Love, or Pride?

wow.. watching the tyra show now.. and today's issue is on lil girls having a negative body image of themselves.. and tt's really quite disturbing. of cuz.. like whad my sis say's.. it is possible that its all jus exaggeration.. but from my own experience interacting with kids that age.. they really are more conscious abt their weight and tt's quite disturbing actually.. i hope this generation doesn't turn into one that's jus so sold out on looking good on the outside even tho they really really look alright!

this is really somethign tt will see no end to debate. the ironic thing is.. as much exposure this issue is gaining.. somehow it still is beautiful to look skinny! irony of ironies maaan..

anyways.. today jus had 2 tests.. and gosh.. i feel like my brain's fried.. i jus hope i do well! -crosses fingers- this is one of those times when u dun really know how well u'll do.. and i get this feeling i didn't argue my case very well for LPP.. bahasa.. not too bad.. but the compo was quite hard.. heh! good tg was.. i wrote an essay like the question set before.. whahaha.. soooo i jus added on a bit more stuff lo.. cuz we needed to use certain words la..

but aiyah.. it's over.. so jus gonna lift it up to God! -looks up- U got every in Ur mighty hands eh? thank YOU! (:

so now its on to watching webcast lecture for religion and prepare for presentation on thurs.. and yesh.. work on my religion paper again.. i'm getting there!! wheee!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/27/2007 06:48:00 PM .

title: chinning and gaying my way down orchard road

hahah alright it doesn't sound half as wrong as all that la hor! hahaha but anyways.. yesh this friday and sat was spent traipsing down orchard road and dancing like 4 times each time i was down.. and al for wad??

CHINGAY 2007 - Hip enough to Hop!

heh! yep.. tt's our item name and we were with the float that was silver in colour and had lil things sticking out of it.. heh.. and the MPs were dancing with us.. heh! (:

but yesh.. have a look at the photos and u'll know how much photowhoring i did.. i've got other pics in other cams.. so i'm jus waiting for tt.. this is wad i hv on my phone.. so heh.. too bad la.. all my egotistical photos lo (: i love my makeup tho.. wheee... me proud of myself for doing it so nicely.. heh! and i've jus discovered the wonders of foundation.. it REALLY covers up a LOT of flaws.. gag! which means.. i have a lot to cover up in order to notice the diff la hor.. heh heh..

dancing in chingay wasn't too bad.. not as tiring as i thot.. and today (sat) was def better than ytd's perf cuz we kept hydrated and we all had more choreographed arrangment after we all got a shock when the kids sudddenly came up to dance alongside us.. we'd NEVER practiced with em before let along know that they were coming.. pat was SO pissed with em.. hahaha i tk he jus wanted everybody else to see how we were dancing and well.. those kids were also dancing in our faces la and we couldn't dance properly cuz they kept eating into our space.. and yep.. pat jus got pissed.. hahah he 'yelled' at em but they didn't hear la.. cuz too high alr lo.. (:

but yes.. it felt strangely wonderful to be walking on orchard road like semi-celebs.. cuz pp were waving to us all round... and i tk this has got to be the biggest pool of audience i've ever performed to.. so yeah.. eye-opening. but wad got me thinking was how this parade really brings together everybody.. from the construction workers on the site they were working at, to the elderly, the young, the intellectually challenged.. it was about bringing everyone to the same place. and all of a sudden when i was walking i jus felt like i was doing something significant.. even know i knew i was kinda insignificant if i jus looked at the parade itself. but yeah.. it was something special.. like a kinda opportunity or position, whatever u may call it, to jus reach in and bridge the divide between classes, occupations, demographic.. everything jus by virtue of acknowledging their presence and simply treating them the same. it was like i had this chance to look at everybody equally and let them know that they are all unique and special wthout any value judgment.

now i know i'm prob not being v coherent.. but hey.. its 1.51am according to my clock and i haven been sleeping well.. but heh! this was jus a thot i had when i was walking arn..

loadsa updates but too lazy to type in full:

- did term paper over the hols only to realize.. out-of-pt.. so re-did. now need to read thru and see that it isn't crappy

- finally cleared my photos from my phone. the sheer mass is slowing down my phone and i tink my comp too

