YWednesday, January 31, 2007
title: a good day out
today was a welcomed day out.. haha not that i have been very stressed or anything cuz my current schedule allows for more than enough time to chill and study at the same time.. so cool rite? heh! quite pleased at that (: but nevertheless today was fun!
first thing is.. i went jogging in the morn! and gosh i feel superbly unfit.. gargh.. after the sixth round around the track i was jus like.. 'no. more. please.' hahah gosh.. but afterwards i headed back for a refreshing bath.. my fav hotdog buns and of cuz.. transcribing the data that i collected the night before.
yep.. the night before i was over at tampines having leaders' meeting and really thank God i managed to catch the last 95 (i must remember it's at 11.31pm) and yep.. feeling veyr blessed by the fact that i have so many pp offering to put me up at their houses and driving me to mrts.. heh! i'm a very very blessed girl! (:
but anyways.. met up with aunt margaret, mummy, jie, alv and of cuz my other aunt with her BABY TENG! aaagh.. that girl is SO SO cute! and today she was like 'gong xi gong xi'-ing us.. [pardon the english.. i have no idea how to put this .. haha!] but yes.. she jus got so excited seeing me mimick her [i think] that she jus kept laughing and kicking her feet..hahaha! so CUUUUUTE.. and now she's on the wallpaper of my phone 'desktop' and she looks like a very adorable sailor.. hahaha i'll show u guys when i get to.. cutie pie! love her! (:
and after tt. headed over to tanjong pagar where my sis went for her bridal gown fitting.. and man.. she jus looks gorgeous la.. hahaha shall not post pics here cuz if not no surprise alr.. but yesh.. she looks very very nice. she really shld consider being a bridal gown model la.. hahaha (: so jus look fwd to the wedding!
we four (mummy, me, jie, alv) went by to pac coffee for coffee/cake/pie/drink too at the 'lil red dot museum cuz we haven't been there before la.. so kaypoh lo.. hahah go in and sit sit.. not too bad.. interesting having coffee at a museum on jus any ordinary day.. and den...
i went shopping!!
muahhahah..
finally..
and i bought my shorts.. with the suspenders thingie.. heh! so that it looks like a jumper if i pull em up and tuck my shirt in (something i haven't done in ages) and yep.. igot it for the same price the stall at central forum is selling it for.. except at a better colour and better design (slighly) AND i bought a nice long top/blouse tt can be worn as a dress.. whahah.. not bad eh? so in total spent abt 43 bucks on the two items la.. not that bad i suppose..
i tink i really enjoyed my time with mummy la.. was a tad moody after coffee cuz it was the midday lull and i guess i was subconsciously stressed abt some things.. heh.. so got a bit touchy/irritable.. heh! but i'm glad my mood picked up after tt.. i dun like feeling cruddy.. and yep.. i like spending time with mummy like this..heh! (: long john's silvers was also a wonderful place to have dinner.. cheap and good! wahahah okay i know i sound so auntie in this post.. but heh.. here's the real ming unleashed!
ohh yeaah! ytd managed to finally meet up with erjie and well.. head home tog on the same train.. haah super super long never do tt le and it feels so good to be able to do that again.. haah brings back memories and feelings of familiarity la.. and it was nice yakking with erjie and kyle.. hahah (: -big hugs-
-gasp- tmr gonna donate blood.. SCARED! and i jus found out tt my mum hasn't donated bld before even tho she was the one asking me to donate blood the other time.. wahahhaha.. revelation man.. i felt so 'cheated' but no la.. this is a personal choice of sorts.. something like how i'd wanna use my autonomy to do some good in a way.. (: i'm going with rion, cheryl nott and prob shaun ong.. so let's hope i dun wimp out too much tmr.. hahah
but wad the heck.. i'll jus wimp out if i feel like it la.. not easy leh!!!! (:
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YMonday, January 29, 2007
haa.. this is so irritating to be brimming with thots all up till you need to get em down on paper/in writing.. gargh! i had a whole series of thots but right now its all gone.. gargh.. irritating..
