talked for the first time in 2 WEEKs can u believe it?!?! i miss her so so much lo! and after tt i had to train nadia and sin yee, our other 2 sub eds and den scoot off for netball at 5.. but of cuz.. not before catching some REAAAAALLY amusing videos.. hahaha go youtube and search for this guy.. daniel chesterfield.. he's a darn good spoof of david copperfield.. hahahaha!

tmr and sun are gonna be happening days.. cuz tmr i'm gonna meet my dad and sis.. yays! and sun there's juana's party! wheee! i lvoe parties! and i'm still quite miffed that i've had to miss 2 great ones the past month.. sigh!

oh oh.. recommendation, watch this movie : 12 Angry Men - it's black adn white but i tell u.. its SO SO SO worth it! yeaaaaah..

AAAAND.. mummy's helped me with a whole lot of arrangment for my bday celebration.. its gonna be 22nd oct @ Changi Airport T2 - at this karaoke room place which is pretty big.. so can accomodate loadsa pp! hahaha.. and the theme iiiiis.... RETRO!!! and i tink this fits cuz my relatives are all gonna be there in the afternoon to chill adn sing their oldies.. and i tink that kinda sets the mood.. heh.. so yep.. i'll be sending out invites soon..i hope.. heh! wheeeeee...

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/06/2006 10:16:00 PM .

title: netball

hahah okaay.. i never knew that netball had so many things to learn about and despite feeling like an utter failure at the beginning of pract.. i'm so glad for my team and for my captain. i tink i've learnt super super much lo.. and yeah.. i hope i can buck up in time for the match on friday against -gasp- ARTS!!

-screams-

but what made my day was the fact that my team mates were so willing to teach me and answer all my questions.. like what is rebounding (aka loose ball when u're shooting), stepping (moving ur landing foot), dragging (noo.. not the Kumar kinda thing but like dragging ur landign foot), LANDING FOOT (the foot you land on when u gain possession of the ball) and woaah.. techniques on how to do a chest pass properly (i never knew i couldn't do one before), how to get pass the opposition and pass the ball properly to my wing D and GD.. [i''m taking GK] so yep.. it's been super fruitful.. and now i have utmost respect for all netball players.. its really a game of strength and yet agility.. its amazing.. =)

and frankly, i was kinda freaked at going for the game today cuz i didn't feel ready and i felt like the technicalities were jus bugging me big time.. so really thank God rachel, my captain, put me in GK.. cuz that one is minimal movement, hence i won't get penalized for my funny footwork (dance influences) and yep.. i can defend better than attack it ink... i'm too nice!!! hahahaha okay okay u can stop puking now.. =) but yaaaaaa.. thank GOD that today was a WALKOVER!! woohooo.. hahaah and we practiced instead so.. so i was quite glad for that.. hee!

jus now sat down and thot abit abt CDA.. my term proj.. and i was jus wondering like how on earth am i gonna get it done.. cuz it jus feels like my brain's fuzzy and not working at all.. it's like.. i've totally forgotten what it's like to do a research paper after 3 months and counting.. heh! but God is so good..the Creator of my brain is far wiser and smarter.. and in no time i was jus churning out stuff and i managed to find some great resources.. so now at leats i have a general direction..

reminder of the moment/year:
For i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, plans not to harm you but plans for hope and a future
-- yep yep paraphrase but for the exact words.. it's Jeremiah 29:11
this was the word given to me when i enter uni and i guess recently i've been wondering abt whether i can really keep up with my std at school.. and it's almost as if i'm jus abt to resign myself to 3 years and tt's it.. but i'm glad this verse came in.. cuz it's a reminder for me not to worry about what's to come.. cuz God's alr there.. and yep.. i'm jus gonna try my best and live on for the purpose and direction that He's given me. so yr3.. here i come!!! and here's to yr 4 too! hahahahah with God's strength of cuz! i'm jus gonna follow wherever He brings me now..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/02/2006 07:49:00 PM .

title: back to school

gosh its surreal being back to school.. esp today.. MONDAY.. the FIRST day back. well.. technically it isn't really my first day la.. cuz i've got no classes but i have a netball match later.. so i guess it kinda counts as a first day.. heh! but yeah.. i tink the surreality of it all is no less aided by the fact that i spent my midterm break at a chalet (the first in dunno how many years,that the chalet is "mine"/family-owned aka not bday party chalet). and of cuz with all that happend thru out yep.. it's been one midterm break i would say. i'm jus glad that i got hte time to chill and relax and play water guns with my sis and al. hahha yes we did! we're big kids! =) and we pigged out like nobody's business.. haha.. shiok lo.. =)

but today's the first day and was typing an email to the WE girls cuz i've been seriously MIA the past week.. no internet connection over where the chalets are.. and i said that i'm getting the monday blues cuz its back to school and its an odd transition somehow now that there's an official start to school (even tho i've been back on campus for a bit this week). but yet, i dun feel that sense of dread either.. except that i'm jus raring to go! give me assignments, something to do! i wanna do it.. and i guess its definitely cuz of what God has done in my life the past week/weekend. and this week is VFC's week of prayer and fasting. and i've got loadsa things i wanna change with this new start and according to my sis.. a new stage in life =) i wanna be more faith-filled, to walk a closer walk with Him, to surrender my resources and my all to Him cuz that's where they belong and i know He loves me enough to know what to do with em and somehow i've got this motivation to jus be excellent in what i do.. as in.. to put His Kingdom first and also to jus be the kid that God made me to be. yep yep.. i'm jus so so blessed by what He's doing in my life.. and i'm excited! honestly.. and talking to josh last nite at his place about what's happening in our lives.. it was jus so nice.. :P

and i'm super blessed by the people arn me.. big big hugs to all you pp who left comments on my blog and have peppered me with love and sweeet sweeeet msgs.. i love u all.. and i'm so thankful for you guys.. really.. i'm SUPER DUPER blessed!

only thing is.. now i'm jus sleepy.. hahahaha and i feel like a sloth.. but heh.. i guess i need to rest.. been feeling giddy the past few days.. prob from all the running arn ba.. so yep.. keep me in prayer k? =) i've got netball games today, friday, next mon and wed.. yep yep.. now that i have it in my face, reality, i'm kinda regretting signing up for it.. but oh well.. i'll jus be faithful to what i promised and yeah.. a lil exercise (read: huffing and puffing) never killed anyone eh? heh heh...

wheee... it's back to school! =)

i keep on walking took her pride away at 10/02/2006 01:30:00 PM .