- studied for LPP, had an interview with my aunt abt clans for LPP proj.. met with WE. and we devoured everything my aunt had in her hse.. well.. close to tt

- veyr very thankful and grateful to Jesus for bringing so many opportunities my way

- also very thankful to mummy for teng-ing me so much. she bought me my fav raisin loaf fr bonjour (i also like the choc chip one -hint-) and peeled mandarin orange for me. she brougth persimon too ytd but so sad.. rotten (: guess she knows i need fruit input

- glad that i got to spend loadsa time with jie this week.. i love her and miss her loads

- took an oschool level 2 class: hip hop flava. WAAAH super fast. but now i can catch the steps lo. and i'm glad i took it.. cuz it was a good challenge and of cuz.. very humbling indeed. made me remember tat i need to dance for teh right Person. heh! best tg.. jie was with me and i'm so proud of her. she can DANCE! so hear ye hear ye.. my sis can now sing, dance, play the guitar, play e electric guit, act, direct, write well and is SUPER pretty!! wahahah too bad.. she's taken and soon to be married (: hahahaha -beams-

alrites.. i tink i'm losing it.. shall end here. hahahaha (:

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/25/2007 01:42:00 AM .

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/25/2007 01:39:00 AM .

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/25/2007 01:32:00 AM .

phwah.. finally at home after being out for the past 2 days.. heh.. day1 was visitng.. day2 was spent at papa's place.. where i pigged out on the goodies cuz he bought SO much! with nobody to finish.. i felt so bad tt i jus tried to eat as much as i could to try and finish everything..

be prepared to see a pau when i get back to school.. sigh.. but aiyaah.. heck it la.. my daddy more impt.. it'd really break my heart to see him look at the pieces of unfinished stuff and like throw em away after the new yr period.. he even set out the display trays and all for contain the titbits.. -sniffs- i dun like my parents to be disappointed... it makes me sad.. so yesh.. i shall try to go hom emore to help him eat.. heh..

ytd was pretty happenign tho.. went night blading with sis, alv and some of the teh gang (alv's.. or shld i say... gor's friends). and its SHIOK la.. cuz no sun and all u get is the cool night air.. and my sis can blade so so well now.. heh! so we went at a really good speed and maaan.. i jus wanna blade somemore.. ahahah

but oooh..i fell down.. so i now have some cuts on my knee and elbow.. the right side.. was trying to do cross-overs.. so yep.. but its okay laa.. not too bad.. only thing my elbow was a bit sore la.. and when i slept last nite i kept irritating it.. gargh..

all in all tho.. i had an awesome time.. the teh gang pp are so fun to be with.. was blessed by their company.. heh! (: and they even invited me to their steamboat tg today as one of their houses.. heh! so sweet rite? but thot i'd better get down to some studyiing today.. so decided to stay in..

so here i am.. typing this entry in the kitchen listenignt o jeanie ortega over the speakers jie and gor got for me.. not bad la.. i like the kitchen..i tk working in the kitchen's good for me.. rememberi used to do tt when i was studying for my A's and O's back at our old hse.. heh! (:

anyways was feeling stressed up ytd and i'm jus so glad that we went blading cuz it really helped me get my mind off tt worry.. tking of going out again later jus for a walk or something ar.. but see how lo.. heh! (: i love blading.. i wanna go more more moooore.. and maybe tmr go dancing eh.. heh heh..

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/20/2007 04:44:00 PM .

title: let the fun begin!

wahahah i tell you.. ytd was jus my break-free-let-loose day man.. religion lecture got cancelled so guess wad.. i got off school at 12pm! and earlier in fact cuz it was bahasa and ibu always lets us off 15mins earlier.. whahah! i love bahasa.. so yesh.. friday was an awesome day cuz i had my fav lesson and i got to go home earlier after not being back for close to 2 weeks.. think only met my parents and sis (separately of cuz) like once in the entire time.. gosh..