......
and i still dunno what to write..
darn.. (:
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YSaturday, January 27, 2007
title: exploring Ang Mo Kio
yaay.. today finally had the chance to explore the neighbourhood i live in and i'm quite proud of myself i must say.. heh! cuz i actually remembered that i had a straight bus back home fr amk central and managed to not get myself wet in the rain and all.. whee heee for meeee (: bimbo benchmark leh!
managed to find amk library.. yay! so now i know how to get to my book and where i can borrow em.. but i'll admit that circumstances made me venture out into the open/wild.. heh! cuz i had to return this lib book borrowed under daffy's name.. and today's e due date so ya.. dun wanna give her a bad name (:
and ohh.. i found out where i can take bus to school lo.. yay! happy.. maybe i'll try out the route on monday when i get back.. heh!
speaking of school.. i'm getting my sugar rush right now for readings and research.. ahha u know.. caught up in the 'spirit of inquiry' as how dr bautista puts it.. heh! can u believe i was up this morning doing research? hahah and planning my essay? hahah i'd better get down to some serious data collection this week man.. if not i won't have anything to show for when i see dr park!
it was shiok staying in school till the weekend.. life in school during the weekends is so different. everybody seems more relaxed.. more friendly.. more happening.. hahaha its nice (: during school days everyone seems a lil more tense somehow.. like something's abt to break or something.
anyways jus signed up for my bahasa project gp.. and TANNY and I were fighting for the last spot i tink! cuz i tried signing up for the gp2 cooking class but when i did.. i was bumped out of the system cuz it was 'full' by the time i clicked the button.. wahhaha! so i'm dong angklung instead.. hahah yay! fond memories of when i was in pr sch and aspired to be a world-class musician/singer (i was in the choir for like 3 months k?) looks like i had my eyes set on the arts pretty early on. and spking of setting my sights.. there's this indonesian exxonmobil campus concert kinda presentation coming up.. i'm wondering if i shld go.. i find myself getting increasing intrigued with all things indonesian.. and well.. let's jus see how it goes la hor? (:
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YFriday, January 26, 2007
title: humour in religion?
my prof for my class "approaches to the study of religion" showed us a clip today.. and its called little mosque on the prairie.. not sure if any of you've heard of it.. but it's a super nice show! it features muslims living in canada and all the silly presumptions pp make of muslims and the religion... its jus so hilarious to see all the pp.. of cuz.. 'whites' being so startled and over-reacting at the mere mention of 'bombs', 'terrorist' and all... but yet.. it really brings to perspective how affected pp really are.. and how sometimes these assumptions are really real to the pp caught in the midst of it all.. so yeaah.. check it out if u wan.. they've got some clips
www.cbc.ca/littlemosque -- tt should be it.. if not.. jus play arn with the 'www.cbc' part.. CBC = canadian broadcasting corporation. yep!
anyways bahasa today was intense man!! SO many phrases to learn!! but now.. i tink i can intro myself and ask questions abt stuff n where places are.. heh! so not bad la.. i can even say bye and state the reason why i won't be able to go to ur hse.. wahahahahhaha!! okaay. this looks so comical jus writing it all out here.. but bahasa is fun! heh.. i jus think its gonna get a bit harder tho.. lang is one of those things.. if u get left behind.. u get left behind.. ain't gonna have a time when u can catch up on 'readings' like normal arts mods.. heh!
besok pagi saya pulang! cuz i not gonna go for net.. jus gonna head home and well.. pergi ke Yishun for youth service/meeting at 4pm! (aha! code switching, i am!)
oh no!! i forgot! i have to return a book at the perpustakaan! aiiii! can i return NLB books anywhere there's an NLB?? eeeeeeeh...
hooked meeting today was juga bagus.. and i tink its gonna be a good issue la.. if only we can get the website up again.. dunno wad's wrong with it ar.. ar well...
anyways.. i need to practice bahasa man!! i shall attempt writing an 'essay' using all tt i've learnt.. wahahhahahah
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YWednesday, January 24, 2007
title: exercise day!
and 5, 6, 7, 8....
phwah.. today's gotta me my most exercise filled day la.. met up with tanny and rion for a jog at src track.. under the SCORCHING sun! wahhaah.. okay la.. not tt scorching but was quite hot alright.. could only manage to do 6 rounds cuz e heat was jus making me giddy.. bleah.. plus i super long nv run alr.. and i needed to conserve some energy for dance.. heh!