so yesh. i was majorly glad to be back! heh.. and pleasant surprise of all pleasant surprises.. heh! jie and alvin were still arn! yaaay.. cuz initially they'd wanted to come by mummy's place first and den head off to parkway for lunch while i meet em str8 at papa's place cuz i'll prob be too late for lunch. but turns out they had lunch adn home.. dropped by mummy's place later and i back home later too.. and we met! whee! so i jus tagged along to parkway with em where i jus went crazy. alv bought us all ice cream and so we jus enjoyed our nice cold ice creams on that hot sunny day.. heh! wheee! (:

and i've finally spent all my topshop vouchers/cashcards.. many many thanks to all of u who gave em to me for my bday.. with them.. i've managed to get myself a pair of jeans (my most expensive to date.. but hopefully also best quality), a lovely lovely top, and a jacket (u guys've seen it before.. heh! only the jeans and top maybe not). but yesh.. i love all my purchases. .and ytd was jus relaxing la.. cuz after tt we headed over to our old place where we (dad, me, sis, alv) FEASTED on satay, laksa, sui jiao (fried and soup-based), chicken wings and hmm.. something else but i can't remember..heh! and we wer talking about how the zhu chao menu looked so enticing tt next time we were arn we'd eat that.. heh! super super nice!!

den we headed over to sheng shiong and my dad so cute lo.. he saw this marshmallow box thing.. u know the ones that pp buy for new yr? the assortment kind? yessssh.. he saw it and den he went "i buy for you la.. den u can bring back and eat" hahahah.. my daddy knows me best.. so yesh.. its now seating next to me on the table and its DELICIOUS.. i can't express how long its been since i last ate marshmallows in their full fluff.. hahaha choc coated ones are not counted.. heh! so yep. it looks reaaally nice and it tastes jus as nice..

sigh.. i love going back home (:

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/17/2007 01:15:00 PM .

i had a crazy time with djd jus now.. hahah after our pilates class we both headed over to yih for our regular 'date'.. wahahah dinner la! (: and everytime we're there we'll both salivate over the ramen stall there and either one or both of us will buy somethign fr there.. haha we're both such foodies.. so heh.. guess all the work out during the pilates session is heh.. gone?! (: but who cares la.. when u have such wonderful company -winks- [djd.. i'm talking abt me!!!!! WAHAHA no la joking! u know its u!]

and its jus so so amusing.. we jus kept talking about loads of stuff.. some more nonsensical than others.. and i dunno whether we stress or not la. .but we jus kept laughing and triggering each other off lo! like dunno who was mentioning about new zealand ice cream downstairs and den i went on abt how i hadn't eaten an icecream (macs not counted) in a while.. and den soon enough we both found ourselves downstairs ordering 3 scoops of icecream to share.. wahahah! super worth it la.. (: and den we amused ourselves by reading off the cup which had an uber cheesy paragraph on it.. hahaha.. and yesh.. we did it in different accents and den i resorted to taking a pic on djd's phone, cross-eyed... haaaar..

and den we heard the fire alarm go off in my hall...

i was so glad i wasn't at home den.. whaahha.. so far i've managed to miss both fire drills held these 2 sems.. they usually have one each sem.. heh! and djd was tellin gme abt how pp in her hall jus dun care if there's a fire alarm or not thinking its from the other blocks.. wahhaha (: i tink if really got fire ar.. we become bak kwa alr..

but anyways.. since the alarm rang for quite a bit an ddidn't seem to want to stop (btw it was amusing to see pp running out of their rooms and running everywhere but the tennis court which is the stipulated area for assembly.. heh! uni students) i headed over to djd's room..

where we DANCED! hahah i begged her to show me some steps from her hiphop class and she veyr kindly demo-ed em to me.. and lemme tell u something.. djd can DANCE!! (: she's jus shy.. so next time get her to dance for you.. hahahaha [djd i know u're gonna kill me but.. HAPPY NEW YR!!]

and den we jus got really high sitting on her room floor.. singing and jus rolling arn and laughing at how reggae was interpreted as 'ver[y] gay'.. heh! say it! go on.. say it! (:

i know i said this a million times tonite but honeslty.. i felt like we were the 19yr olds and her roommate (who IS 19 yrs old) was 22 instead.. hahaah! i tink we were jus crazy la.. maybe its the stress getting to us.. but heh.. it was good (:

and i feel like knocking my head on my pillow [which amts to nothing at all.. heh! gentle maaa] cuzzzzz.. the silly washing machine didn't trickle my detergent to my clothes! so basically all i have now i rinsed clothes over a 1 hr cycle.. GARRRRGH.. but i dun care alr la.. so late lo.. haaaai.. jus putting it in the dryer now to dry so that at least any bacteria or wadever eww thing will be kiiiiilled by the heat.. muahahah

ohhh angklung pract tody was kinda cool.. turns out we're only doing one song.. but heh.. we have to memorize it.. and right now.. i can't realy remember anytg abt the tune save for the fact that we're doing 'burung kaka tua' in the second part of the song.. heh! (: pretty cool stuff.. and met some new frens la.. heh! only bad thing is that i end up late for pilates.. and i miss warm ups.. but its good.. still get my work out every thurs.. the instructor's really piling on stuff now.. getting a bit more intensive.. breathing actually tones up ur tummy muscles believe or not.. u jus have to breathe properly.. (:

and yep.. jus filled out this thing on the SIP webbie.. the opportunities available are pretty cool.. i'm looking fwd to doing an internship with any one of em.. i'm sure i'll learn loads and loads!! (: and its jus the kind of stuff tt i'm thinking of doing.. policy and research.. so yep.. let's hope i get to make a difference somewhere..

i'm really really really thankful to God for this opportunity and for how He's planned it all out.. yep!

I'M GOING HOME TOMORROW!! YAAAAAAAAAY...

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/15/2007 11:17:00 PM .

title: i've finally out-dan(ced) myself..

out-done and out-dan(ced).. heh heh heh.. geddit geddit?? haha okay.. not funny (:

but yesh.. i tink i'm really feeling e effects of dancing a bit too much this week.. tho i tink i've done more before.. honestly.. hahah my right hip's not doing too well.. prob a bit of a strain from salsa.. can u imagine if i'd actually worn heels? i wore flats.. but yaaa.. or maybe tt's why?! hmm!

today's choreo was pretty nice.. i tink my legs are woozy from the floorwork.. but it was good.. heh! pat tagged on to the choreo done the week before.. or in his words "a pre-equal" rather than a continuation.. heh!

tmr.. there's pilaaaates.. and i'm wondering if i shld go for lyrical jazz at 8.. but i tink a bit hard la hor.. i usually finish at 7pm.. den must collect tix 1 hr before jazz.. so a bit difficult la.. need to make my way down to esplanade somemore.. darn.. i wanna do lyrical la!!

-mutters-

waiting for dance floor to start

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/14/2007 07:19:00 PM .

title: type type type

tt's wad i've been doing for the past.. hmmm.. 4 or 5 hrs? Ha.. yesh.. finally working on my religion paper.. its due jus after the mid sem break.. so i really need to get started and at least get some coherent ideas down..and i must say i'm quite proud of my progress thus far. i basically did all that dr j asked us to do in the instructions.. elucidate the points that durkheim made in his paper and also critically think abt the feasibility of online religious communities and think of that in relevance to what durkheim says. hahaha only thing is.. the organizations jus that.. meaning.. one part of literature and another part of personal content. heh! and i actually see how i dun need so many books for reference.. this reminds me of my writing and critical thinking module where we jus looked at one text and analyzed it critically.. oh gosh..how i miss those times.. it really made u look at eveyr text with a critical eye and jus see where there are loop holes. i tink the problem with bigger term papers is that there's so much for you to look at you cease to think critically.. like all u're concern with is jus getting thru material rather than looking at it and questioning its validity. or rather tt's a problem i get.. heh..

and i tink i've been blessed with good books for resources la.. could find quite a bit of stuff on the topic.. but heh.. dunno if i'm gonna need to use em.. since its a relatively short paper of 2000 words.. i'm already up to 1600+ so yesh.. i'm off to a good start and am feeling less panicky abt how i'm gonna cope with 3 tests, 1 presentation and 1 term paper after the midsem break. hahah to think i wanted to go windsurfing.. but i'll most prob be staying over with jie during the break.. so yep.. tt's time off getting actual work done.. i'll prob study for my tests there la.. heh!

waaah! tt means i hav eto bring my textbooks home?! gaarrgh.. i forsee another heavy bag lugging moment out of campus on friday.. pls pls pls dun rain.. (and i'm only saying this cuz of the reality of rain threatening to fall at this moment before i get to the dance studio)

heh.. i'm wondering tho.. can i actually finish my essay by tonight? hahaha (: or shld i jsu read thru some textbk stuff cuz i need that info for tmr's class.. hmm.. maybe i hsld jus read la.. give my brain a break and also jus let it think thru the thots that i've penned down so i have fresher thots when i look at it again ba.. heh! (:

arharharharhar...