so after the jog i got changed and headed for some hiphop.. heh! today's choreo was quite cool.. but was quite worried i couldn't get it in time.. somehow i always start off that way.. but towards e end i jus end up enjoying myself so much.. haa! its tt sense of achievement la.. getting a routine down.. i wonder whether i'll ever stop dancing.. or rather stop loving it.. i'd like to keep on doing this.. but i'm considering leaving blast.. soo.. hmm (:
jus done with dinner.. SUPER delicious.. i love my food. and its gonna be 2 veg 1 meat/fish for me from now on.. no more 2meat/fish or some funky fast food thingie.. as much as possible i tink i wanna eat sensibly from now on..
okie.. tmr having pilates..whee! and there's morphosyntax too.. the chapter/reading which i haven read.. and there's religion tut too.. happening eh?
and hear this: BAHASA INDO ROCKS!!!
the ibu is so so nice.. i got ibu susan n i tink tanny got her too.. she's so so nice can.. and she keeps calling me.. and tanny says tt maybe its cuz my name v indonesian.. karina ma.. but yesh! so funky.. i keep trying to speak to my mum in indo now.. hahah and cuz my mum knows the basic malay thingie.. she says 'apa kabar' to me too! hahah!
and last nite's doug lambert seminar was jus so so relevant! awesome! it was abt releasing e pp you love from negative expectation. like expectation that stifles and controls.. and yeah.. it was good la.. mummy went down for altar call and i went down with her.. so yeah.. i'm pretty sure she was ministered too.. already she's like more cheerful and all.. whee! praise the Lord!
yaaay.. AMI now.. ciao!
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YMonday, January 22, 2007
title: orlando blooooooom
yesh pp im still crazy over him and tok tok remembered tt.. hahaha many many big thanks to him for getting me a 'pirates of the carribean' fridge magnet.. hahah so SWEET! and hahah i will take a picture of it soon and post it up here.. whahaahha..
in other news.. now in as7 comp labs waiting to leave for dance at kallang. jus finished my grp meeting for morphosyntax.. and i tell u.. i'm with some very very smart girls.. phew! i learnt so much jus being at the discussion lo.. dun tink i contributed much but heh.. i realize we were really working as a team.. i tink i've been too used to capturing entire projects and simply labeling it a group effort. heh! i'm learning.. (:
and argh.. praying hard that i'll be able to catch steps later cuz my friend jus posted the steps online via a video but i tink i can barely catch em.. gargh.. and i wonder how pat's gonna run today's rehearsal.. bleaaaah! worst ting is if everybody's learnt it already and i'm the only one cuz i didn't go for dance on wed.. GAARGH..
okay breathe.. dance isn't everthing.. and really.. it isn't.. hee!
God is.
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title: hugs and love to all!
you guys are one awesome bunch of pp!
to ohana: love you love you love you! i'm so glad we're still there for each other even tho we don't meet up so much now.. but -hugs- ohana means family and family means nobody gets left behind!!
to fararararaaah: thank you girl!! seeing your tag on the board was jus so encouraging even tho it was jus "huggies" (: haa.. its effect goes beyond length..
to yihan: you are so sweet can?? thanks for beign there for me, at least that online presence, even tho we haven like met up at all or something! haa.. (: and yep.. i'll see ya at the concert if i do get tix for it..
to djd: thank yoooooou! and -big big hugs- i know u need em too! so yeaaah.. we'll support each other yeah? we're so near by now anyways.. hahaha and yesh.. ur prezzie is still with me! i'm gonna give it to you this week by hook or by crook! (:
to jacob: bro.. you rock! thanks for being so understanding ya? sorry for cancelling on you last min k.. you have no idea what that time did for me.. (: (and yesh.. i saw the "wor".. -grins-)
i'm so so so so blessed! (:
and i'm so so so glad that everytime i go for svc.. God's there to minister to my heart. being at the fusion youth rally (held on sat, where all the Assemblies of God churches Youth came together.. that's where i met HOHO!) was really so inspiring.. i mean.. it really spoke to my heart and at the end the speaker prayed for all of us at the front and wad he prayed was so accurate and pertinent to my situation lo.. he mentioned abt having a broken heart cuz of what's happening at home and man.. i jus cried cuz i knew there and then that God knew.. Jesus understood what was happening in my heart and He was jus right there saying.. "I love you.. I'll never abandon you as an orphan and I'm gonna give you courage" and gosh.. it's jus so powerful la.. there's this thing abt God speaking.. that its jus pregnant with power and ability and all the things associated with God cuz its a part of Him!