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/14/2007 03:07:00 PM .

title: happy vday everyone!!

woohoo.. it's a great day to be alive.. (: hahah and noo.. it's not cuz i hv a date or wad but it's cool cuz it's e day to celebrate friendship and love! and me is feeling much much love from my lovely WE and phey ying (all of whom are my elang friends) hahahah ytd tanny was distributing heart-shaped blueberry muffins in these nice lil tupperware containers that had our names on it! SO SWEET!! and its reaaaaaally delicious.. tanny did u bake it urself? cuz if u did.. u shld sell em!! (: and she wrote a card for each of us too.. with a pic we each took with her.. so cool rite? i tell u.. tt made my day.. and phey ying also somehow managed to leave behind a bar of toblerone with a sweet msg on it when WE went off for our lecture break.. so when we came back it was such a pleasant surprise! wad a sweetie... i'm surrounded by awesome pp.. argh.. gosh.. now i feel bad abt not getting anything ready for today!

but yesh.. it's an awesome day (: i tink i'm really beginning to see how friends can celebrate vday too. got about 2 smses fr male platonic friends and it was jus nice to see vday wishes going arn aside from the romantic nature. those msges were nice friendly ones.. hahah vday rocks! (:

now who says vday's a day to be dreaded.. when you have friends like this? thank You Jesus for such wonderful friends and also for being my ever-present Date! wahahahah i know i can rely on You! (:

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/14/2007 10:02:00 AM .

title: learning to follow

wow.. wad a profound lesson to learn for a christian. and i learnt the impt of than thru salsa last nite. me and pan danced till it was 11pm! can you believe tt? and its cuz some of the guys were nice enough to teach us and really coach us on the techniques of the dance and as well as how to follow their lead. and i've really been thinking about this from then.. that so many times.. i always wan to go on 'auto pilot' as they put it cuz i tink i'm right and they're wrong or that they're inadequate.. and i tink that that's a mentality that i've carried over in my relationship with God. and its interesting to see that dance has revealed this condition of my life.. wow.. and dancing with them last nite.. it really made be realize that to follow.. you really gotta suspend all ur pride, ur criticism and jus move in sync.. its also about picking up the right cues and its about reciprocating with the right tension. i find this extremely interesting.. tt sometimes i'm jus so used to working on my own.. my own strength, abilities.. and in the end forget about the God who gave me all these. i need to trust that God is big enough truly...

and speaking of the very identity of God as my Creator.. there's this song that i've been listening to since Dawn sent em over.. heh.. (: and it begins like this..

i have a maker

wow.. i tink that's really such a deep truth that we conveniently ignore so often. like .. wow.. We were fearfully and wonderfully made.. and not haphazardly.. God put in effort in moulding us.. and He loves us so much that He's still doing this right now.. like every Creator.. He's concerned that we turn out to be the perfect masterpieces He intended us to be. and if doesn't necessarily mean doing eveyrthing right.. but getting to the heart of our purpose on Earth.. that is.. having the relationship with Him - that He created you for in the first place.

now of cuz sometimes we disappoint Him.. and i tink i learnt first hand how tt disappointment feels (many times in fact) but the most salient one is probably wad happened ytd.. and i was jus reading Prime Time with God in my email.. and the author had put up this prayer that i tink is jus so so apt..

Today's Prayer February 12, 2007
Dear God, Thank you for having a purpose for my life and for telling me what Your expectations are through the Bible. I know You must be disappointed with me many times, when I fail to meet Your expectations of me. I can identify with that from a human standpoint. When I expect a family member to be responsible and to do something that they do not do, or when they make wrong choices in life, I am very disappointed. Sometimes I feel frustrated or angry and other times heartbroken. Help me to be kind-hearted and long-suffering with them, like You are with me. Guide me to handle those disappointments with integrity; to remain quiet when I should and to speak up when I should. Please give me the thoughts, words, and actions You want me to have. And God, please forgive me for disappointing You. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

and yeaah.. i tink i need to be more loving and more real with myself and others.

interesting that salsa shld spark this off eh? (: anyways.. the reason why me and pan stayed so late that night was cuz kyo allowed us to stay on for the intermediate class under the encouragement of some of my salsa mates.. haha! they're a nice bunch.. heh! and both me and pan realize that we're actually really shy.. hahaha! cuz its jus sooooo weird/difficult to look at the guy u're dancing with.. it requires a lot of eye contact man.. and ARRRGH.. so paiseh.. i told pan that if the guy were too good looking or too near my age i tink i'll end up blushing lo.. hahhahaha.. but yesh.. slowly learning learning.. (: i tink i need to get my confidence back.. its really taken a backseat since jc.. and yeah.. i need God to restore my confidence.. that i wouldn't be in myself or my own abilities.. but that it'd be in God.. yep!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/13/2007 10:52:00 AM .

title: my second ever compo in bahasa indo!

Kakak Perempuan Saya

Saya ada kakak perempuan. Nama dia adalah Nicole. Dia orangnya cantik sekali dan dia rambutnya adalah lurus dan panjang. Dia badanya ramping. Kakak perempuan saya bisa berbahasa Inggris, Cina dan Cantonese. Dia pandai berbahasa Inggris dan dia juga berbahasa Cina lancar. Dia ingin belajar bahasa Perancis tetapi dia sudah bisa berberhasa Perancis sedikit-sedikit. Bahasa Perancis dia tidak lancar. Dia sekarang ada di rumah dia. Kakak perempuan saya sekarang tinggal di Bishan, dengan pacar dia dan keluarga pacar karena rumah saya kecil sekali.

heh.. this time the wordcount's increased to 80 kata.. so yeah.. they're slowly raising the standard.. hahahah..

got loadsa readigns to catch up on.. but shall do this slowly slowly.. heh! and ohhh.. i jus bought meself foundation! yaaaaays.. like finally la.. cuz i haven't had my own foundation for as long as i can remember.. hmm.. so yesh.. finally.. and ah hah! i got fake lashes too.. heh.. for chingay la.. but i tink i'm gonna start putting mascara lo.. having long luscious lashes really opens up the eye.. something a person like me needs.. hahaha! and i'm contemplating putting on make up tonight.. wahah should i should i ???? (:

i feel pweeety oh so pweeety!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/12/2007 11:55:00 AM .

title: Playback theatre

wondering what that (points to title) means? well i dunno about you but today was the first time for me, hearing about this kinda theatre/drama/artform.. and boy am i glad i went to the performance today.

and okay before i proceed.. let me jus confess that i didn't go for a campus concert tonigt (its free!!) for the fact that it was a perf by Tapestry Playback Theatre. i went there with full expectation of a dance perf cuz the ivle announcement mentioned it was by the singapore dance theatre... i know.. polar opposites rite? but maybe not eh?

and why i say this is cuz.. even when you dance.. u need to be able to feel the emotion in the song/dance. every move you make. it has to be intentional and heart-felt for it to be a mindblowing perf.. and not jus perf but a real representation of who you are. some of the best dances (and i'm not saying performances) are done when they are truly expressing what you feel deep down inside. and this links up to what playback theatre does.

playback theatre basically came about when this guy decided spontaneous theatre gathered from the real-life experiences of the audience was the way to go. and on hindsight.. i tink it really is.. its contagious and it jus makes u wanna go back for more even tho it feels awkward to begin with. how tonight was handled was that there'd be this person called the 'conductor' cuz he/she conducts the session and he/she has a troupe of actors who will act out any scene/experience that has been told by a member of the audience. so in this way.. you not only get to see ur experience in motion.. but done artistically too with the use of colours, cloth, boxes, and yes.. a music accompaniment where the musician (usually one) either sings or plays simple sound instruments (not sophisticated ones like the trombone or what not) jus lil things like tok-toks and all..