i realize that its when my heart gets broken that i feel like this and i know God's telling me that He can make my broken heart whole again.. and i'm so glad.. for Him and for the support He's placed arn me.. YOU guys!
ytd svc was great as well! God's jus like speaking one unified msg to me thru different speakers man.. and to me i tink tt's awesome confirmation! and bottom line is this: that I wanna live a lifestyle of faith where i know for sure that my Daddy up in Heaven has nothing but a Father's heart towards me. And yep.. my tmr belongs to Him (:
i've been worrying abt my ism and my modules and my future.. and i think it was so much that God had to step in to reassure me and remind me abt where He is - fr an eternal perspective and that hey.. He knows n holds everything in the palm of His hand. so yesh.. i shall learn to breathe easier these days.. prob was triggered by that period of 'homesickness'.
i'm glad i feel better now.. and i'm glad i've got Jesus in my life.. i honestly wouldn't know what to do without Him..
now i know i can face the world with joy in my heart cuz i see so much more than the here and now. (:
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YThursday, January 18, 2007
title: homesick?
haah alright i know this is ridiculous cuz i know i'm still in singapore and i can prob pop by to see my papa and mummy and jiejie anytime i wan as long as they're in singapore too! but i jus can't help but miss going back home to the house we have (and soon to turn into 'had') in bedok .. the place where i tink i've stayed for close to 12 yrs before we've all had to move out and go our separate ways.
come to tink about it.. i tink i've had countless of memorable moments happen in that house and arnd that area in particular.. i mean.. there was primary school and the times my papa will cycle me to school on his bike and how eveyrbody else would jus 'wow' at us cuz my dad was my knight in shining armous always (: and there's also my best friend pandora who jus stays like 3 blks away... gosh.. the times we'd walk back home from sch cuz we were the only two who probably stayed across the road from Damai.. and i remember the times my friends would always come up to my place for a bowl of noodles or jus to see my lovely rabbits or maybe jus cuz it was raining too heavily to get back home. and that place is also where i've secretly met my boyfriends.. heh! of cuz one at each moment at each relationship.. i NEVER cheat okay.. and hahahah and how i one day got found out by my dad who'd been secretly watching me from the kitchen window (it faces my school) - walk to school with a particular boy for a few weeks at a stretch. hahaha yep.. those were the days.
and i tink wad i miss most is also jus being in the same hse as the pp i love. to be able to walk out of my room into my sister's for jus a heart-to-heart chat abt everything and anything tt might've been on our minds. i remember feasting on sausages my sis would heat up whenever we felt like having supper and it was jus too interesting to go off and sleep. i miss being able to jus walk into the living room where our big big television is/was and see my dad falling asleep on his favourite show even though he always wakes up and insists that he'd been watching all this while. and of cuz.. mummy coming back late and buying loadsa snacks and supper.. hahaah now u know where i get my snacking habits from!
sigh.. and being in the east has jus been my life. every thing i've ever known and ever had.. it's all been established in the east and now all tt's gotta change. for one.. i can't stay late at church cuz there might not be buses back home.. and if i wanna meet up with my sec sch/jc frens.. its jus too far sometimes.. and i guess for those who dun read and don't know what has happened.. well.. i tink they'd never guess that i haven't been home for the past 6 months alr.. at least.. the home that they think i'm at..
i jus wanna run home right now and find that everything's alright.. like it's actually all been jus a bad dream that everybody's not together..
but i know that everythign happens for a reason.. and all thing work for the good of those who love God. and i know He's done some amazing stuff in my family such that even tho we're all living apart right now.. i tink we've been more of a family than we've ever been livign together. its now abt making eveyr moment count and not taking each other for granted anymore.
i feel so arrgh inside now and i guess i need this.. this moment to jus let it out.. i'm okay.. but i know i'm still healing inside. i'm jus not sure i'll ever be the same again..
and to all of u out there who have great families (note that i dun use the word perfect, cuz nothing's perfect).. treasure em okay? yeah.. there might be lil tiffs here and there.. but nothing beats having a whole family together even tho u sometimes think its better being apart. cuz we've all been made with a need for a family somehow whether that family's 'right' or 'wrong'.. i know some families are jus harmful to stay in.. but be patient and be safe.. having imperfect parents/siblings don't mean that we never need family...