and tonight's perf/session ( i can't call it a perf cuz it was really all about stuff tt were real) was jus awesome! cuz i was jus listening in awe at all the different experiences eveyrbody had and its like.. eveyrobdy has their own story and because the theme for the night was 'it's my life' (incidentally they played tt song before they started) the stories revolved arn experiences that made people the way they were.. and some stories ranged from touching (like when one of the student-helpers related a story about her grandfather passing away and being lied to by the doctor.. i tink it really struck a chord with all those who've ever experienced the passing of a loved one) and to those being darn funny (like how this guy got approached to be a model.. but for wad.. an art school.. requiring him to be NAKED and they approached him cuz he was ang moh).

i must say that it really felt kinda cathartic i guess.. even tho i didn't share.. i jus felt like this was one of those opportunities where art is used to help pp express themselves. sometimes letting themselves back in the moment.. to reflect.. to cherish.. to view it years on.. and sometimes to know that they're still alive after all that has happened. there was something special about the way this session was conducted.. and it was done with remarkable sensitivity and humour at the same time. and they had different formats too for different scenarios.. for eg if a moment consisted of 2 feelings existing at once.. they'd pair up and perform the two feelings, conflicting or not, at the same time.. it was jus remarkable! and they had this thing called a fluid where scenes would flow from one point to another and eventually freeze at a culminating point and tt'd be the 'sculpture' of the moment. it was very very very very very good.

another thing that was itneresting was also how this really got pp bonded to one another. there really is somethign about sharing stories that weaves a bond of friendship over all who hear it. got to know this girl stephanie and she shared something pretty personal with me.. and i'm jus thinking.. wow.. this theatre thing is really more than jus about a perf and gawking at the performers on stage eh.. WE are the ones involved in the stories of our lives.. and tt's what we're gonna see on stage. after the entire thing i almost felt a personal connection to those who'd shared a part of themselves with us. and it was jus beautiful la.. words can't describe the exact feeling i'm getting from this..

so many thots are coming to me right now.. and i'll have to admit that i got a liil emotional thinking of the moments in my life. big or small. sad or happy. they're moments and somehow i feel like if i'd shared.. those pp would've honoured it. if anything.. the entire philosophy of the session was that if its a memory.. its got value. and perhaps that's how it's like in God's eyes too.. if its part of you.. its got value and worth.

and well jus a thot.. we're put on a stage - the question to ask is this.. who are we performing for?

you can visit their blog at tapestryplayback.blogspot.com

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/07/2007 10:33:00 PM .

title: nice

was walking back to hostel ytd after meeting up with jie for the night out.. and i jus thot to myself.. this day has just gotta be one of those best days u ever have in a uni semester. with no pressing deadlines, no exams/tests, jus studying cuz u wanna study. and of cuz.. the slight breeze u get along campus at night and the stars that peeped out of the clouds.. it was jus beautiful (:

got up later than i usually would today.. and it felt good.. haha.. i tink i'm making up for lost sleep. at least i dun wake up and feel tired or something.. so yaaays! (:

anyways today is WORKday for me.. gonna try to get my ism nailed down and try to at least understand what my religion prof is asking of me in the assignment (for once i dun really understand or see the link) i guess its one of those things where u jus have to try out before figuring it out eventually.. heh! and yep.. going for the jr class today.. heh.. somehow i tink i prefer having an earlier day la..

okies.. work work work!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/07/2007 12:11:00 PM .

title: back to salsa?

heh! alrights.. i'm jus back from my first salsa class at xenbar since hmm.. 1.5 yrs ago? hahah and it was cool.. felt that adrenaline rush of learning a new dance again (: and of cuz it helps that i knew quite a few of the moves alr cuz we basically had a crash course of salsa/rueda back then when we did usc rag .. heh! and i'm proud to say that i know their top instructors on a personal level.. heh! so tt was quite cool la.. -beams- the instructor today, kyo kinda asked if i'd learnt salsa before and i jus murmured abt how i knew a bit.. which is true la.. cuz i know my basics technique is really not there. .and yeah.. it was good cuz i tink i really learnt some stuff tt i knew i could improve and all.. if not sure super boring la.. and even tho before this i was kinda hesitant letting my mondays up for dance classes when i can jus nua at home or do something equally lazy, now i tink i really wanna learn some more and pursue this dance..

and of course it helps tt i'm learning it with PANDORA! my best fweeeeen.. wahahah i'm glad that at least there's this time when we can both meet up and jus learn something together and well.. jus be there for each other la.. i tink tt's something we haven't done on a good regular basis.. hahaha (: best friends shldn't be saying 'i haven't seen u in a while' so often.. hahaha! and yesh.. having her as another avid dancer who's working to perfect the art helps too.. hahaha wheeeeee!

so i'm considering going on to intermediate and i guess if we both have the finances next time.. (my mum's paying for this now - thank you Mummy!!) we'll pay for ourselves ba.. dun wanna put the strain on mummy.. yep!

right now my brain's jus firing away with all sorts of avenues i could take to keep learning more dance.. but i know that i have only 24hrs a day. and even so.. i know i wan my life to be set on fire for God.. in pursuit of His purpose.. sure i know He loves it when i enjoy pursing my passions/interests.. and i'll bet He's right there saying.. go ahead and dance if u like it.. but if its gonna make me cranky and grumpy and tired out by the end of all the endless practs (heh! tautological) and its not moving in the direction He's laid out for me.. den its nah-ah.. no more! God's bigger than dance.. (:

heh! wheeeeeeee...

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/05/2007 09:23:00 PM .

title: presenting to you...

.. my first ever Bahasa Indonesia composition! wahahahha.. proudly entitled Rumah Saya. (translation: my house..heh!)

Rumah Saya

Saya tinggal di Ang Mo Kio. Saya dengan ibu saya dan tante saya tinggal di rumah saya. Bioskop dan perpustakaan di jauh rumah saya tetapi rumah saya di dekat warung kopi, pasar dan terminal bis. Warung kopinya adalah kotor, tetapi saya senang sekali. Mengapa? Karena makanan enak! Pasar juga adalah kotor tetapi besar. Rumah saya adalah bagus karena rumah saya bersih, tetapi rumah saya adalah kecil! (66 words)

hahah i know my grammar is still not there yet.. wahahha.. but ar well.. it feels nice to be able to type out something like this! hahah (:

learning loads from indo class.. we're onto lesson 3 alr.. can u believe it? gosh.. hahaha! i know how to describe pp now.. haahah and err.. i know how to talk about my language abilities? hahaha... oh gosh.. i desperately nee dto revise tho.. heh!

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/02/2007 09:50:00 PM .

title: on donating blood...

... thing is..

i DIDN'T!!

waaaaaaaaah.. i very sad la! i was this close i tell ya.. this close to donating blood but...

my blood pressure too low.. and the doctor asked me to go drink water and she accurately predicted tt i haven't drunk water since morning.. and tt's really really disturbing that not drinking water can affect ur ability to donate blood. serious man.. i'm really thinking of downing 8 glasses of water a day now.. its time to live healthy! and yesh.. my blood pressure was low enough that the doc said if i'd gone and donated anyways i might jus pass out when they start draining me.. hahaha (: okay.. maybe drain isnt' such a good word but well.. tt seems the most appropriate. and so i wonder.. is that why i keep getting giddy spells? tt i haven drunk enough water even tho i've eaten? gosh i always thot getting giddy was about not eating.. rather than not drinking! -gasp-

ar well.. so now i'm jus really really full.. i tink i took like 3 cups of water over there la.. and well.. i have no idea how low my pressure was the first time they took it but the second and third times were 93 and 98 respectively.. still shy of the 100 mark.. gaaargh! so SAD! i wish i'd drunk like a litre of water like this girl tt i met there did.. heh.. we acquainted ourselves with each other at the snack table for those who'd jus donated blood.. hahaha a pity i couldn't bring myself to eat the biscuits cuz i thot.. tt'll be a reward for those who've done the mighty deed. heh! (:

and yesh.. we had to weigh ourselves.. hahaha i'm 56kg!!!! -screams- so heavy la!! dunno how come also.. when i entered NUS i was 53kg leh.. and but yet.. my mummy says i look thinner than when i was when i entered nus.. i feel thinner too.. so..hmm.. wad happened?? muscle mass? or jus water retention? ?!?!

gaargh. now i feel the urge to go to toilet la.. haa.. all that water's coming out i tink... hahahahahah

have i succeeded in grossing u guys out? (:

i keep on walking took her pride away at 2/01/2007 03:54:00 PM .