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YTuesday, January 16, 2007
title: esperanto
this is cool.. jus learnt abt this totally man-made/constructed language that was tipped to be the world's intl second language so we can all communicate without feeling inadequate or something.. heh! and wiki has loads on it..
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Esperanto
naah! for the linguist in you! (:
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title: sluggish
hahaha as the title suggests.. i'm feeling sluggish.. like i dun wanna do anything sluggish.. and i jus busted $60.10 for a textbook!! gaaargh! and the only reason i'm buying it is cuz it isn't available in the library.. i'm currenlty consoling myself with that reason.. but ar well.. i guess it's gonna be one of those heritage stuff u take with u from uni/college.. ur textbooks of ur once rigorous academic life. when ur brains were used to working in a certain way. i tink sometimes that once i start working my brain's jus gonna go all rusty and mouldy.. clogged up with the mundane day to day things..
and i'm still wondering what wednesdays are for.. i have this deep sense that God wants this wed for something..and i'm jus waiting to find out.. :)
i'm a greedy gobble monster today. ate quite a lot of stuff even tho i was full.. hahahaha am i deprived or something? hahahah :D anyways must control alr la.. eat too much not good for health also.. esp if u dun exercise enough.. gargh.. maybe i shld start jogging with cheryl tan on wednesdays.. but i need to get my shorts from home la.. i keep forgetting to bring em.. heh heh!
ooh.. i'm also thinking of donating blood and prob gonna go on 1st feb.. which might mean me not going for pilates class.. but i'll see how i cope.. and as scared as i am abt hving a needle stuck into my hand.. i tink this is one thing i really wanna do regardless of how i'm feeling abt it.. the need for blood for pp whose lives depend on it is jus too great to ignore and if i can do something abt it.. i'll do something abt it. heck it if i grow fat and wadever after i donate blood.. if tt happens jus donate again lo.. might as well.. ahhahahahha! like how much worse can it get rite? :D but yeaaah.. bottom line.. i'll take this step as an adult.. finally.
aaah.. shall get back to work i tink.. n try to sleep early so i dun feel so hungry and all.. wahahah
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YMonday, January 15, 2007
today headed down to lavendar to meet up with gary for this charity thing that our youth might be getting involved in for long term purposes.. and all i can say is that.. there's nothing tt gives me a rush like getting involved in something liek this. and what's "this" then.. haa.. i've purposely not defined it. cuz i tink right now its all still a lil fuzzy to me.. but wad i know is that i like stuff tt's new, tt's gonna change lives, tt's gonna be like taking on a project and making things work.. and i tink i'm energized by tt.. farah's right.. i'm really the kinda person that jus functions with a lot of work.. i like having stuff happen in my life.
but tt makes me think abt myself as a person then. am i not someone more than a job-fulfiller? like.. without all these things happening.. can i still know myself and be the person i am?
well maybe those are tough questions.. esp stuff like identity and all.. cuz we all change somehow or another.. according to situation etc etc.. but hmm.. i tink i'm really giving this a lot more thot.. can i be like mary who jus sat at Jesus' feet? or do i so often transform into martha.. the one who did good but didn't have tt stillness and the 'energy' to sit still and wait or rest? hmmm..
oh gosh.. didn't mean to make this post sound philosophically grave.. hahaha but i guess these are some thots i wanna think abt.. and i expect i'll think abt em for as long as i live cuz its always abt consciously living ur life for Christ! :D
i guess what i really wanted to say was that i jus feel like this yr's something different for me. and for all that i've been thru last yr.. i'd say that this yr's a lot more happier and joyful. hahaha i mean.. i'm looking forward to school.. i'm feeling so refreshed right now and ready to jus run for God.. and God really spoke to me ytd (sunday) about whether i shld leave the children's ministry now... and the answer is no.. haha but i'm glad abt it.. cuz i tink the Holy Spirit was jus right there stopping me everytime i wanted to sms sis chin ching abt it.. and yeah.. i'm glad to hear from God thru the msg pstor doug lambert preached that day. heh!
but yeah.. i'm excited abt what God wants to do thru me this yr.. and i'm jus ready to do what He wants me to do.. heh! i've also stopped pinning my hopes on dance at school and all..tt's something i've realized only jus now. cuz i left pract kinda early.. like didn't socialize and all.. heh! jus dun hv tt many pp i can relate to in dance la.. and i tink they're all in their cliques too.. and usually this gets me down... u know.. being left out and all.. but all of a sudden i realize that hey.. there really is more to dance and having friends there.. and i jus feel like.. it isn't a big deal if i dun get included always or if they make plans and i'm not really informed. like sure.. it stinks to be the last one.. but yeah.. like.. so? hahaha! and i tink its cuz somehow i've shifted my focus.. and i'm glad i did.. cuz it jus doesn't pay to feel like crud all the time for whatever reason or situation u're in.. i tink i have a lot more than crowd inclusion to look forward to ya? :D
and things are home are definitely getting better.. i'm jus so happy seeing both my parents get ministered by the Lord and growing in Him.. it's jus so awesome! and it gives me more faith to pray for those whose families are not entirely saved.. cuz it does happen! i feel all the more now that we're family and even tho the divorce has separated us all spatially.. i feel like we're all getting closer and building the relationships that we have all jus taken for granted all this while we were staying in the same hse.. and i'm jus so pleased at tt.. heh! i'm abt this close to saying we're a perfect family! hahahah
jus one word ba.. is that i'm Thankful. for everything.. for all that's happened cuz i tink its all made me a real person.. and right now i'm jus feeling a peace about things.. i know that whatever comes my way.. the God that lives in me and who's in my life.. He's right there waiting to tackle it head-on with me! :)
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YFriday, January 12, 2007
title: rainy weather is back!
oooh.. its so shiok to be indoors when its raining.. not so nice when u're out but rainy weather rocks when u're cosy and snug and warm.. hahaha! its like i can keep my fan to a low speed and keep the windows closed but it still feels nice and cool.. hahaha!
started raining since ytd at abt like 3? and i finally found out how to get back home without getting wet at all! yesh people.. i've found the secret path from YIH thru old KR to RVR! hahaha and djd was so shocked when i told her that.. cuz its been a sem alr and heh.. i'm supposed to hv known that like donkey yrs ago la.. hahaha! ar well.. never was that desperate to get back to my room so much like ytd.. hahah cuz i had to beat the cors clock and drop a module before i ended up having to do like 6 mods.. (: that motivated me to find a way.
what was interesting was that there was this grp of guys trying to find a way to RVR too.. heh! and they jus walked arn aimelessly..i was lucky enough to try a turn that they didn't make and voila! there was the route back home.. haha n i realize sometimes it jus takes courage to try a path that nobody's heading towards and that u've never done before.. heh.. it was a real life lesson for me there even tho books say it all. heh!
anyways last nite met up with djd.. finally! and this is cool cuz she's also staying in hall this sem.. at RH. so it was cool meeting up for dinner and we yakked like mad all the way from abt 730 to 10plus? heh! after eating at the canteen we headed up to the tv room and jus sat there and nua-ed and talked. den we saw justina!! hahah and it was so nice to be able to talk to her again after so so long.. cuz somehow we dun talk on msn that much and i tink its nicer for us both to be talking in person anyways.. hahaha =) and it was jus on and on and gosh.. i really miss those times back in jc when we'd all jus talk late into the day.. nvm that we skipped classes.. hahah! tho tt prob wasn't too wise when it came to exams.. hahaha but yeaaah.. it was a fun nite.. i realize i talk a LOT these days.. hahaha not too good but not too bad either.. haha cuz i felt like myself when i did tt.. hahha mayb i'm jus a chatterbox thru and thru la..
today's a free day sorta.. i tink i'll stay in hall till tmr when i pack off for net and home.. heh! dun tink i'll be bringing my lappie home with me.. a bit too heavy la.. and its a short stay at home anyways.. so ar well. i'll jus do what i needta do here in school.. oh wait.. is it tut balloting yet? hmm.. =)
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YThursday, January 11, 2007
title: the decision
well.. well.. there we have it.. i've decided to drop my elang module: cinematic discourse.. i can't remember the full title for the life of me.. but somehow i feel glad that i've dropped it. i mean.. i can't put my finger on why i felt that way during class ytd.. like.. it was something i know that's jus right up my alley.. like something i know i'll definitely 'get'.. but somehow.. something in me jus didn't like it.
and now i tink i get a faint inkling as to why i feel that way.. and its prob cuz somehow i've found my focus and purpose in doing elang and somehow tt module didn't quite fit in with it. right now, i'm telling myself that if i really wanted to do a film mod, i'd do one the next sem.. cuz like wad i told farah online.. i'm running a marathon and i'll run it at a good pace.. (: hahah so yeah.. i'm kinda relievd that i now have one module less and well.. life's almost back to normal. i know God's with me on this (: i believe He would've been with me regardless of either path i choose.. whether to drop morpho, or cine or to jus take em all.. hee! He's a good God!
speaking of morpho.. i tink i'm gonna be the only WE taking it now.. cuz the others are dropping it.. and i tink i'm weird cuz i actually like tt mod more than the cine one even tho it feels like cine looks more promising.. but heh! i tink i jus wanna make my linguistics course a real linguistics course.. plus i tink it was that part of my major tt i jus fell in love with when i did 1101E.. so heck the results.. tho tt's really killing a part of me.. i'm jus gonna do it and i know tt i'm gonna learn SO SO much from it.. and i tink tt matters more ya?
Dr Joseph Park's also been an awesome supervisor! he actually helped me with my proposal and my phrasing and he just made all my blurry thots so much clearer.. thank God for him!! phew! and for favour with him too! he's really really nice.. (: praise the Lord! He even helped me extend my ISM deadline and i'm jus glad i've handed up my proposal and well.. thank God for that assurance Dr Chitra gave abt ISMs not being rejected usually.. heh.. cuz come to think of it.. u reject the proposal, u reject the prof.. i'm jus glad things turned out the way it did.. cuz it really did make me tink a lot more abt my faith and abt being practical abt casting all my cares upon Him.. heh! tt jus happens to be the verse on my organizer for this month! hahaha i guess it's there for a purpose! and i'm glad i got a supervisor.. no matter how tt happened.. hahaha (:
so yesh.. i can finally breathe.. and i can finally start printing my readings for my respective modules and all.. heh! this looks set to be a great sem!! wheeeeeee... and i really really enjoyed my lunch with nydia.. heh! everything jus ended perfectly for me today.. and even as i'm sitting in my room with the rain pelting down.. i really couldn't ask for more -beams-
*i tink i'm a real workaholic like farah says.. i can't stop working somehow... but i know that i have to stop some time and jus rest and stay at the feet of Jesus.. even God rested! (: so jus remind me when i seem to be piling too much stuff on yeah? tt'll really really help! -hugs-
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YMonday, January 08, 2007
title: it feels nice to be back
haha alright.. i'll admit that i was having a lil post-holiday blues jus now when i was typing the entry.. hence the lil heaviness that seems to be hovering arn the post even tho the words used are pretty neutral.. well.. not angsty at least..
stepping into my room was jus.. different. hahah it was almost as if Karina the Uni student was back and she's jus ready to go.. heck.. i tink i could do six modules even! hahah or can i? :) i still have to remember that i'm human after all.. hahah! but somehow it felt good being back and of cuz the internet speed is awesome here.. i've got the power!! :D
but guess wad i found growing in my room? yes.. u read that right.. Growing.
MOOUULLD...
and on my pillows no less..i'm really wondering how they got there.. hahaha and darn! i hope i have 20cents to put in the dryer.. gargh..
but anyways.. this is the second time i'm encountering mould on the stuff that i usually use.. the first ones were my roller blades/guards and all. and i guess having that first experience helped cuz i told my sister and al that when i saw the mould on my guards i jus froze for 3 seconds and tried to register what on earth the fuzzy lil things were. hahahah.. and this time i jus immediately began wiping up whatever there were with wet wipes.. anti bacterial no less (i'm beginning to fall in love with those) and sent off my sheets to the wash.. heh! time for a change anyways.. and i have a sneaking suspicion that some birds/small stuff have been in my room.. haha cuz i find mysterious brown stuff on a few surfaces.. no worries anyways.. they've all been cleaned up.. and well.. if u guys still need a place to bunk.. it's open! no sleeping bag yet tho.. cuz i lugged back some stuff this week.. and YESH.. i've cleaned my floor too.. :) i'm a happy camper..
all that being said.. i guess i'm ready for school now.. heh! and to keep all u guys updated - in case u all wanna arrange stuff, i'll be caught up with monday dance practices for the whole of jan from 7-9pm.. so if u wanna get me on mon.. get me before i leave at 545pm.. hahah! :)
darn it.. i'm really realy considering jus taking all six mods....... somebody pls pls pls talk me out of this..
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title: its baaaaack.. to SCHOOOOOL
arharharh so today marks the beginning of what we call semester 2 eh? and i daresay it looks set to be a whopping big busy sem for me due to some very unwise decisions on my part and all done in the name of passion/pride/prejudice/etcetc.. hahah alright i jus had to put in the prejudice part since it was a 'p' word and it flowed after i put in the word 'pride'. so as u can tell.. 'pride' is part of the reason why i'm where i am.. hahaha
anyways.. i had a few random comments floating abt in my head that i thot were blog-worthy.. but somehow they've all gone save for one.. and that is..
NUS students probably access the IVLE obsessively every time sem begins. i'll bet if they did a hit count for the site, it'd number up to millions. well, i guess that heralds the start of school!
and a headache!! cuz up till now.. i haven't settled my modules for this sem and this is worrying..
nope, not because i've got too lil modules.. in fact.. i'm worried i'll have too many! cuz i'm trying to get this ism thing going and the clock is ticking! i need to submit a proposal by a certain day/time and gargh... there's sooo much prep to be done! and as a result.. i can't fully stabilize my timetable and the stuff i'm doing this sem cuz i'll be dropping one of my bidded modules to make way for the ism.. (note: i did consider doing six modules, but at the rate my cca load is going.. i tink it'd amt to suicide.. it's crazy laa!!) ar well... at least the rest of my mods are settled.. so to speak and i'm thankful for that...
ahh.. i've got back another thot.. and it's this...
my secondary school fren's featured in Life! today and she's a singer based in tokyo...
everybody say "Woaaaaaaaah"
and she's coming to UCC to perform under NUS arts fest.. i'm SO gonna make sure i'm going there as a journo to catch up wit her.. hahaha not that i'm star struck or anything but i've realy been wondering about how she's been, since we were not those hi-bye kinda friends. we really had good chats once tho it isn't really to a good friend kinda extent. but i tink we might've been closer if she hadn't been part of mirai and started being busy with contract/singing stuff.. cuz she was a councillor ma and den with her career at hand, cannot conc on council also.. so she left i tink..
but it's interesting eh? and it makes me wonder all the more now about what the future holds for all of us.. esp since i'm gonna have quite a few friends graduating from school this yr.. it's almost surreal...... gosh...
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YFriday, January 05, 2007
title: WEeeeeEEeee
finally went out with WE ytd after about a week or so of asking when we were all free.. big big thanks to tanny for arranging the outing.. but ytd was fun!! hahah and i cycled.. for once instead of blading and woaah.. the initial rush of going so fast and so smoothly was a little weird.. hahah but not bad la.. at least i quite steady/stable on bike.. so heh! next my jie and alvin wanna go cycling i can match em..tho i tink they're WAAAY better la.. :P
as per our usual routine.. we took nonsense photos.. n they're up as my display pics via msn.. hahaha got a few la.. i wanna put up here.. but erjie says she can't see em.. and if u guys can't see it den it jus defeats the purpose la.. sooo.. hmm.. i'll find something somehow..
and we saw our CHLOE!! oh gosh.. she's so so pretty now! like a dolly.. and she's got curly curly hair.. hahaha and she can say words now! aaaaah.. so CUTE! and wad was funny was that she kept thinking xuan was her mummy and i was her aunt cheryl (hahahaha i still find it hilarious).. which makes me wonder abt how quickly children develop their recognition skills..
but anyways.. it was super nice seeing her again.. can't wait for her to grow up.. and well.. i reallyr eally hope that WE will keep seeing her and meeting up like this even when we're adults in the working world and all or married and everything.. and yesh! we'll show chloe her baby videos someday.. so dun delete em from ur comps!! :)
love u guys many many much!! -hugs-
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